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Hello, everyone, this is Xiaoxin. Today, let’s take a look at the lonely and sad Mid-Autumn Festival of an older woman.
Ms. Song's story
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The Mid-Autumn Festival atmosphere in the urban area is quite strong. There is also a lantern show in the park next to my house. The circle of friends is a lively scene of family holidays. He left it for me After I bought two boxes of custom-made moon cakes, I went back to spend the holidays with my wife and children, and I was alone.
I have been with him for ten years. I have followed him since the age of 32, accompanied him from a small company to a big company, and lived with him from a small apartment to a villa. I always thought that I was going to make my own life, but I waited for a while. Year after year, looking forward to three years, three years and three years, he promised to divorce his wife, but he still failed to do so.
He is Li Sen, a man 15 years older than me. He has three sons. His wife is a simple rural woman older than him. Because taking care of children and grandchildren is too hard, her hair is already She was almost white, and her body was suffering from time to time, so Li Sen couldn't bear to divorce her.
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When Li Sen and I met ten years ago, I thought he was a promising man. He was very thoughtful and very decent. I think he will sooner , So I followed him desperately and became his shameless girlfriend.
Because I am beautiful, I have my own job, and I am an independent woman, so Li Sen admires me very much. He also asks me to help me with many things at work. After going back and forth, we naturally came together. At that time, he promised me that he would divorce his wife and then marry me.
I kept his promise year after year. My parents kept urging me to marry and I was unwilling. Looking at Li Sen, who is growing his business, I really don't like other ordinary men.
I have always been confident that I can wait until the day Li Sen marries me and enters the door.
3
Time flies,Youth is perishable. Before I know it, I am 42 years old and I am still alone. During the Mid-Autumn Festival or the Spring Festival, he would go back to spend the holidays with his wife and children. In the past two years, he has had a grandson, so he loves home even more.
I often can't help but ask myself, does he love me? The answer is love. He can't accompany me during the Spring Festival and Mid-Autumn Festival, but he will take me to travel several times a year, and every time he travels, he will buy me valuable gifts.
When I was traveling last month, I saw a jade bracelet . The merchant quoted 280,000 yuan. It was too expensive. I put the bracelet down again. Later, he secretly went back to bargain, bought the bracelet for 80,000 and gave it to me.
Regardless of his age, he is still very romantic, so I always can't let him go. For the new house I bought last year, he personally designed the decoration style for me, and he personally supervised the decoration work. Every detail made me feel particularly at ease.
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I asked him why he is still not divorced, I am almost old. In the past, he said that he should wait until the children are working. Later, he said that he should wait for the sons to get married. Now he says that his wife is old, suffering from illness, and has no income. What should she do if she gets divorced?
I don't know why, I can't hate him, because I also know that I had a fault first, and if his family were destroyed by me, I would be guilty.
But I am not reconciled. I have been waiting for him for so many years, and it is impossible to find someone to marry at this embarrassing age, so I can only continue to live with him.
On weekdays, it’s okay. On weekends, we can go to drink tea or eat some delicious food. He will occasionally come to my house for a few days. We are as close as a husband and wife.
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Many people suggested that I have a baby, so that I will have a bond with him, and the relationship will be stronger. I thought about it. If I had a child, his wife and child would not be able to tolerate me and treat me as an enemy. And since I have a child, I don’t have so much time to spend time with him, and I will quarrel with him because of the child’s problems.It will even force him to empathize.
Therefore, I have never had children, and he and I trust each other, and his opinion is to not want children, otherwise he cannot take care of both families.
So whenever I watch other people walk their babies, I am so envious, maybe I have no children of my own in this life.
Others' children of the same age are already in middle school and high school, but I only have envy. On New Year's and holidays, other people's family spends a lot of time, but I have always been alone. This is the case for the Spring Festival and the Mid-Autumn Festival.
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Over the years, I also tried to break up with him. In the past, whenever I said to break up, he would tell me that he would divorce. Let me give him some time.
Gradually, I am getting older and I understand that he will not get divorced, and I don't care whether he is divorced or not. I have regarded him as my husband, but he will not be with me during the New Year holidays in this life.
I took a bite of the mooncakes he left, and felt that although the mooncakes are the same every year, the taste is getting worse every year.
On the day of the Mid-Autumn Festival, ordinary women get up early in the morning to cook food for their husbands and children. At noon, the family will go shopping and play. In the evening, the whole family will reunite. Have a great time.
And I, I sleep until 10 o’clock during the Mid-Autumn Festival, get up to steam a bun and cook some vegetables, and then follow the drama until 6 pm, I will cook any instant noodles or stir-fry some vegetables by myself. I am not in the mood to enjoy the moon at night, I just look forward to this. One day goes by quickly.
Because I fell in love with Li Sen, I was destined to live so lonely all my life, unmarried, infertile, homeless and childless. I don't know if I will regret my choice in the future.
Conclusion : Ms. Song has love in this life, but is homeless. I don't know if this is her own fault or Li Sen's fault.
Sometimes a woman’s life,From the moment she fell in love with a man, perhaps she was happily growing old, perhaps love-hate was tormented to old age, in the world, we are all passers-by, but everyone's experience is different.
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