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"Why didn't you tell me the fact that she was mentally ill before getting married!"
"It was you who induced her to participate in stock trading, but now she lost the market, but she pushed the blame to us. It was fine before getting married, but now it's like this. This is your responsibility!"
"I'm going to sue you in court!"
accusations turned into verbal abuse. Dad slapped her husband in the head, and the husband punched her father, and the two of them fought each other.
I collapsed, my headache was split, and I squatted on the ground with my head tightly held my head, making a scream of "ah-ah".
1
1 10 years ago, that year I was eighteen years old and was in my senior year of high school.
There are not many people in the entire village who were admitted to key county middle schools, including me. Leaving the countryside is my greatest wish. Looking at my parents, working hard year after year in the palm of my hand, just taking care of food and clothing all year round, I have a strong idea that I must rush out.
The sentence on the wall behind the classroom: As long as you can’t learn to death, you will learn to death, and I will remember it firmly in my mind.
I will do my best every big and small test. It is common to learn two or three o'clock in the middle of the night. Put down the chemistry paper and take out the math real questions. I just finished memorizing English words and there are still chemical equations that need to be memorized.
The brain switches back and forth on different channels, like a rotating machine. Whenever I learnt that it was late at night, I wanted to give up many times, but I gritted my teeth and persevered.
After taking the college entrance examination, I felt exhausted. Regardless of my grades, I have tried my best.
The college entrance examination score is still a few points away from my first choice. In other words, I have no chance to get a second book, so I can only get a third book. The tuition, accommodation and living expenses of three books are checked online, and the tuition, accommodation and living expenses are not less than 30,000 yuan a year.
That is the total income of our family for the whole year. Moreover, the family will face the big event of getting married with his brother. His 25-year-old brother is still working outside and has no place to stay.
"Daughter, you have also seen the situation at home. You can't go to college. After a while, you will go to your brother's place to find a job, and your brother's girlfriend is also working there."
Why? I have worked hard for three years! Has the efforts of these three years been wasted? Is my college dream shattered like this? And the ink I've been drinking for more than ten years, is it considered in vain?
"Child, in the countryside, it's already very good to have a girl who graduated from high school. You go out to work and earn money, support yourself the same way, find a good husband's family in the future, and live a good life. This is not what our ancestors have done for generations."
No! ! !
My mother's persuasion was heard in my ears. I ran out of the house frantically and ran along the road behind the village.
That's not the way I'm going to go, I feel suffocated, and a rope strangled my throat. I don’t want the kind of life that can see the end of my head at first sight, and I can’t see the hope or the future.
When I got home in a daze, the whole family looked at me in surprise and asked me with concern where I went?
I cried and laughed: "Don't come over, get out of here, the farther the better! I'm too tired!" After
I cried loudly!
2
I am hysterical!
The family contacted the city's psychiatric hospital and sent me to the hospital. Fortunately, my condition is not too serious. With the intervention and guidance of a psychologist, I slowly got out of psychological misunderstandings.
They comforted me: There are many ways of life, and you don’t have to get into college, the only way out. Everyone has their own flowering period. If one road cannot be done, change the other road. There is no need to go to the dark side. The key is not walking, but the mood when walking.
How great it would be if my parents were like these doctors! Don't force me to do things I don't like to do. Don’t confine your thinking to the point of being small, and impose your consciousness on your children.
I can also understand their hardships and difficulties, but I don’t want to accept this ending.
My brother and future sister-in-law also came to visit me and asked me to go to the city where they work to relax, and I followed them.
It is a city in the south. It is leaning against the beach. When resting, they will take me to the beach to eat snacks and blow the sea breeze.
I was so envious of them as they joked with each other and their loving eyes. These young people always exude the breath of youth, making people unable to feel the confusion of the future.
It turns out that besides schools and books, there are some things that can enrich and change a person. For example, work and love.
I promised them, came to this city, and started my own working life.
