I will never forget the day when I was so ashamed! Zhang Xiaoxiao gritted his teeth and said to me.
On July 16, 2014, that hot summer night in Beijing, Zhang Xiaoxiao will never forget it!
After graduating from university in 1996, Zhang Xiaoxiao was assigned to teach in a rural middle school in Fuyang, Hangzhou, where she met her ex-husband Li Jian .
At that time, Li Jian looked down on her. Although Li Jian did not have a job, his brother had an official position in the Education Bureau. He arranged the unemployed dude in the middle school where his home was located, with a monthly salary of 200 yuan. Only responsible for sending and receiving newspapers and other chores.
At that time, Li Jian liked another female teacher in the same unit, Tang Cuihua. Tang Cuihua is tall and beautiful. When Li Jian went to school to play, he fell in love with Tang Cuihua at first sight, so he begged his family to talk to the matchmaker. Tang Cuihua was picking and choosing her husband, and he never met a favorite. He was already 30 years old. In the countryside, this age already belongs to the older leftover women. Tang Cuihua was anxious when he could not find her husband, and met Li Jian to propose a marriage. Although the man did not have a job, he was in Li Jian's family and he was handsome, so he agreed to the marriage. Colleagues said that she "picked the black and the white, and finally picked the skinless" to tease her.
At that time, Zhang Xiaoxiao, who was just assigned to school, was not tall and had curly hair. Although long, it was not ugly or pretty. Although he was a colleague with Li Jian, he didn’t spend much time playing together, but he was related to Tang Cuihua. Yes, a few female teachers, only the two of them live on campus, so they walk closer together.
Days are as peaceful as water, Zhang Xiaoxiao's teaching career in school is simple and happy, and it was in 1997 in a blink of an eye.
In the autumn of 1997, Tang Cuihua planned to marry Li Jian, but Li Jian felt obvious physical discomfort. He went to the Hangzhou First Affiliated Hospital for an examination and confirmed testicular cancer . Then came chemotherapy, and one testicle was removed.Colleagues vaguely said in private that if Li Jian can no longer have children, he does not know how long he can live. Tang Cuihua destroyed the marriage, and then transferred to another school dozens of miles away through the relationship.
Li Jian, who reappeared in the school, was obviously haggard, decadent and weak. Under such circumstances, Li Jian stared at Zhang Xiaoxiao, who was innocent and silly.
Li Jianming expressed his okay secretly, but Zhang Xiaoxiao ignored it. Finally one winter night, Li Jian touched into the dormitory where Zhang Xiaoxiao lived, and resorted to "strengthening" to break Zhang Xiaoxiao's chastity. Zhang Xiaoxiao cried bitterly and said that he was going to sue him for rape, and Li Jian grumbled. Kneel down and cried and said, "Smile, please forgive me! Marry me! If you don't marry me, maybe I won't be able to marry a wife in my life"!
Zhang Xiaoxiao looked at Li Jian who was crying and weeping. Suddenly a maternal tenderness spread in her heart. She thought in her heart, if I don't marry him, maybe he will be ruined in his life, and I want to save this man! (How many years later, Zhang Xiaoxiao recalled this scene, feeling distressed about her innocence! She thought she had saved this man, but she did not know that she had saved a wolf and wounded her completely).
In February 1998, Zhang Xiaoxiao married Li Jian. When they got married, everyone, including their parents, relatives and colleagues, opposed it, and Zhang Xiaoxiao still married Li Jian obsessively.
After getting married, Li Jian played poker all day long, but she didn’t come home at night. Zhang Xiaoxiao cried and had no effect. Once Zhang Xiaoxiao called Li Jian who played cards at home, Li Jian Feeling ashamed, without saying anything, he raised his hand and slapped Zhang Xiao with a slap in the face! Zhang Xiaoxiao had trouble with Li Jian for three days.
