/
wish you happiness
If Farewell
to wish you happy forever
/
01
Like today, it is not the first time I decided to go to a completely strange place.
I wanted to start again. Whenever I want to leave, I use this reason.
Someone told me a long time ago not to go too far away for others. I don't listen.
I went to Jinan, Xinjiang, and now I am going to Guizhou. But this time, I kept saying it was for myself.
About leaving, it was in my mind a long time ago. Anyone who knows me knows that I am not good at making decisions.
I decided to go.
got in touch with an unfamiliar sister in the mountainous area of Guizhou. I said I wanted to go with her to support the teaching, and asked her for the detailed address.
Tell two friends.
"I'm going to go to the mountains. Leave her."
"Have you really decided?" They doubted, "Is it really okay to leave her?"
I do not know.
"Leave." The final response was consistent. They wish me well.
The luggage sent out is already on the way. Some belongings will also be moved to new places.
What kind of place is that mountainous area?
I don't know, but I try to plan for myself. It's like the advice Monica gave me during parting: live for yourself.
Senior sister said, it is very bitter here.
I said, I just want to live well.
02
The time is one minute to one minute to walk, when eating, walking, and sleeping. They said, I have something on my mind.
I walked towards this road leading to Guizhou, towards the life led by this road.
is a good village teacher, loved by others, has a social circle for teaching, full and busy every day. I no longer write, no longer worry about life,Dilute contact with family members and stop traveling around.
But still, I have nowhere to put my heart.
Struggling like a long century, time tick tick, my heart is always hanging.
I want to go and send a message to Monica.
"Go home the day after tomorrow."
She asked me where to go back.
I said, where else.
For a long time, I took her place as my home. In a quiet late night, I once opened my heart to Monica and whispered that I had nowhere to go except her.
However, she asked me more than once, where does the "home" in my mouth point.
I answered calmly, Shenzhen.
is relieved.
The two friends turned their heads and said, knowing that you are not firm, but I didn't expect you to become so fast.
Is it fast?
just now, seems to have passed a long and procrastinated life.
03
encountered a retro dance hall event organized by Modern SKY in Kunming.
I always resist such activities. However, this time, I clearly sensed my inner desire and bought a ticket with White Rose.
Is it out of curiosity? Is it because of long-term patience, the expectation of indulgence?
actually has other selfishness.
The organizer is Mushroom’s friends, and a large group of people who help with the promotion are also Mushroom’s friends. Of course, if it weren't for them, I wouldn't know about this event.
The mushroom is my lover this time last year.
I don't know when, he deleted my WeChat. At the end of the chat log, he said six months ago, "I wish you all the best in the future."
At that time, I didn't realize that this was a farewell meaning. Since then lost contact.
In such an age where communication is so developed, we were kidnapped by WeChat, and now we can wipe out our past with a single delete. Negation is worthless.
I can’t speak, and I don’t have the courage to add it back. He was so silent and so indifferent. I don't even know the specific time he was away from this relationship.
I consume the temperature he used to give me little by little.
With hopeless hope, I hope to meet him again in this song and dance hall that can be seen at a glance. In other words, meet again.
See you and say hello.
I vaguely look forward to establishing a certain connection with him, a subtle relationship that is unclear and unclear.
The white rose looked out in a trance. She said, don't keep looking at the door with a preoccupied look.
I deny it, am I on my mind.
Well, I have, I can't help but think of mushrooms. Only a short year. It's only a year.
I am affectionate at this time when I shouldn't be affectionate, and remember when I shouldn't remember.
The music rang, the previous admission was obviously too long, and some young bodies that were deliberately dressed up in retro came in one after another.
I think their soul may not be here.
I shifted my gaze from a man with flower arms to another shining young girl, and then extended from the dark corner of the dance hall to the stage, until the light shone on my eyes, I quickly avoided.
They talk, play, and live. Some people have already started looking for their prey.
I am afraid of being seen and disappointed. On this night where everyone is confident, my desolation and loneliness seem out of place.
He did not come.
is more like a predictable result, an obvious result.
At the end of the event, I was pushed into the dancing crowd,It's like he disappeared into the boundless crowd.
I know that some people can only travel a certain distance, but I don't know that memory can really be completely denied.
04
Useful items left over from the school, ready to be given to the juniors in need.
The legendary younger sister who had a crush on one of my exes contacted me and said that they needed my small desk.
I asked her to come and fetch it.
She did not shy away from her, came to my room happily and smiled at me. Although she was greeted with a cold-eyed expression.
I don't hate her. It's just that I don't know when I started to treat things that have nothing to do with me in an indifferent attitude.
When I left, I looked at her and didn't want to talk, but couldn't help but ask, do you know what happened to your brother?
She was quite disappointed and said sympathetically, I know, what a pity.
I don't know what the pity she said is, but I also think it is a pity, but it is me and him.
The world is too big, we are too small.
.hi, I’m Jane Yan.
The text we need should be a sharp axe that can break through the sea of ice in our hearts.
Follow me and see more stories that come into your heart.
May you be here,Infinitely close to ideal.
