Hello, I want to tell my story.
I am divorced, and the child is with his ex-husband.
My mother's family is in good condition, and my income is OK, so there is no financial pressure.
I didn’t plan to live alone and live alone. I have been to each other several times, but I don’t like me, and I don’t like me, so I don’t like me, so I don’t like the following.
Two years ago, I knew a man. He has a family and children and works in public institution . 
He looks good, his words and demeanor are very graceful, and he is the type I like. So even though I knew he was married, I still couldn't control myself with him.
He has a low salary and he has no money on hand. We have been together for more than a year and he has never given me any gifts. On the contrary, I often support him, transfer money to him, buy things, etc.
I think it is normal to spend money on the person you like, and I don’t lack that little money anyway. Moreover, if you go to find a duck, don’t you have to spend money?
To be honest, his performance in bed is OK and can completely satisfy me. And he can also give the emotional value I need. So, I'm willing to pay for it.
roughly calculated, I should have spent 70,000 or 80,000 yuan on him!
History ago, our affairs were found out by his wife. He didn't want to get a divorce, so he had to separate from me.
I was in pain in those days because I liked him very much and had lost my heart to him. If he was willing to divorce and marry me, I would be willing. 
A few days ago, he added me again and said that he would comfort his wife and be careful in the future.
restored the relationship, and I was quite happy. But for some reason, he is not as enthusiastic towards me as before, and I can clearly feel his indifference.
I thought it was boring, so I blocked him and he didn't look for me again.
Sometimes he thinks about it, he probably is with me for money. Recently, because my income has dropped, I am not so generous to him, so he has become cold.
If we are just transactions, I can easily let it go. But I was so concerned and really liked him. I was in great pain to lose him.
I don’t know how to get out of it, so I’m asking for guidance.