Long time no see you...
Sorry.
From familiarity to strangers, this is our story.
01
Leslie Cheung said:
"There is always a person who appears, making you feel that the world is worth it, so you have to wait."
I thought you were the one I was waiting for, but all of this was my thoughts.
Someone said that I would accompany me until the end, but I only firmly chose to believe in you.
I blamed you, you first came to provoke me, why do you want to come and leave whenever you want, but I can't let it go.
I don’t blame you anymore, maybe we were all very helpless at that time.
02
Do you still remember our story?
The class of the liberal arts and sciences in the higher grade was divided into classes. We came late on the day of school. The students all chose their classmates to sit down. You looked at me and walked to the back seat. I looked around and could only sit down with you.
You are a boy who smiles very well. He plays basketball very well. Every time you play basketball, there will be a girl who will deliver water next to you. He likes to be handsome in front of girls. Every time I see these scenes, I can't help but complain to my good friends. That's it? These girls can't tell that he was deliberately pretending to be cool. As for being so excited?
But my best friend always said, "He is just cool! It's hard for others to talk to him, don't be ungrateful." I rolled my eyes, and that's it.
03
On Saturday, I was supposed to sleep in at home and was woken up by your phone call. I wrapped myself up like a ball and took my thermos to the basketball court. You told me that no girl would call me over to see you play. I disliked you to keep a distance from you.
We sat side by side, and inadvertently, you drank the water in my thermos.
I said to you angrily, "I don't like other people touching my things." I plan to go home and meet your eyes. I feel you are wronged? Wronged? Then you pulled the corner of my clothes and said dullly, "I want to be your person."
04
That day you said a lot to me. You wanted to confess to me for a long time. I didn't expect that in this way, if you had the opportunity to chat with me alone in everything, you wouldn't help but say it. Every time you talk to other boys, I would think that you were not outstanding enough; every time I was playing basketball, you didn't look at me by your side. Finally, you came and watched for a while. I'm very unhappy when I left again; I just hope you can talk to me...
You said a lot, some of them, and I can't remember them clearly. Finally, you hugged me in your arms and said, "When you have me, you don't have to envy others. Don't make me jealous, I'm afraid you will leave."
To be honest, I didn't like you at that time, and I thought it was good to get along with you, so I would try it. Anyway, I don't have anyone I like.
October 9, 2019, we are together.
05
After falling in love, you are very nice to me. As long as you are by my side, I rarely move. No matter what you are doing, as long as you hear something happening to me, I will put down the things in my hands and run to me.
Gradually, I fell in love with you and miss you every day. I am very happy to see you happy. It turns out that this is the feeling of liking.
There is more water for the stadium, there is also you for milk tea shop, we are solving problems in the classroom, and we are walking on the playground after dinner...
The students are envious of us who think we can go on until the end of our lives.
06
But later we were promoted to the third year of high school, because of the pressure of the third year of high school, we seemed to have changed and it didn't seem to have changed. We started to quarrel over trivial matters. Sometimes I can't stand it and want to break up, and you will say with red eyes: "Baby, I was wrong."
"Let's calm down for a while first! The college entrance examination is about to be in my mind, and I don't want to waste time on my relationship."
"Okay"
Just like this, we seem to be maintaining a superficial relationship.
We all thought that after the college entrance examination, our relationship might return to the same as before. We probably knew it and couldn't go back to the original feeling.
Finally you said to me, "Let's break up, I'm tired, I think you're tired too."
I stared at your eyes for a long time, but I still don't want to miss you. If I see a little reluctance in your eyes, I will immediately say I'm not tired, but I can't understand you now. I said it and picked up the bag beside me and walked out of the milk tea shop. The moment I turned around, my tears flowed out disobediently, and I didn't leave. In a place you can't see, I looked at you secretly and said in a low voice: "Goodbye, my boy."
07
Later, because of missing me, I deleted all your contact information and wanted to clear you away from my memory bit by bit.
After filling out the application form, I invited my friends to travel. After coming back, I felt much better. I decided not to miss you anymore and live a good life.
After going to college, I began to get busy for a long time and gradually stopped thinking about you. Once I was waiting for my cousin on the basketball court. When I turned around and saw someone who looked very similar to you, I was wondering if it was you. I wanted to follow me, but my cousin hugged my shoulder and asked me to sit down. I thought I must have read it wrong! How could you be here?
Occasionally, I will talk about my ex with my roommate, but I will still think of everything about you. I will also search for QQ numbers, WeChat numbers and phone numbers that I remember. I dare not read your spatial dynamics because I am afraid that you will find it. I clicked in to read the circle of friends and found that you are more mature and steady than before.
I would have thought that I would meet you later. At that time, I was sensible and you were mature. Maybe the result would be different.
08
First love is the most unforgettable, it turns out that this is true.
I have started thinking about you again recently. I think maybe if I take the initiative now, you will come back to me. Just as I was hesitating whether to add you back, I found something that prevented me from thinking about the opening remarks for a long time.
You just posted a photo of your Moments. That girl is very beautiful and the copywriting is simple and clear. I was stunned for a few seconds and then cried out. I cried a little inexplicably. My roommate was startled by me. After
, I have seen your circle of friends more times. Your circle of friends is full of photos of her, preparing for her sense of ceremony on a special day. Her eyes are all gentle. I have seen that kind of eyes and I understand it.
But what I taught you with tears and quarrels is used to love another girl.
has no fairness at all, and the order of appearance in love is not important at all.
I thought that I was firm that day and didn’t agree to break up with you. Is the result different?
09
Xue Zhiqian 's lyrics:
"Instead of being in the world you don't want, it's better to forget you happily. It's easy for everyone to say this principle. If you love it thoroughly, you have to be stubborn..."
Roommates play this song in the dormitory every day to brainwash me, and they all take turns to be my emotional mentors. Recently, I am in a bad state and don't eat well and sleep well. I am always distracted in class and criticized by the counselors.
Roommate suggested that I go to a relationship, maybe I can forget you. I did what I did and talked to a senior, but every time he came to see me, I felt that he was so annoyed, and in the end I couldn't stand his noise, and broke up in less than a month.
I started to numb myself with busyness again. For a while, I really rarely think of you until I came home from holiday.
I saw you at the classmate's day meeting. I was indeed mature as I thought. The classmates knew that we were separated and were not joking. We didn't communicate at the meeting. I didn't want to talk to you at all. I saw you go out to answer the phone. I planned to go home before you came back. I told my classmates to leave first.
I came out and saw you hung up the phone with a smile. You didn't have to think about who called. You came over and said with a smile, "Long time no see, you..."
I turned my back to you and said in a low voice, "I'm sorry to bother you, I hope this is our last time talking, I think you are too."
I walked away as if I ran away, but I still heard you say, "I loved you, I hope you are safe and happy, and everything goes well"
I turned around and tried to make my voice normal. "Do you love your current girlfriend?"
You said without hesitation: "Is it true to"
"How much love do you have?"
"I want to grow old with her."
"Where are you? You love your current boyfriend too!"
I paused for a moment and said: "Yes"
"I went to your school to find you, and I am very happy to see you and your boyfriend."
I held back my tears and said, "I wish you happiness."
"Thank you, I wish you happiness too."
"Thank you, I wish you happiness too."
"Thank you, I wish you happiness too."
