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That day, Lao Ding came home and told me that his mother was sick, rectal cancer , and I wanted me to take care of her. I asked how long it would take, one day or two, Lao Ding talked about No, surgery, accompany, and postoperative care are needed. I said what should I do when I go to work. Lao Ding said: "You earn that little salary a month, even if you don't go to work. I will pay for the living expenses during this period. Wait. My mother doesn’t need someone anymore. You can find a job again.”
I certainly don’t want to. Lao Ding and I just live together. We look like a couple, but we didn’t get a marriage certificate. Lao Ding has never felt like a monk in these days together.
Lao Ding gives me a part of my living expenses every month. Because I don’t have enough living expenses, I still need to spend some of the money. Because I earn less, I do all the housework, laundry and cooking at home. The monthly living expenses are more than mine, and the house we live in is his, so I feel superior in front of me. Disdainful of my work for washing, cooking, and housework. So I am not satisfied with my current life.
I divorced my ex-husband Hu Liang two years ago. Hu Liang and I have two children, one daughter and one son, the ex-husband takes the daughter, and I take the son. One year after divorcing my ex-husband, I took my son to live with Lao Ding. Lao Ding was also divorced. He had a daughter with his ex-wife and followed his ex-wife.
Although my job is low-paying, I start it on time every month at any rate. I still cherish this job. If my mother who takes care of Lao Ding loses this job again, I will be four years old. , It's hard to find a job.
I told Lao Ding,Asked him to find a caregiver for his mother. Old Ding heard this, and then became angry. He said, "Do you know how much a caregiver costs a day?" I said, "You think the caregiver is expensive and can't afford it. Do you think I work It's not worth money."
Old Ding said that I was unreasonable to make trouble. He said: "You live in my house and spend my money. I will raise your son for you, and let you serve my sick old lady. I don’t want to, why do you want you?
Lao Ding’s words made me very angry. I said I’m not the woman your Mingzhong is marrying, but I’m just living with you. Don’t be too big.
br11 Lao Ding’s salary is twice that of mine. When we are together, he takes a lot of money for our living expenses. I don’t dispute this, but I do more housework and do laundry and cooking compared to what we pay. My. I take care of my son. Why does he say to raise my son for me?
I argued with Lao Ding about who paid more for our lives, and we quarreled with each other, and Lao Ding turned out to be vicious Said: "If you don't serve my mother, I will let you get out of my house. "
I immediately packed my things and took my son away from the home where I lived with Lao Ding for more than a year. There was only humiliation and grief and anger, no nostalgia.
I had to take my son back to my natal house. My sister-in-law saw that I came back with my son and brought big and small bags. She knew that I would stay in her natal place for a long time, so she looked down.
She asked me how to return I said I broke up with Lao Ding and haven’t found a suitable place to live.Staying here for a few days temporarily, when I say these things, I feel very humble.
The natal family is very crowded, in a 70-square-foot house, where my parents, my brother and sister-in-law, and my nephew live. I know I shouldn't come, but where can I go besides my natal family.
On the first day when I returned to my family’s house, unhappy happened. My son was fighting for toys with my nephew. My son is eight years old and two years older than my nephew. He is strong enough to snatch my nephew’s toy. My nephew began to cry. Although I also reprimanded my son for crying, my sister-in-law was so angry that she was beaten at home. Said that my son and I arrived, leaving the family without peace. I know firsthand the sorrow of people under the eaves.
The next day, I sent my son to school. It was fine when I left. On the way, it rained, and my son and I were soaked in soup. My mother's home is far away from my son’s school. It takes more than an hour to arrive.
In the afternoon, my son was after school. I took him on the road in an electric car. My son was holding my mobile phone. I didn’t expect my son to call his dad. He told his dad about my experience and said We were driven out by Uncle Ding and now live in grandma's house. Will soon be kicked out of the house and so on.
I told my son not to say those things to his father, but the son said that it was his father. Why can't I tell his father? My ex-husband Hu Liang is still single now. His conditions are not very good, and it is probably not easy to find a girlfriend.
Then, my ex-husband, Hu Liang, asked me to answer the phone, saying that my mother’s house is too far away from my son’s school, and asked me and my son to live with him first. My son heard it and clamored to go to him. I live with my dad, I haven’t seen my daughter for a while,I really missed my daughter. I thought about it, and there was nowhere to go, so I took my son back to the previous home with Hu Liang. I want to stay stable for the time being and find a suitable place before moving out.
