th century ending
It seems that in the blink of an eye, the new century has arrived on earth. Experts are still discussing when the 21st century will start, start from 2000, or 2001 will enter the new century. People in the secular world ignore and vote with their feet to make their own judgments. Of course, 2000 is the new century! In the new millennium, not everyone has the opportunity to cross between two millenniums.
The weather is very cold, and the streets are crowded, and people are rushing to the mall to shop for the New Year and the New Century. The best way to express your mood is to buy gifts and give them to your beloved.
Xia'er received a call from Qian Zuole, saying that she would come to Dalian before the New Year to accompany her to spend the new millennium. Finally, I would like to say that I would live longer this time, and maybe I would stay there forever and not leave.
won’t leave! Not leaving! Whenever Xia'er thinks of these three words, she gets hot all over. She thinks that she will be with Qian Zhuo Le'er since then. If she doesn't separate, she will burst into tears... Finally, she will have a long old age of staying together...
She decided to go to Da Shang to buy something for Zhuo Le. After thinking about it, I decided to buy a new Tang suit for Jane. It is more bright and worn by the family during the New Year. It is very stylish and classic, which is in line with his identity as a painter.
She put on her coat and wrapped her scarf around her to Dashang. The streets were bustling with people, as if everyone was rushing to the streets. As she was about to reach the revolving glass door of the mall, Xia'er looked forward and suddenly she saw a figure, it was her! It must be her! She shouted affectionately, "Sister Zhenzhen... Zhu Zhenzhen..." The woman in front of
turned around and it was indeed Zhu Zhenzhen. They hugged each other happily, trying to get out of the crowd, but were swept by the abortion and entered the revolving door and rotated into the mall. The two of them walked to a place with few people in the corner and stood there, looking at each other in surprise. "Sister Zhenzhen, it's really you. When I see my walking posture, I know it's you. It's really you! It's really you!" Xia'er was so happy that she was a little incoherent. How many times did she want to see Zhu Zhenzhen, but was stopped by her father. Tell her that the school teacher said that Zhu Zhenzhen’s husband came from the countryside to Dalian! I may not be in a good mood, don’t cause trouble for her!
Xia'er held Zhu Zhenzhen's hand and refused to let go. Zhu Zhenzhen smiled, "Let's stop shopping, go, find a cafe to sit."
"Okay!"
The two of them pulled their hands and came out of the revolving door and walked towards the cafe next to them. Just a few steps, a middle-aged woman came over the opposite side. They saw it almost at the same time, and Zhu Zhenzhen shouted first, "Jiang Shuhua?!"
Xia'er a little forgot Jiang Shuhua's name, "Old Jiang family girl!"
Jiang Shuhua stopped, Her face turned red, "Sister Zhenzhen and Sister Xia'er, come and go shopping together!"
Zhenzhen and Xia'er laughed, and Zhu Zhenzhen said, "We both saw it for a few minutes and met you since we came out of Dashang. What's wrong! I haven't seen it for so many years, and I've seen it all at once!"
Xia'er believes in some mysterious powers very much, "An invitation to the new century! Inviting us to recall the past!"
Zhu Zhenzhen suddenly had some special feelings for Jiang Shuhua. She is Jiang Weize's sister and Qin Jizu's aunt. "We are going to chat in the cafe, are you here too?"
"Me?!" Jiang Shuhua was a little surprised. In my memory, these two older sisters had never had any interaction with her and her family. They looked down on their own family and themselves.
Xia'er hugged her affectionately, "Come on! How difficult it is! We have been in the same city for so many years, but this is the first time we meet together, and it is the three of us who meet together."
Jiang Shuhua's face turned redder, "Okay! OK!"
Enter a coffee shop next to her, they sat in the corner and ordered three cups of coffee. While waiting for the coffee, the three of them looked at each other, and they had a lot to say, but they couldn't think of what to say for a moment. Xia'er thought of a solution, "Let's talk about our current life! By age, Sister Zhenzhen, you are the oldest, you should talk first. My second brother, Shuhua, you are the youngest, and finally say."
