Recently, my headline writing has encountered a bottleneck. I no longer have the subject matter or desire to write. Today I sorted out a previous assignment. I don’t know how long I can stick with Toutiao. I feel a little tired. The goal I want to achieve has not been achieved yet. I will stick to it until March next year.
This article reviews my own family environment, introduces the process of my getting involved in the psychological counseling industry, and introduces the emotional impact and changes in my state of mind that psychology has had on me.
I would like to try writing some articles about marriage, family, and personal psychology in the future.
Family background
My family background is ordinary but sad. I was born in a rural area in Hebei in the 1970s. Seven days after I was born, my mother had a high fever and passed away after treatment failed. My father was a private teacher in a rural middle school. After graduating from high school, he taught in schools. He was serious and responsible in his work and had outstanding teaching achievements. Because I am literate, someone soon introduced my stepmother to my father.
’s stepmother has many family members, ranking third, with 9 brothers and sisters. I heard from adults that her stepmother was a female party member in the village when she was young, and often attended meetings in some counties and towns. I don’t know on some occasion, she may have met a like-minded man, but the two did not get together. The stepmother may have been mentally stimulated to a certain extent, and she was not ready to get married. Helping my parents at home, working in the fields, lighting fires, and taking care of my nieces and nephews.
After my biological mother passed away, someone came to my stepmother's house to talk about marriage. My stepmother was scolded and tricked by her sister into marrying my father. At that time, my biological mother must have just passed away, because my eldest brother was born when I was 1 year and 9 months old. My father was 27 at the time and my stepmother must have been 35. My stepmother especially likes to read, but when she was a child, the adults at home may have asked her to take care of the children and help with housework, and she did not have the opportunity to study more, so she especially likes that my father is educated. After
got married to my father, he was very tolerant of my father. He can do housework, work in the fields, feed pigs, wash and cook, and he is very capable.
Before I was 1 year old, I was said to have had a total of 7 wet nurses. The one who took care of me the longest was probably a girl named Xiaohua from the same village. She was from the same village as my stepmother. She had 4 sons and she wanted me very much. She asked my father to marry a man introduced by her, and the condition of that man's marriage was to let my father give me away. My father always refused to give me away. For this reason, he had a fight with Xiaohua. Xiaohua demanded excessive parenting expenses from my father, detained my jewelry and clothes, and then sent me back to my father naked. At this time, my stepmother should have tried her best to raise me. She took me with her when she returned to my parents' home. Then she gave birth to an eldest brother, who was more than 1 year younger than me, and then gave birth to a younger brother, who was 4 years younger than me.
When I was a child, I often heard my grandma say that my mother died after giving birth to me. I was not my biological child, and I was afraid that my stepmother would beat me and scold me, but I was never beaten or scolded. My grandma is a well-educated person. When I was older, I slept with her when I was about 5 or 6 years old. I often saw her reading and telling me stories. I was particularly good at telling stories in elementary school. The children who went to and from school together listened to my stories on the road and were willing to walk with me.
When I was more than 9 years old, my grandma passed away. My uncle from a certain city came back to attend the funeral. He felt very pitiful when he saw me. Later, my father sent me to a certain city to study with my uncle and aunt in the fourth, fifth and sixth grade of elementary school. Because I did not have a local household registration, I was not allowed to go to junior high school. I returned to the countryside and studied with my father in the school where he taught. Later, I passed the normal school and became a self-reliant woman who switched from a rural household registration to a commercial grain household registration. After working, I obtained some qualification certificates through part-time study and improved my abilities in all aspects.
lived with my uncle in a certain city for three years, which allowed me to receive a good education, open up my wisdom, and accept some housework management from my aunt, such as storing clothes, tidying up, and receiving guests. I received some edification and training, which gave me certain abilities to build my own family in the future.
My two younger brothers have been living with my stepmother. When they were in primary school, they went to the school classroom to attend classes and suffered injuries on campus. After telling my father, they received no intervention or attention. My stepmother often worried about them outside the classroom and looked at them, which affected the teaching. Later, the two younger brothers were forced to leave school and have been playing with my stepmother at home or working in the fields.
Personal Consciousness
years later, when my little brother was messing up his life and making my life exhausted, he confided in me that the two of them were bullied at school. He told my father that he forced them to leave school regardless of their demands. He really wanted to go to school. The words were full of resentment towards his father. He may think that all his unhappiness is caused by his father, and since I live a better life than him, I have the obligation to support him.
