When I was very sick, I would sit on the window sill on the ninth floor, hide behind the curtains, look down, look at the iron railings, cement floors and flower bed green plants below, imagine if I jumped down, would it hurt or ugly if I was ugly... I just sat there blankly, and several hours passed, without eating or drinking, without moving or thinking, my head was confused, as if I had no mind and consciousness. Maybe it's just that my soul is lost... I can't survive or die. It can't be said that it's uncomfortable, but it's all over. The child was still young at that time, and I had to grit my teeth and squeeze out a smile from time to time. It was probably even worse than crying.
Luckily, I didn't give up on myself. Looking for a "way" everywhere, asking anyone you see, no matter what method you want, try it first. I took many detours, wasted a lot of time, was cheated and cheated... I spent a lot of money in vain. The most difficult thing is to face my true self... I cried, shouted, made a fuss and died, and that process was more exciting than riding a roller coaster.
After several years of hard work, my desire for life has allowed me to persevere; the responsibility of maternal love has allowed me to survive! I'm fine! Awakened! I awaken my inner strength and spirituality! Transform into a gentle, firm, brave and dedicated person! So, I changed my name for myself: Li Sun! It shines without relying on anyone! Don't be warm and tough because of any reward! Be your own sun, warm yourself and shine on the world!
Enter the Tao because of illness, treating illness as a teacher, and becoming a doctor for a long time. There are many cures, which vary from person to person. It's a gift package given by God!
Thank you for being sick [Pray], let me grow, mature and achieve!
You said, is this the most successful thing! I am proud of myself!
I want to write the next article, I wonder if anyone will read [Shy]
2022-9-18, Seattle , at home.