I and my ex-husband Hu Liang divorced because we often quarrel with little things. He always looks like he is not motivated and has no sense of responsibility. I have told him countless times , Said: "Two children in the family, you have to work hard to earn money" and the like, but Hu Liang always perfuse me, because of this kind of things, we often quarrel.
Hu Liang said that I eat and drink for free every day, but I still don’t know how to eat and drink for free. Where do I eat and drink for free? I take care of my two children and work part-time doing manual work to subsidize the family, but Hu Liang can’t see it. My contribution. It makes me sad.
At that time, I said that someone’s husband earns a lot of money and is considerate, why don’t you learn from others, Hu Liang said, "Go find a man like that, I can’t stand you. Such a woman" I divorced him in a fit of anger.
After Hu Liang divorced me, he talked with two girlfriends, and broke up before they even entered the marriage.
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My daughter was very happy to see me and her brother going home. Hu Liang’s house was the old and run-down house where his parents lived in a two-bedroom, run-down home. It’s messed up everywhere, I After returning, he saw that Hu Liang had bought several vegetables, and he was picking vegetables clumsily.
I remembered that my daughter hadn’t eaten the dishes I cooked for a long time. I told Hu Liang that I would come. I fried a cabbage, made boiled pork slices that my daughter likes, and rolled her daughter. Favorite handmade noodle ,A family of four reunited in this way and had a reunion dinner.
My daughter said with gusto that it's the mother's cooking. Hu Liang drank the noodles and said that he hadn't eaten this kind of delicacy for a long time. He praised my craftsmanship to open a small restaurant, specializing in handmade noodles. I remember that Hu Liang ate my meal before and rarely praised me.
After eating, I wanted to wash the dishes. I saw my daughter consciously took the dishes into the kitchen and started to wash the dishes. I told my daughter to do my homework first. I will wash the dishes. Daughter Tell me that she has already learned how to wash dishes. Not only can she wash dishes, but she can also cook. Because Hu Liang goes to work and often does not go home at noon, her daughter has slowly learned how to cook and clean dishes.
The daughter is only thirteen years old. The daughters of other families are princesses, but my daughter has already started to take care of herself.
Thinking of this, my nose is sore. After I washed the dishes and cleaned the kitchen that had been dirty for a long time, Hu Liang stood beside me at some unknown time and said, "Thank you!" I like to be the shopkeeper and never see my dedication to housework.
He paused and said, “I didn’t know that sanitation needs to be cleaned every day, and housework is never finished.”
I looked at . Hu Liang didn't know what to say. I don’t have much confidence in front of Hu Liang. I have been divorced for more than a year. I have always wanted to find a man who can earn money and be considerate.However, I couldn't find it. After spending these days with Lao Ding, he was finally kicked out of the house, thinking about disappointment and humiliation.
There are two bedrooms at home, I share a room with my daughter, and Hu Liang share a room with my son. My daughter held my neck in excitement that night and whispered to me. It was ten o’clock and I didn’t want to When I went to bed, I urged her to go to bed several times, but my daughter asked, "Mom, tomorrow morning, after I wake up, can I still see you when I open my eyes? After I come back from school, are you still at home?" I told her I promise to say yes, so my daughter can sleep with peace of mind.
I can't sleep all night. I believe Hu Liang is also, because early the next morning, he got up early and made breakfast. I silently helped him. He suddenly said: "It is better to have a wife, and a wife is there, and home is like home. I am. Corrected and said: "I am not your wife anymore.
Hu Liang said, since you live with others, you might as well live with me. At least both children like it. It’s not too late to move away when you find the one you like. I felt a little embarrassed, but didn't shake my head either. Seeing my attitude, Hu Liang said, that's it.
I went back to my previous home with my son. On the third morning, when I went out, the neighbor saw me and asked: "You remarried, and she didn't listen to my answer, so she just said: "It's time to come back. The daughter has no mother, and the son has no father. How pitiful." You don't know, after you leave, your daughter is dressed dirty, Hu Liang is also dirty, and the father and the two are very poor.
I suddenly felt very sorry for my daughter and son. The daughter and son hurt the most by my divorce with Hu Liang.
I didn’t tell my neighbors that I lived with my son only temporarily. here,Just nodded and smiled.
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Hu Liang and I take turns cooking, sometimes we cook together, and we work together very well. Because of the special relationship now, Hu Liang and I have converged a little bit. Regarding Maimang’s attitude, I no longer nag him endlessly. The biggest change in Hu Liang is his diligence.
Maybe, these days when we divorced, he has exercised as a father and a mother. He used to not be in the kitchen, and now he cooks the same dishes.
I suddenly realized the dullest happiness in that kind of marriage.
