1
Chen Lingnan secretly rejoiced that she did not bring his wife Du Qian to attend the wedding of college classmate He Ran, otherwise such a grand scene would definitely make her long-winded, first compare her wedding with others, then compare him with other classmates, Make yourself angry with yourself.
How did she know that when he was in college ten years ago, Chen Lingnan was also a very popular figure in the department. He sang well, played basketball well, coupled with the temperament of Yushu Linfeng, I don't know how many girls treated him Fang Xinxu.
Too bad she didn't catch up to his good times.
Take today's bridegroom He Ran as an example. Back then, they once pursued Xue Jing, a class flower. No matter how good He Ran's family was, Xue Jing chose Chen Lingnan.
In Xue Jing's words, Chen Lingnan is like the sun and is the most wonderful scenery on campus. She walked into this scenery and felt that she was the happiest person in the world.
Thinking of Xue Jing, his eyes subconsciously searched the crowd. They hadn't seen each other for seven or eight years, but she avoided all occasions he attended.
He knew that Xue Jing could not let go of his silent departure.
She had been waiting downstairs in his house for a day and a night, he was hiding in the room , and was stopped by the mother several times after thinking about it. Especially this kind of country girl, even if she has studied for a few years, she just wants to find a household registration book in a big city. In the future, a large group of poor relatives will bite you like flies, then you will never turn over. Well, that's how I married your father, I don't want you to repeat the same mistakes.
He didn't sleep that night. It rained lightly outside the window in the early morning. When he got up to look again, Xue Jing had already left.
He breathed a long sigh of relief, only to feel full of sadness.
Xue Jing is a good girl, she can turn the simple and poor life into poetry, but life is not only romantic, there are many things that love cannot surpass, such as years, such as family affection, such as a decent job that can only be exchanged by marriage and Life.
But he never knew that would feel guilty and would set up camp in his heart like a moth from now on. The longer the time passes, the more unforgettable the pain will be.
He often thought that if he was doomed to break up, then at least he should say "goodbye" to her.
2
Xue Jing also came to the wedding.
Although Chen Lingnan and Xue Jing were sitting at the same table, they were far away.
She greeted him from a distance: "Hi! Chen Lingnan, long time no see!" It seemed that he was just an ordinary old classmate.
A lot of information about Xue Jing, Chen Lingnan learned from other classmates. I heard that she later went to a foreign company. At first she was just a small clerk, and then she switched to sales. The performance in the first year was quite impressive. The director, followed by the regional manager, who is less than thirty years old, is already a well-known figure in the industry.
Time has made her more bright and moving. In the past, she was just simple and good-looking, as clear as a creek.
Now she is like wine. In addition to being good at modifying herself in clothes and makeup, her temperament has a deep taste of time, which is more intriguing.
After a few glasses of wine, the past began to ferment in Chen Lingnan's heart. He looked at Xue Jing from a distance, and vague sadness poured out of his heart.
Chen Lingnan knew that Xue Jing would stay in this city for half a month.
He left her contact information, and every day before going to bed, he would look at her circle of friends. Unfortunately, she is always very silent , and the circle of friends is also set to be visible for three days.
He thought that if he had the opportunity to do something for her, he would spare no effort to make up for what he owed her.
Opportunity soon came.
The other day, Xue Jing asked in the WeChat group who has a relationship with the hospital . She has been sick to her stomach recently and wanted to have a comprehensive examination.
It happened that Chen Lingnan's colleague's wife was working in the hospital, so he offered to help.
is actually just some routine inspections. You can do it yourself at an appointment. Chen Lingnan was worried and drove to pick up Xue Jing early. Because he had to have an empty stomach for gastroscopy, he first bought pumpkin porridge and packed it in the heat preservation. In a cup, so you can eat it as soon as the inspection is over.
He also felt that he had gone too far, but since he met Xue Jing at the wedding, her frowns and smiles were rippling in his heart, and she didn't seem to be as brooding about the past as she thought. This gave him a glimmer of hope in his heart.
He didn't want her to think of him all sad sad, and he didn't want her to write off his good fortune.
Xue Jing took the pumpkin porridge and fell silent. After a while, she said quietly, "You still remember that I like to drink this?"
He said softly, "I remember everything about you...I I know I'm sorry, I've been feeling guilty all these years..."
She just smiled: "At least you got what you want, and I'm not bad, our ending is not too bad. ."
He asked: "You don't hate me?"
She shook her head: "It's too tiring to hate someone. Parents have their own way, and everyone has their own difficulties."
Her words were like A sharp dagger stabbed Chen Lingnan's weakness at once.
She is still the empathetic Xue Jing, gentle, demure, and charming. Although she is both a woman, how different she is from his wife Du Qian, Du Qian is always dissatisfied with him, her endless complaints are like too much carbon dioxide in the air, which makes him in a dull married life breathlessness .
He even secretly rejoiced that Du Qian had been staying at her parents' house recently because of her mother's poor health, so that she would not see him in a state of stubbornness.