Jiang Shuhua nodded. She didn't know what to say. It is of course the best to listen to the introductions of the two sisters she once admired and envied.
Coffee was brought up, Zhu Zhenzhen picked up the coffee, took a sip, put it down, and looked at her former neighbor with bright eyes, "He is dead!"
Jiang Shuhua glared at her eyes, not knowing what to say for a moment.
Xia'er knew, "Qin Zhengliang?"
"Yes. I picked him up to Dalian in 1984. When I was taking the college entrance examination, I agreed to pick him up after graduation. This is the prerequisite for him to let me take the college entrance examination. In the past few years, I supported him, and in the next few years, his brother gave him money?"
"Qin Dongliang."
"Yes! Qin Dongliang, the deputy secretary of the brigade, later worked as a construction worker in Dalian, and later worked in real estate by himself. Now he is a serious boss."
Both girlfriends opened their mouths. Unexpectedly, the deputy secretary of the brigade followed the times and was still a trendsetter.
Zhenzhen described the process of Qin Zhengliang's death, and hid himself and watched him slowly lose his breath before reporting 120. That day, Qin Dongliang heard this secret in the cemetery. I am afraid that no one in this world knows this secret anymore. Xia'er put his hand on Zhu Zhenzhen's hand, "Sister Zhenzhen, you should find another one for so many years."
Zhu Zhenzhen shook her head, "You can't say you don't look for it. Maybe it's because I was hurt too much. I have a phobia of marriage. I live with my parents. Jizu is in Japan, and I retire in three years. My parents are old, and my younger brothers and sisters are all married. I am now the backbone of my parents!"
Xia'er suddenly remembered that when they first met, they were on the Mau Zhenqiong that Zhenzhen talked about. "Sister Zhenzhen, have you met Mao Zhenqiong? Where is he now? You guys..."
Zhenzhen smiled indifferently, "I haven't seen him before. I heard from my classmates that he was released later, rehabilitated in seventies and eight years, and was admitted to Fudan University in Shanghai in seventies and nineties. We have never met again. There was nothing at all, what do you say when we met? Besides, my classmates might tell him about my marriage in the countryside!"
The two of them were silent.
"Tell me about you." Zhu Zhenzhen looked at Xia'er.
Xia'er thought, "Sister Zhenzhen, we are both killed by others, so we have so many hardships. Qin Zhengliang is dead! Shangguan Qiu and I have not been in contact for many years..." She talked about the demolition, talked about Qiu'er coming to her house to ask Xia'er to pay, and talked about Qiu'er saying that she was not worthy of money and joy at all. Qian Zuole doesn't love her at all. If she loves her, she should go to the countryside to marry her.
"When I heard this, I stood up. You know she is taller and stronger than me. I never thought that one day she would fight her. She took my place back to the city, and I never thought of hitting her. But that day, I told myself, I fought hard today! I stood up and pushed her down with my arms. She was stunned. I dragged her out of my door, dragged her to the stairs on the third floor, and threw her to the ground, and then went home to plug the door in. I don't know how long she had been outside, nor did I know if it was broken. Strangely, I didn't hear any curses, no knocks on the door, nor when she left. Since then, we have really broken up! During the Chinese New Year, my brother called her and asked her to go home for the Chinese New Year. She said that as long as I was there, she and her whole family would not come! "
At the end of the day, Xia'er smiled and smiled brightly. Suddenly, her voice choked and tears flowed out. "Actually, I have always wanted to reconcile with Qiu'er. Even if I have knots in my heart, at least I get along with each other on the surface, so that my mother and my father would feel more at ease. But, but listen to her using such vicious words, like a knife, and the anger of so many years was rushing... I'm not a generous and tolerant person after all. I know that my mother hopes that I am such a person, always give in to my sister, and endure even if I am wronged... I didn't do it." What happened between Xia'er and Qiu'er, she didn't even say her father, brother and sister-in-law, and she told others for the first time today. Suddenly, I said it without any reservation. If you remove a big burden in your heart, your whole body will be relaxed.