The days have passed for many years, and Zhang Xiaoxiao's stomach is not moving. Zhang Xiaoxiao has asked Li Jian more than once, does your problem affect fertility? Does the doctor say you can still give birth? Li Jian said, "The doctor said there was a 50% chance of giving birth." Later, Zhang Xiaoxiao learned that when he was undergoing chemotherapy in the hospital, the doctor made it clear that Li Jian could not give birth to life. During this period, Li Jian never admitted that he was barren. Zhang Xiaoxiao went to the hospital to check his body again and again. The doctor told Zhang Xiaoxiao that there was nothing wrong with his body. As for her mother-in-law, she also made Chinese herbal medicines for Zhang Xiaoxiao every day, and asked Zhang Xiaoxiao to drink bitter and hard-to-swallow Chinese medicine every day.Later, Zhang Xiaoxiao couldn't help it, and forced Li Jian to go to the hospital to check his body. The sperm survival rate of married Li Jian was zero! In the face of such facts, Li Jian remained silent.
During the summer vacation on 7.16, 2014, Li Jian and Zhang Xiaoxiao decided to go to Beijing Third Hospital to find professor Zhang Lizhu test tube baby, Professor Zhang Lizhu was the first successful doctor in China to do "test tube baby", so Li Jian And Zhang Xiaoxiao rushed to Beijing. Before leaving, Li Jian smiled and said to Zhang Xiaoxiao, "Wife, you can tell others that I am not childish, and I have no face when it is spread out. When people ask you, you say you are not childish, okay?" Zhang Xiaoxiao agreed .
When they arrived in Beijing, Li Jian and Zhang Xiaoxiao lived in the home of a female classmate of Li Jian High School. The female classmate was also Li Jian's lover in high school. The female classmate’s husband was not at home, and the female classmate warmly treated Li Jian to Zhang Xiaoxiao. Li Jian told him that the high school lover had come to Beijing to see a doctor because Zhang Xiaoxiao could not have children. During the day, Zhang Xiaoxiao fell asleep quickly. At more than one in the morning, Zhang Xiaoxiao suddenly woke up, and found that there was no one around him, Zhang Xiaoxiao pricked his ears to listen, the next room clearly heard the woman's low chants, and fierce pops...Zhang Xiaoxiao's brain suddenly became stunned, the brain was blank, and tears flowed uncontrollably...
The unspeakable voice for about half an hour, with a low growl, it stopped! Zhang Xiaoxiao thought sorrowfully, and he had been in a rush for a few minutes. He always thought that he was suffering from testicular cancer, but he had such a "fierce" side! Why do I have to live with such a scumbag? Barbility, no job, betrayal and derailment are not good for me! I want a divorce! I want a divorce! I want a divorce! Zhang Xiaoxiao shouted in her heart over and over again, but she thought of her parents' gray hair, old face, and what her parents said to her when she got married, "You will have a bad life in the future, don't come to us after divorce! Let's be fathers." I can't afford to be a mother!" Zhang Xiaoxiao burst into tears, biting his lip to suppress his painful emotions, and not let himself cry!
In a few minutes, Li Jian cautiously and silently sneaked into the room, Zhang Xiaoxiao pretended to be still asleep until dawn.
In the early morning of the next morning, two people took a car to the third hospital. Professor Zhang Lizhu was not there. They assigned another reproductive expert number.Entering the outpatient clinic, the expert asked about Zhang Xiaoxiao's menstrual period, and said, "Next time you wait for your menstruation to go three days later!" Zhang Xiaoxiao wanted to ask a few more questions, and the expert slapped his head relentlessly. "Did you not hear what I said? Come back three days after the next menstrual period! Now you go out! The next one will come in!"
Zhang Xiaoxiao walked out sadly and quickly without saying a word Walking out of the hospital, Li Jian kept asking the doctor what he said? Zhang Xiaoxiao watched the people coming and going on the street and the horns of cars, tears streaming down uncontrollably!
