After the second woman cheated in marriage, I met her in March this year. After I separated from that woman in June, I met her for the first time. Maybe it was her that appeared in my special time that I felt a different feeling about her!
The first time I walked into the cinema was with her. The first time I sang with a woman until three o'clock in the morning, she accompanied me. The same woman drank repeatedly and she was still her. The first time I gave a birthday gift to a woman, and the gift from the Chinese Valentine's Day was also given to her! I gave her many of my first time, and I did a lot of things for her that I had never done to other women!
We are not talking about love, and I never thought there would be any result with her, of course the same is true for her! What I did with her was actually no different from a couple, but I never broke through that last line of defense. This is my respect for her! I told her from the beginning that everything I did was not to get anything from you, nor to expect anything from you! Because your appearance illuminated me and changed me! If it weren't for her appearance, after the woman betrayed me in marriage, I might have fallen into depravity, and maybe I would have done twice as much as what she did to me to take revenge on her!
The cheating woman has sued me for divorce and the verdict has not yet been reached. Maybe I am with other women now, and the nature is that we have never slept, and the most ambiguous action is just holding hands and hugging! Of course I don’t think about those things, and I don’t care, because from the moment she betrayed me, she has been worthless to me! Everything I did had nothing to do with her!
The night before yesterday, she had dinner with her friend outside. After drinking, she asked me to go to her place for a while and asked me to bring a few bottles of beer over to drink a little more. She also said that she had a place to live there, and she didn't want to go back when it was cold. We were not far away, and it was only 5 minutes away by bike. It was after 10 o'clock when she got home. We drank until almost 10 a.m., and then she lay on the bed and fell asleep. I slept next to her, in a bed. It was 6 o'clock when I woke up in the morning, and she woke up too. I hugged her in my arms and told her that it was better for two people to sleep together than one person!
Actually, I know very well that as long as I am willing, we can have sex. Whether it is her hint or taking the initiative, I know that she is willing and she can’t wait! But I can't. I said something similar to her many times. Once we have sex, we will become different. If we wait for you to get married one day, we may not even be able to make friends because she is the first woman who makes me have no intentions in my heart. I like the pure feeling between us! What if she couldn't control herself, I told her, that's why I told you more than once that I have no idea about you, otherwise I would have violated what I said!
To be honest, when I slept with her, there was actually not much psychological and physical fluctuation. I also like the feeling of hugging her, which is enough for me. We basically don’t contact each other normally. Although we are close, we don’t meet every day. Although we are close, it does not affect the feeling after meeting. I have told her that it is only her, and only her. If it were any other one, I wouldn’t be indifferent!