Zhu Zhenzhen patted Xia'er's palm, "We have always been weak, and we are insulted and bullied. This kind of insult and bullying has no end, no beginning or end. When you encounter a point by chance, it is inevitable to fight back. You don't have to feel guilty. No one can bully people forever, and no one should be bullied forever. Even if it is a relative, or a so-called couple or lover like me."
Zhu Zhenzhen said this to Xia'er, but she was thinking about herself, "She knocked Qiu'er to the ground and dragged her out, and did not touch her life, there was no more harm, and she had no spiritual burden. I let Qin Zhengliang die and refuse to save him when he dies! Break through the bottom line of morality! It's different from Xia'er. You can't tell anyone, and you will never tell anyone.
Xia'er looked at Zhu Zhenzhen as if she was distracted, "Sister Zhenzhen..."
Zhenzhen came to her senses, "Xia'er, you're back to the Xia'er I just met. I remember that when I criticized my mother that night, you went up to defend my mother, how brave and cheerful! Since Qiu'er occupied your quota, you have become another person! Now you have finally changed back! Looking at your expression, you know that you live a happy life and look like love. Could it be that you are reliving the old dream with that person!"
Zhu Zhenzhen was not sure. She didn't mention Qian Zale's name, for fear of causing Xia'er's memories, but unexpectedly, Xia'er's face turned red and she nodded. "Sister Zhenzhen, you said it was true! He said that he would go back to Dalian before the 21st century and welcome me to the new century."
Zhenzhen opened her eyes wide, "That's great! A tragedy of , , can end with a comedy, do you know? This is a serious drama!"
Xia'er was also a little excited, "Sister Zhenzhen, I learned a lot from you, and it has helped me a lot. If you didn't tell me to fight for my own rights, when the educated youth assigned work, my ex-husband's family invited his uncle, and the whole family advised me to give the quota to my ex-husband. According to my previous one Character, always put others first, always believe what others say, I will really give it to him. This time I firmly refuse. Otherwise, how could this day be?! Let me tell you, the most thorough thing about my change is that I no longer ask for too much from life. Last year, Qian Zaole came back and did not marry me. He said he still wanted to walk around and didn’t want to settle down. I agree, form is really not that important. We haven’t been together for so many years, we have each other, we all have children with other men and women, but we have each other in our hearts, which is great! "
Several people were very excited, excited for Xia'er's happiness.
Zhu Zhenzhen asked, "How is your son now?"
Xia'er was getting more and more frowning, "He graduated from college in Beijing and stayed in Beijing. I paid him a down payment to buy a house. My son brought his father and grandparents to Beijing for a trip. The whole family was happy! Weiwei has always had a good relationship with his father and he goes back to celebrate the New Year every year!"
Zhu Zhenzhen nodded, "This is the best choice."
Jiang Shuhua listened to them and said nothing.
Zhu Zhenzhen felt a little embarrassed, "Look, just the two of us say, let's talk about you quickly, isn't it good?"
Jiang Shuhua lowered her head, and tears flashed in her eyes. She could hear that the two older sisters were telling the truth, and she didn't want to hide herself.
"I am different from you. I live a miserable life and feel uneasy."
They looked at her together, not understanding why I feel uneasy. An ordinary woman should be uneasy in everything she does.