We also took our two children out on Saturday and Sunday, bought them delicious food, and took them to the playground. The two children seemed to have become the happiest children in the world.
Once, I asked my daughter where else I want to go to play, she asked me: "Did you take me and my brother, let us play wherever we want to play, you leave me and Dad, be someone else’s wife and mother to someone else’s child?"
I can’t answer my daughter, I dare not promise her, I just hold her shoulder and tell her: “Mom always I love you forever" when I said, I felt uncomfortable and wanted to cry.
One day, when I was at work, Lao Ding came to the supermarket where I worked to beg for peace. He looked haggard and unshaven. He said his mother had been discharged from the hospital and was in a stable condition. He did not say who to look after. Yes, he said he wanted to understand,Let me go back with him, he won't annoy me anymore, in the future, we will live a good life.
Although Lao Ding’s attitude is very sincere, I know that we will still have difficulties when we live. I told Lao Ding: "In fact, we have not really lived as a family, we are all in our own With my own small calculations in my heart, we are not suitable for being together.
Although both Lao Ding and I are lonely people longing for warmth, we dare not open our hearts and be sincere to each other. Give in earnest. This is the flaw in our lives.
That day, I went back to the temporary home with Hu Liang with great heart. In the toilet, I heard my daughter ask his father, what about my mother, Hu Liang probably didn't answer, and the daughter suddenly raised her voice and asked, what about my mother, did my mother leave or not come back?
I heard my daughter’s voice full of anxiety and sorrow. At that moment, I felt very cruel. In fact, my daughter and son should be happier every day than before, but they are also worried about living every day. My daughter is afraid that I will one day. Will leave this house, my son is afraid that I will take him away from his father.
I quickly answered in the bathroom. My daughter was relieved. In fact, the agent called me that day and said that a house is very suitable. I, let me go over and have a look, I suddenly don’t want to see the house.
At night, Hu Liang stood on the balcony and smoked. He asked if I could talk to him. I walked over and he didn’t. Look at me, look at the lights of the thousands of houses outside, he said that the better it is when people go through small days, look at us, the more desolate they go over. He began to review,He said that he was not good before, and he didn’t care about his family when earning less money. Now that I know it’s difficult, I’ll be considerate of me in the future. For my son and daughter, let me give him another chance. Anyway, we are both single. Live the life well.
I said I think about it, I am very entangled in my heart, and there is a burden. I remarried with Hu Liang, which is equivalent to returning to the original point after a round of rotation. This is very reluctant to me. I'm afraid of being laughed at by others.
While I was still hesitating about this, suddenly, two days later, a woman came to look for Hu Liang. She saw me at home and asked me who I belonged to Hu Liang, but I didn’t answer. Asked who she was from Hu Liang, he said she was Hu Liang's girlfriend.
The woman is about the same age as me, she looks okay. Since she dared to call herself Hu Liang's girlfriend, I think she has been in contact with Hu Liang for a while. Somehow, I felt very uncomfortable.
Hu Liang didn’t come back very late that night. I wanted to call him and ask him, but I think we are divorced. It’s better not to ask about his personal affairs. After a while, Hu Liang Take the initiative to call me and say that he has something to do and come back late.
I am depressed and sadder than when I divorced Hu Liang. Hu Liang divorced, and I was sad for a moment. I felt that there would be a better life waiting for me. Therefore, I was full of longing for the future. I didn't expect the beauty of the longing to be beaten by reality.
After Hu Liang and I were living under the same roof again, I thought we two would not be alone all the time. Between us, there must be someone who will meet a suitable new person. Then break our current relationship,But when a woman called Hu Liang's girlfriend, I was sad. I couldn't tell whether it was jealous or jealous.
Hu Liang came back after midnight and obviously drank alcohol. I made him a glass of honey water and said, "I'm going to see the house tomorrow and I am going to move out" I said At that time, it was actually very uncomfortable. I don't know if he is still a daughter or our broken home.
Hu Liang looked at me in surprise and said, "Why are you so cruel? I finally got rid of the woman who wanted to marry me tonight. Why did you come here? You Does this woman have a conscience?"
When I heard those words, the grievances in my heart suddenly disappeared. I thought to myself, why didn't he tell me earlier, which made me worry for a day. When I thought about it, I suddenly laughed.
There are nine days left for our daughter’s birthday. Hu Liang and I are going to remarry that day. Hu Liang asked me what ceremony I need. He prepares it in advance. I don’t want anything false, I want a promise. I and him promised that in the days to come, we will cherish each other, tolerate each other, support each other, and work together to live a good life. I think this is the most important sense of ceremony in marriage that everyone should have.
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