Although working life is very hard, you don’t have to use your brain, remember those headache-inducing equations, or memorize those useless English words.
suddenly came out of the pile of books, a little uncomfortable. Fortunately, there are all young sisters like me in the factory. Everyone is happy to talk and laugh. After one month, I was satisfied with the first month's salary.
Although it only costs more than 3,000 yuan, it was earned by myself with my own hands. The pride and pride that I had never felt before came to my heart. I can finally make money to support myself, I can finally ask for a life without having to put my palms up, and I can finally send half of my salary to my parents.
You can imagine how they smiled after getting the money.
I gradually got out of the college entrance examination failure, started to have a smile, and a few caring best friends.
When you are resting, go shopping together, go to the beach to catch up with the sea, and enjoy time at the barbecue stall in the night market. When you encounter a good scenery, take a few photos as a memory.
There are also a few boys who followed us happily, carried our bags, paid for us, and added a lot of jokes to us.
It feels so good to be young! Why are you so frustrated after the college entrance examination? Why stay with your parents and stay in that suffocating place? Isn't this good? I've almost forgotten that painful experience.
3
The brother and sister-in-law are preparing to get married, and the new house is on the second floor prepared by their parents for them.
For the sake of his brother's marriage, when he was very young, his parents neatly placed the fine wood and bricks in the backyard. For this marriage, they almost spent most of their lives savings.
Meng Jie, a buddy with his brother, also attended their wedding as his best man.
He comes from a rural family in Jiangxi and has a good relationship with his brother. Sometimes we will go out together and have a holiday together.
He is not too tall, he looks 1.75 meters tall, has fair skin, and has smart eyes. He often makes a cold joke, making everyone laugh.
My mood changes have something to do with him. It is said that emotions can be contagious, and so can happiness.
I feel that I can’t live without him. When I see other girls approaching him, I will care about nervousness and sadness. Is this love?
During the Spring Festival that year, I went home for the New Year.
From time to time, he sent text messages from time to time: What are you doing? Do you know, I am so sad this Spring Festival. All your smile and your figure are in front of you. After the New Year, you must come to work, otherwise, I will go to your house to find you.
My brother and sister-in-law also saw what I was thinking and were trying hard to match. Judging from my sister-in-law's opinion, he has revealed some of my situation to his parents.
I hesitated and wanted to escape.But I feel that many of his advantages are enough to make me give up and escape. If you miss him, it may be a lifelong regret. You will never meet someone who makes me so happy and brings me happiness again.
On May Day that year, he went home with me and decided to make this marriage.
My parents, brother and sister-in-law are both happy. They believed that because of the previous experience, someone would burn a high incense after marrying me, not to mention that Meng Jie was handsome.
4
At the end of the year, we held a wedding in his hometown.
The house was prepared long ago. We went back and simply decorated it. Because after the wedding, we still had to go back to work in the original factory.
Meng Jie is already the director of a small workshop in the factory, mainly responsible for the inlet and exit of a workshop.
His salary and I are much higher than before. Because there is our dormitory in the factory, there is no need to rent a house outside. We can also eat in the canteen in the factory, which invisibly saved us a lot of money. I gradually had some money that could be liquid in my hands.
One day, he took out a financial advertisement and said, "Pingping, we have some spare money now, and it is not a solution to always work like this. We must learn to make money with money. Look at this, how good it is, you don't manage your finances and ignore you."
His words touched me, and I seemed to see a road paving with golden light again. It is not impossible to use knowledge to monetize money and use money to make money.
That is a stock trading software, and I know nothing about the stock market. But I am still confident in my learning ability. If it weren't for a few points, I would have been a college student.
I participated in the stock trading course and started to learn stock knowledge. We have also begun to study the trend of K line chart , and predict the rise and fall of market and various stocks. Those ups and downs and colorful K-lines are very similar to the college entrance examination questions that lingered in my mind back then.
