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A so-called good friend in junior high school, I don’t know if it was out of jealousy, but she deliberately had conflicts with me before every big exam, said unfounded bad things to classmates and teachers, and spit into my pencil case. Water, and stealing my notebooks and books before the high school entrance examination...
The head teacher at that time also always made up some things when I was away, which made many classmates think that I was a hypocritical person. He often ignored me when my friend and I made progress, and only punished me when we all made mistakes...
Because I was disappointed with the class teacher's favoritism and was not taken seriously after asking my parents for help, I tolerated it. Throughout junior high school, I didn’t even react when I found saliva in my pencil case, I just focused on studying hard. This incident caused me to be very panicked and shy when interacting with others, and it also led to me being almost thought to have autism in the first two years of high school.
I am now in college, and I always feel vulnerable when Sometimes I think back to what happened at that time, especially the saliva in the pencil case and the word "autism" I overheard in the first year of high school. Sometimes I hate myself for not resisting, and I feel very ashamed of it, and feel that I am a weak person. people. I want to get rid of this shadow
Dear, you know your situation very well. It is the impact of past emotional events on an individual. In other words: things have passed, but the mood has not gotten better. . There is pain and grievance in your heart. It pops up from time to time, eager for an explanation.
This situation is relatively common in real life, so your grievances are understood and sympathized with. You are not alone. Summary of the
incident: For reasons I couldn’t understand, a so-called good friend in junior high school deliberately had conflicts with me before every major exam.
felt ignored and treated unfairly, and the head teacher was eccentrically disappointed.
asked his parents for help but was not taken seriously.
current situation: I am now in college. When I think back to what happened at that time when I was relatively vulnerable, I sometimes hate myself for not resisting and feel very ashamed of it.
Now that you are in college, looking back at past events, this experience makes you very uncomfortable. And you think this experience has had a profound impact on you. At the same time, you feel ashamed for not resisting in the past.
Frankly speaking, there is not much text in this paragraph, but there is more homework to be done. Judging from personal clinical experience, it is not something that can be solved in one go.
First up: emotions and feelings. The three overlaps: jealousy of classmates, favoritism by teachers, and you feel humiliated and treated unfairly. When I returned home to talk to my parents, I felt no support. (This part needs to be reworked, released, and said goodbye to the past)
Secondly, dealing with this pain requires patient preparation. Do you have the strength to experience the injury and pain again? (Human psychology has a defense mechanism to preserve itself, but it will be suppressed in the subconscious. It often pops up)
Third, examine the dialogue of the inner self: Your knowledge, strength, and environment in the past were not enough to give you the strength to fight against the current situation. status. And now I regret and criticize what happened in the past. It is also the inner part of destruction. (This part needs to be seen to avoid dealing with pain through the front door and regret through the back door)