Jiang Shuhua said that she went to Dalian to petition many times back then, but finally the whole family could go back to Dalian, but left her sister Jiang Shuying in the countryside. Speaking of the family who used a trick to get Jiang Shuying married, her voice was very low, "Last year, 1998, it was the 30th anniversary of Dalian's educated youth going to the countryside. A classmate of mine told me that some educated youth in Dalian were going to Zhuanghe to visit those educated youth who had not come back. I also asked to go to Zhuanghe with the team. I didn't follow them. When I arrived in Zhuanghe, I went to see my sister. She lived a bad life and had no children. She said she was pregnant, but because our family went to Dalian, she left her behind. Excessive sadness leads to miscarriage and never get pregnant again. Life at home is very difficult, her bronchitis is very serious. I brought some medicine for her. When she left, she said, "I don't have to come back in the future, I will follow me if I die!" You guys live your life, don't miss me. I know, you won't miss me either. Speaking of which, I should give her the quota, she is big! My dad said, what can she do when she returns to the city? She is sick and uneducated yet! It's useless to come back.My dad has no job, so I have always supported him! "
They looked at her, "You are not married! "
Jiang Shuhua shook her head, "I have talked a few times, and I went to my house several times, but I was scared away. My mom passed away very early, and I have always supported my dad. He loves to drink, has a bad temper, and has no pension. Who dares to have such a father-in-law? "
They were silent. After a long time, Zhu Zhenzhen looked at her and said word by word, "Jiang Shuhua, don't feel guilty! You can't blame you for going back to Dalian. Your family’s qualification to return to Dalian was only obtained after years of petitioning. Without your petition, you would not be able to come back. In fact, some of the delegated households have not come back! You just get the results of your efforts. If you give it to your sister, of course you are noble. However, we are all human beings, and under the circumstances at that time, no one could achieve that kind of nobleness. If you didn't do it, if I, or Xia'er, we would probably not be able to do it. This is due to human nature. It’s hard for you to live with guilt. How old are you this year? "
Jiang Shuhua's voice was very quiet, "I am exactly forty years old during the Chinese New Year. "
" At the age of forty, there is still a long way to go. If you have a good time, get married! "
Xu Shuhua's expression was much better, and Zhu Zhenzhen's persuasion relieved a lot of guilt. Xia'er nodded, "I will help you see it. If you meet a suitable one, I will introduce it to you. ”
Zhu Zhenzhen nodded, “I will do it too. You are a smart girl, and my dad often mentions you! Say you are very smart. The Buddhist Heart Sutra says that the mind has no worries, and because there is no worries, there is no fear. Only by letting go of the past can you live your life in the future. "
Xu Shuhua asked this sentence clearly and repeated it himself, "Sister Zhenzhen, I remember it! I must let go and walk out. "
Zhu Zhenzhen seemed to ask casually, "Where is your brother? Do you have two brothers? Are they all okay? "
" My elder brother was transferred back to Dalian from Zhuanghe and lived at home for a while. Later, someone introduced him to a divorced woman, and he was recruited to live with that woman. My second brother went to Panjin Oilfield and took my sister-in-law and children there, which was also very good. "Jiang Shuhua smiled. It seemed that she was quite satisfied with the ending of her brother.
Zhu Zhenzhen knew that Jiang Weize took that step after talking to her.
She nodded, "Very good, very good, men and women are different. In comparison, men need a home more. Men who are almost fifty should also be more pragmatic. "But in my heart, I felt a little disappointed. Love finally lost to reality. She asked herself, didn't you push him away?
The three of them chatted about the past, and Zhu Zhenzhen looked at her watch, "It's this time, my parents are still waiting for my things! "
Xia'er and Jiang Shuhua were both reluctant to let go, but they also stood up. Xia'er said we would leave a phone number and contact more in the future. Jiang Shuhua remembered that they said they would introduce her boyfriend to her, so she quickly took out the paper and wrote down the phone number to Xia'er and Zhu Zhenzhen. Xia'er took it, tore off half of it, wrote down her phone number, and handed it to Jiang Shuhua. "I will pay more attention. If there is any good one, I will introduce it to you. "
Zhu Zhenzhen took the note with the phone number written, but did not leave her phone number to Jiang Shuhua. She smiled, a little unnatural, "I will call you if there is a suitable one! I'll leave first. "
Looking at Zhu Zhenzhen's back, Xia'er and Jiang Shuhua were both stunned. Xia'er said, "Sister Zhenzhen has something to do in her heart. Her marriage to Qin Zhengliang is a hurdle that she cannot overcome in her heart. "
Zhu Zhenzhen walked, thinking of Xia'er's smiling face, "She really came out, I can never come out, I let his death be my nightmare in this life. She asked herself, if she had reported 120 at that time, would she rescue him? Qin Zhengliang is still alive and has a clear moral conscience. One is to let his death be as he is now, and he will no longer be entangled and free from it. Now let me choose, which one will I choose! Of course it was the latter, which made him die! He died one minute earlier, and I was relieved one minute earlier. Don't regret it if you do it. "I thought again that Jiang Weize was already married and might have another child. Is Jiang Weize’s choice wrong? He rejected him, so of course he could make another choice.But...but... there is always a little uncomfortable... the eternal unchanging love is nothing! I shouldn't have agreed to Jiang Shuhua. I met a suitable person to introduce her to her. She is Jiang Weize's sister. Don't meet again, both of them are embarrassed!