3
The hotel where Xue Jing stayed was far from Chen Lingnan's house, but if she wanted to meet someone, she would always find various reasons.
At first, Chen Lingnan didn't think much about it, he just wanted to see Xue Jing more, because chatting with her was really a kind of enjoyment, just like feeling the breeze on a starry night.
But feelings are like a wild horse. Once you break free from the reins, you will involuntarily sink. Especially now that she is so good, sitting with her, the passing men not only pay attention to her, but also do not forget the complicated feelings. Looking at him, this feeling made him feel very useful.
He knew that she was still single, although she just said lightly: "The relationship is not to go to the supermarket to buy food, find something you like, put it in the basket if the price is acceptable, it is so easy to love someone."
Her face A sadness that used to be in the sea.
He felt that he was her ocean. She used to love him so much, but he let her down like a bastard, so how could she have the courage to love others.
She seemed to see through his mind, and half-jokingly said, "Don't think so much about yourself, I just haven't met the right one, maybe someday fate will come!"
Xue Jing probably also felt that They are in touch too often.
Once Chen Lingnan's wife called him and said that she wanted to come back to pick up some clothes, but she forgot the key and asked him to go home quickly.
put down the phone, he looked at Xue Jing with some guilty conscience.
Xue Jing just smiled understandingly, she said softly: "We will never see each other again, I don't want to disturb your life." You have been in my heart for many years and have never left."
Xue Jing replied: "Then you keep it in your heart, don't tell me."
Chen Lingnan said, "Actually, you have me in your heart, otherwise you wouldn't have tea and chat with me alone, you can refuse me, I still can't forget the hurt I left you. , you have been waiting so hard for me. "
After a long time, Xue Jing replied: "I was not just waiting for you, but waiting for the father of the child in my womb. "
Chen Lingnan felt like a thunderclap, and his heart was in chaos. He asked, "Child? Did you have children at the time? "
Xue Jing didn't answer anything.
For the next few days, she stopped answering his calls and sent WeChat like a rock. Said that his daughter-in-law was just a decoration. She was pampered like a young lady. She didn't cook, did not wash clothes, and didn't give birth to children. Accidentally miscarried . After that, there was no movement in the stomach. It was useless to go to the hospital many times. This became the heart disease of the couple.
In the past, Chen Lingnan was always in the mud between his mother and his wife, saying good things on both sides, but this time, thinking about the past with Xue Jing, he couldn't help but blame his mother, and said impatiently: "This is not your own choice. Wanxuan's daughter-in-law? If I knew it now, why should I do it now?"
The mother cried and left, she said: "You have been complaining about me for so many years, and I will not care about your business in the future!"
Chen Lingnan's mood It was so bad that he dialed Xue Jing's phone again and again, and finally drove to a tavern near Xue Jing's hotel to get drunk, and then knocked on her door.
He saw that her eyes were red, she must have just cried, and for a while, he took her hand on his chest and said, "Don't worry, I will not let you down again, give me some time to let her go. I'll take care of my family affairs, either you stay or you let me go with you, anyway I won't leave you in the future."
She seemed startled, looked at him and asked, "Are you serious? ?"
He nodded and said, "If you want me, I will be with you even if the boat is wrecked!" It seems like I've been waiting for this day for a lifetime! It's worth it for me to keep thinking about and for so many years."
5
When Chen Lingnan was in the bathroom , bathed , she heard Xue Jing calling in a low voice.
He actually wanted to kiss her just now. She blamed him for being drunk and asked him to take a bath first, but his voice was so gentle that it seemed to melt.
Chen Lingnan couldn't help but be elated when he thought of the beautiful night to come, and he would never let her go no matter what.
When he went out, Xue Jing was not in the room, and he hadn't seen her for a long time, so he poured a glass of water and sat on the sofa watching TV.
When the doorbell rang, Chen Lingnan went to open the door with a face full of spring breeze, but saw his wife Du Qian standing at the door anxiously. : "A lady called me just now and said that she found your mobile phone and asked me to come to this room to pick it up, because she had to catch a plane, so I took a taxi..."
She never thought that she would meet here My husband, still wrapped in a bath towel and half-naked, looked panicked. There was no one else in the room, only a messy bed, two pillows cuddling each other, and there were still a few curls on the pillow. Long hair and a pink lace bra.
Chen Lingnan's face turned pale, he wanted to explain that he did nothing, he did nothing, but all the evidence was in front of him, and he was speechless.
Xue Jing completely disappeared from Chen Lingnan's life, as if what he experienced was a dream, but after waking up, there was a heavy mess waiting for him: a sighing mother, a crying wife seeking a divorce, There is also the unfinished lingering in his heart.
After a long, long time, he finally received a text message from her: "Love is a dream destined to wake up, I don't want your guilt, it's worthless to me, I just want you, feel the same way, it's only fair! "
The author of this issue | Lotus Shadow
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