When we first entered the stock market, we only released a small part of the funds. Unexpectedly, I made a profit of more than 500 that day, and I was a little bit arrogant. It's too easy to make money. You don't have to work. Just earning money can get so many returns, which is higher than my two-day salary.
Although some of the declines later, I still tasted the sweetness of investment and began to dream of getting rich.
"You should be more at ease, don't cast too much," Meng Jie reminded me.
I showed him the account on my phone. In just half a year, I have made a profit of several thousand yuan, which is much better than putting money in the bank. He didn't say anything more and had completely believed in my ability.
I put all the salary I paid into the stock market and prepared to fight well.
Just after I invested more than 100,000 savings in my hand, several stocks I held suddenly fell rapidly in just a few days.
I don’t believe they will keep falling. I believe there will always be a pullback. I swipe my credit card money and come to replenish my position. But it still failed to save the stock's decline. What should I do?
The previous account has more than 100,000 yuan, plus bank loans and more than 200,000 yuan in capital investment, but now it has shrunk by 80,000 or 90,000 yuan.
Meng Jie had no choice but to complain: "Hurry up and why don't you keep it? If you pay extra one day, you will lose less money. That's our hard money!"
paid back the bank's loan, and almost nothing left. That's our three years of savings!
I originally planned to save a little more and buy a down payment in this city. In the future, people in the city will be in the city. If you have children in the future, children can go to kindergarten, elementary school and middle school. But all this is impossible!
Meng Jie's temper began to get angry, and he didn't care and care about me as much as before. I started to speak coldly, and occasionally sarcasticly sarcastically.
Once because I forgot to turn off the gas stove with boiling water, the pot was boiled. He took my hand and rushed into the kitchen, roaring loudly: "There is no way to pass this life!"
I broke free from his hand and cried, "But that's not the case. I don't want to live anyway!" The scene when I failed the college entrance examination a few years ago came back to my mind again.
5
I burst out of our dormitory with a big laugh and ran into the dark night. Meng Jie behind him was shocked!
When I was dragged back to the dormitory by a few people from the factory, I was already unkempt and exhausted.
Meng Jie called my home and told me about the situation. Because my mood is not stable, and he still has to go to work to earn money and can't take care of me, so he suggested sending me to my parents' home first, rest for a while before going back.
My parents did not agree, saying that my six-year-old nephew lives in my original house, is already in elementary school, needs a separate room, and study quietly.
But Meng Jie can no longer face me now, and we don’t know how we will live our lives. He found a previous medical diagnosis in a drawer at home and only then did he know that I had schizophrenia .
"Why didn't you tell me these facts before getting married? If I had known that it was like that, I wouldn't have gotten married at all!"
He still pulled me and came to his parents.
"Before marriage, she was fine. She worked in the factory and it was fine. What should we tell you?"
"If you hadn't pulled her to trade some stocks, would she be so stimulating?"
"She has married you now and is considered your family. Of course, her good or bad is because of you. What does it have to do with us?"
I collapsed again, looking at the strange world in front of me. On one hand, I was the husband I once loved, and on the other hand, the father I raised since childhood. Their faces turned distorted by anger surprised me why I came to this world?
I was wrong, I shouldn’t have caused them such great harm and trouble! I was wrong!
The people in the family rushed to help me faint on the ground, and began to stop quarreling or complaining to each other.
They agreed that Meng Jie would take care of my diet, daily life, and my father would pay me medical expenses and medical expenses.
They all hope that I can recover as before and live a healthy life.
I feel Meng Jie’s concern for me again. He comforted me: "It's okay, I'm here. If the money is gone, we can earn it again. But you must be fine, don't scare me, and don't leave me."
"You must also love yourself, treat it if you should be treated, take medicine if you should be taken, and I will never blame you for blame you again!"
There is a medicine in the world that can cure all diseases. That's love!
Only by loving yourself and loving others can you save yourself.