I remember Xia'er again, she has love, but I don't. I’m afraid there will be no love in this life, and I will never have a fate with love in this life! I remember the words of Li Shangyin : The silkworm will not stop until it dies, and the candle will not stop drying when it turns into ashes. The morning mirror is sad and the clouds change, and the night chants, the moonlight is cold. She murmured to herself: I am old, and I am destined to be a candle in this life. I am Qin Jizu's candle, once a candle for students, and now I am a candle for parents...
Zhu Zhenzhen shook her head... I don't think about it anymore, I have no idea. I still have the rest of my life. Think slowly, if I have to pay for the decision at that time, then come! I, Zhu Zhenzhen, can accept anything... If Qin Zhengliang has a soul to take revenge, then come on! Zhu Zhenzhen looked up at the sky. How many souls are floating in the sky? Is there anyone from Qin Zhengliang?
Xia'er felt a little uncomfortable when she was walking on the road. She was checking herself to see if she was too excited and her excessively hype happiness hurt others. Sister Zhenzhen is the most trustworthy friend in her heart. Although she has not been in contact for so many years, she has never forgotten her. Every time she thinks of it, she is respectful and grateful... Looking at the watch, it is almost noon, so she has to quickly choose clothes for Qian Zuo Le. Qian Zuo Le fills the whole thing in her heart, and happiness ripples in her heart... Zhu Zhenzhen was thrown behind her mind, and women in love are all confused, Xia'er is now.
Jiang Shuhua walked slowly alone. For her, this was a brand new accident. When they were in the East Village of Huzi, Zhu Zhenzhen and Xia'er were both educated educated youths. She was also a young junior high school student... They almost didn't say anything between them. She was too young at that time and did not enter the eyes of these two sisters. In addition to the different family backgrounds, these two people have always been people whom she is arrogant and need to look up to. Sitting with them today, I actually told them what I thought... Thinking about this world, only they can understand her... Understanding her choice to return to the city to leave her sister in the countryside is a normal normal behavior... Who else understands it! Who wants to understand! The times have passed, and with the past, the indifference to the past, the indifference to the past... I am the indifferent people and things in the past...
I remembered Zhu Zhenzhen and Xia'er saying that she wanted to introduce her boyfriend, and hope rose in my heart... If I could get married, even a married man would be fine! Being a woman, you should get married once, right? When my mother passed away, she held her hand and said, "I'm leaving, what should you do!"
Maybe Sister Zhenzhen, Sister Xia'er, and especially Sister Xia'er can really introduce one to me?
She walked with hope, as if there was light leading her in front of her...
2020, 4, 23am, 9 and 42am.
Dear readers:
Until today, all "Hate of Family" will be serialized. During this period, I would like to thank readers for their company, especially many friends wrote enthusiastic messages. Every message touched me. The process of serialization is also the process of me re-examining this book. To some extent, I don’t want to recall that time. When I started writing, I set a watershed for myself and didn’t write about the experience in the countryside. Subconsciously, I even hope to forget and completely forget. Later, my husband suggested that I write, and it was extremely enthusiastic. He said that writing it down will let people know what happened...
was written down and found that forgetting was impossible. The memories that were once compressed and covered in the corner of life will pour out once they were unblocked. This book should be said to be very easy to write, and there is not even an outline. Let the thoughts go back to the past, in today's words, travel through time, travel through time...
Thank you all readers and friends for your encouragement.
From tomorrow, I will serialize another novel of my "Cold Blast Siege". I hope my friends will still like it.
Wang Yi
2022, 3, 20