After returning home from Beijing, Li Jian begged Zhang Xiaoxiao to go to another hospital to try "test-tube baby", or artificial insemination , using sperm from the sperm bank, saying that Zhang Xiaoxiao’s children were better than those born by foster care. The child is much better. Li Jian was unable to give birth and did not want to adopt, so he forced Zhang Xiaoxiao to go to the hospital for "artificial insemination" or "test tube baby". Either way is a long process. Every time you check, you have to wait a few days before your menstrual cycle. Blood tests, genetic diseases, venereal diseases, syphilis, AIDS, mycoplasma, hepatitis B, etc. To check, but also to check the size of follicle development, each time from the beginning of the check to the completion, it takes several months! As a teacher, Zhang Xiaoxiao only has time to see a doctor during the summer vacation. Under great pressure, Zhang Xiaoxiao's normal "aunt" is extremely abnormal as long as it comes to summer vacation!
In order to have a child and save time, Zhang Xiao Laughing had to carry out a "secret inspection" in this area at a small hospital closer to home. Once they saw an advertisement saying that infertility can be cured, a small town hospital next door to Fuyang. The "ma doctor" mentality, the husband and wife passed away. The doctor is a thin, wretched man who is not tall, sees Zhang Xiaoxiao's eyes bright, and says he can do "artificial insemination" for Zhang Xiaoxiao, ask Zhang Xiaoxiao" "Auntie" how long has passed, Zhang Xiaoxiao said that it has been 13 or four days, and the wretched male doctor said that the time is just right, he can do the operation today, and let Li Jian wait outside.
Xiao and the wretched male doctor are two. The male doctor asked Zhang Xiaoxiao to climb onto the delivery bed, take off her lower body, and put her two legs spread out on the brackets on both sides, exposing the private parts. The wretched man inserted his fingers in and disturbed. several,Then he looked at the closed door, and quickly took off his pants, exposing his erect penis, and he was about to enter Zhang Xiaoxiao's body with his hands!
Zhang Xiaoxiao was ashamed and angry, stretched his legs away from the wretched man, quickly climbed down, put on his pants, opened the door and ran out!
Li Jian hurriedly hurried back, and kept asking what's wrong?
Zhang Xiaoxiao burst into tears! What the wretched man did just now appeared in his mind, that disgusting thing! I remembered that hot summer night in Beijing on July 16, 2014... Her chaotic brain was splitting with a headache and almost hit the red light!
For the "DINK" family, it doesn't matter if there are no children. For couples who want children, having no children is a great pain. Hangzhou Reproductive Center Hospital, Shanghai, Nanjing, all the major hospitals I can go to, to no avail.
2016.9 Li Jian left the school where Zhang Xiaoxiao was located and applied for a private school in the city.
has started the rhythm of never going home. The private school is once every two weeks and has two days off at a time. Li Jian has never returned home! Later, Zhang Xiaoxiao’s best friend reminded her that Li Jian had cheated! Zhang Xiaoxiao still didn't think about leaving this man!
After derailing, Li Jian occasionally went home once and violently attacked Zhang Xiaoxiao's thighs and arms, forcing her to take the initiative to ask for a divorce.
Zhang Xiaoxiao is tired!
2017.8 Zhang Xiaoxiao asked for a divorce and went out of the house, and then spent 10 days mobilizing work to leave the rural school and enter the city school.
Nine years of youth fed the dog! Zhang Xiaoxiao had nothing when she got divorced! After working for so many years, the money was spent on seeing a doctor. When she left, she had only 1,000 yuan on her!
After leaving, Zhang Xiaoxiao was born into the sun, positive, working hard and living hard, people become more and more beautiful and better. I also have a happy family, husband and children, house and car.
After all her hardships came, she finally got happiness.
Life tells us that we meet people who are not worthy,Stop the loss in time and run to the sun.
Don’t let the one who consumes you ruin you for the rest of your life.
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