Text/An Dongyue
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01.
Lin Huiyin said: "We are always hurt by sudden fate, and regard these as indispensable themes in life. Some fate is just a dream, and it disappears in an instant. A trace of the past. Some fate took root and took root in your life, and has been entangled ever since. "
I thought you were the rest of my life, but unexpectedly you became a trace of my past; I thought that time would fade away. Everything, but unexpectedly you took root in my heart. The fate between you and me is really messy and untidy.
At this moment, there was wind blowing outside the window, and I suddenly felt a little lost. I haven’t contacted you for a long time. I wonder how you are doing these days. Have you suddenly thought of me at a certain moment? At this moment, a gust of wind blew by, and I thought of you.
When I think of you, I always feel a little depressed. Because you almost never take the initiative to contact me. Every time I muster up the courage to send you a message. Although you reply every time, it is not enough to prove that you still have me in your heart. If you still have me in your heart, you won't always be so passive. However, if you no longer care, why don't you make a decisive move and completely cut off contact with me?
If I can’t see through you, I can’t guess your heart. You will always be a mystery to me.
02.
Some people are far apart, but their hearts are very close; some people are very close, but their hearts are far apart; and we are far apart, but our hearts are farther away.
Once upon a time, we were indistinguishable from each other, there was no distance, you knew me, I knew you, so close, so in love.
Nowadays, we seem to be separated by thousands of rivers and mountains. Even if we occasionally contact each other, our words are no longer as cordial and natural as before. I can't say what I want to say, I hesitate to ask the questions but choose to forget them. Maybe I don't know the answers to some questions, but it would be better.
What brings us further apart? It's time, it's reality, it's an insurmountable gap.
Why can’t we let go even though we know that our fate has come to an end? Because you are the only person I have ever loved in my life, and deep in my heart, I have never really let go of you. The past, present, and future cannot be indifferent to you.
Therefore, I always tell myself not to miss you, but at the same time I can’t help but think of you; while scolding myself for being spineless, I shamelessly contact you again and again.
If it weren’t for caring too much, who would be willing to be so humble? The only strange thing is that I used too much affection in the first place and can no longer escape unscathed.
03.
There is a kind of care, called active contact.
has a hope and is waiting for your contact.
Although you have become more and more indifferent, I have always had vague expectations for you, and I hope you will take the initiative to contact me. Tell me that you have never forgotten it, and you did not take the initiative to contact me just because you were afraid of disturbing me.
Maybe, the real reason is not like this, but I only want to believe what I want to believe.
Just as Zhang Ailing said: "The sound of rain is gurgling, like living by a stream. I would rather rain every day, thinking that you can't come because of the rain."
This is what happens when you care too much about a person, even if he You have to find reasons for your neglect and neglect of yourself, thinking that he has no choice but not to not love yourself or not think about yourself.
If one day, you really take the initiative to contact me, I will definitely be ecstatic, but I will not show it too obviously, I will only pretend to be indifferent and say: "It's rare that you will think of me."
The more I care about someone People are more afraid of being ignored when they are full of enthusiasm, so they are cautious and dare not reveal their feelings easily for fear of being looked down upon. Many people have this kind of self-protection mentality. Anyone who has had the same experience must understand how sad and helpless it is.
The days flow quietly like water, and the thoughts linger like the wind.
I miss you, miss you, wait for you, wait for you to take the initiative to contact me, even a simple greeting or a smiling expression can make me very happy.
I am looking forward to it, waiting for you, I just hope you will surprise me suddenly.
is just, can I wait? I don't know, but I won't give up hope. Because having something to look forward to is a beautiful thing in itself.
has a hope and is waiting for your contact. I hope that one day, all the expectations will come true...
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