Perhaps a man like him was attractive to a girl who was not very experienced in the world. What's more, I was just a yellow-haired girl who was not very experienced in the world. I was even more eager to get such care. Hypocrisy is sometimes aphrodisiac, making the air ambiguous.
This is really an age where everything has no purpose. I just followed my weak heart, confused and helpless, and with a little bit of inexplicable tragic and joy that only a little girl would have, and I couldn't believe it.
There is no great sadness, only disgust with someone's hypocrisy. I thought about it and felt that my feelings for him were not love, it was the heart of a frog in a well, the inferiority complex that I had at this age, and the admiration for a man I looked up to. This kind of relationship makes a young girl compromise so easily. It doesn't even require much effort from him.
This world will never make a man more willing to give when he becomes a lover with you because of your innocence and love. Their wishful thinking is likely to be the opposite - because with the relationship, they can make less effort and even gain both wealth and sex.
I just understand that when I took the first step of my youth with fear and fear, I had so easily compromised my feelings and blurred the state of life. Perhaps, this is the pain that youth should have, but I don’t want it to be our only way.