It wasn’t until this time, when I was about 44 years old, that I began to reflect on my parents’ lifestyle and whether my father did not do enough and lacked guidance and education for his children, which led to my eldest brother falling ill and passing away at the age of 17. , is the departure of my biological mother also an inevitable result of my father not being able to take care of others, or even being caused by my father's relatively weak ability to make a living? After my younger brother hit people twice with his car, he had no money to pay for it and asked me to pay it back.
I am unhappy at my workplace and my boss. My mood is extremely low and uncomfortable. I have a stable job but am extremely unhappy. I want to escape from this working environment and retire early. The pain of going to work is unbearable.
My mood is inexplicably low every afternoon, I often feel inexplicable anxiety, the terrible upside-down hallucination that occasionally appears in my dreams, the difficulty in falling asleep, the pain of insomnia, and the increasing depression, all make me want to find a way to relieve myself.
Until a classmate sent me a link to study as a home tutor. Anyway, I tried to study for one period when I had nothing to do. The original intention was to have a part-time job to earn some money after passing the exam. If I could find a way to make money, I wanted to retire early. Working brought me too much pain.
I didn’t expect that after studying as a family educator, I would also sign up for a course as a psychological counselor. Especially after studying adolescence courses with Teacher Song Li for a period of time, I felt that the psychology and education I studied in a normal college had some case support, which made me understand why it is used in this way.
My mood has improved, my sleep has improved, my mood has improved, and the sadness I felt every afternoon has disappeared. My view of the leadership at work has changed, and I have realized that I have done something wrong. I don’t hate going to work so much.
I feel that I am so happy. I started a new life at the age of 47. I began to explore my original family. I wanted to find out the reason why my little brother was in such a bad life. Is it because he is a patient? Why is his life so painful and hard? How can I Life also brings pain, which has brought endless harm to my body and mind. I want to explore the reasons. I hope to systematically understand the development of psychology and learn professional knowledge of psychology. The Psychological Counselor Qualification Examination just provides me with such an opportunity to learn and improve my cognition.
Professional Behavior Analysis
For me, learning psychological counseling is an opportunity for growth. Every moment of my life is a painful experience of self-dissection, and I dig to find the truth behind the impact of my original family on me. Everyone is pursuing the life experience they want. The happiness I want is to constantly improve myself and understand myself, so that I can help the suffering and unfortunate people and try more different experiences. Helping and influencing people in need is not a sacrifice or dedication to me, it is a mission.
In my life journey of more than 40 years, my biggest gain is my own growth.In the days that followed, I passed the consultant exam and obtained the certificate. Then I studied all the courses systematically and carefully, absorbed them quietly, and deepened the learning effect through notes, maps, and even article output. Writing is the way I am good at, and output is also a deeper process of improvement and learning. I will use my own advantages to gradually adjust and improve my abilities.
After I found the path to happiness and satisfaction in life, I found that most of the people around me were surrounded by all kinds of pain. No matter where I was, I could hear people complaining, blaming, resenting, and being surrounded by all kinds of negative emotions. I think most of the problems can be solved through psychological adjustment. So, I began to make some preparations for psychological counseling for people in need, but at present my ability is still lacking. I first adjust my emotions and personal state of mind, and then review the courses carefully to the extent that I think I have fully mastered them, and then do some part-time psychological counseling work to further train my abilities in actual combat.
I am full of interest and longing for the career of a psychological counselor. I hope to learn in depth about marriage and family relations and child psychology , because I feel that every family is like a cell of society, and the psychological state of family members directly affects the state of the family and the stability of society. I hope that when I am fully prepared, I can change the way more people treat others and deal with the world, so that everyone can feel the fragrance of flowers and feel the beauty.
I have also seriously considered the issues of transference and counter-transference, as well as my own psychological supervision that may arise in the process of psychological counseling work.
I think that during the consultation process, if you meet someone who has a life experience similar to mine, and who has a tortuous life, countertransference may occur; in addition, I don't like people who are unpunctual, so if you encounter such consultants , you may not be objective enough. If transference and countertransference occur, or if there is a lack of objectivity, I will make a referral as soon as possible.
For personal emotional supervision, I will seek help from the institution where I work. In addition, I also hope to establish contact with multiple mentors and find a development direction and genre that suits me by learning different styles and genres.
heals himself through the study of psychology. At the same time, he also wants to help more people live a better life and bravely face all the storms in their lives.
