The thing that makes me most anxious is not debt, but the body of the old lady. People who are not with the old man day and night do not know this experience.
My old lady is very frail and in her 80s. Every day I pay attention to the old man's sleep, diet, blood pressure and heartbeat, as well as her old man's emotions. I'm worried that I won't let my old lady go out to buy groceries alone. I'm afraid that the stones on the ground will trip her over, and I'm afraid that the electric car will touch her. Sometimes when she insists on going out alone, I count the time at home. If I haven't come back, I will go out to find her in a hurry. When the old man took a bath at home, I was most worried about slipping in the bathroom. I always reminded me every moment outside the door, "Mom, slip on the floor carefully, don't slip." I didn't feel relieved until the old lady came out after washing. .
In the middle of the night, I still pay attention to the movement of my mother's house in my house. Sometimes the old man nightmare is choked and called. I can jump and run to my mother's house in a few seconds and call her softly. , Wake her up from her dream.
Although my brother and sister also care about the elderly, they don't live together after all. They don't know the feeling of worrying about the elderly every day. When my old lady talked and laughed vigorously with them on the phone, she always reported that she was safe and healthy. When she put down the phone and faced me, she was the real one, and she often conveyed negative emotions. The old man was worried about one and the other, just ignoring me who was living in dire straits all day. You may also know and think that I can withstand the storms, because of the ups and downs and ups and downs of the past life experience.
Recalling these details, I feel sour in my heart. I really don't know what kind of destination and destination can be worthy of the past misery and displacement. As Dostoevsky said: "My only concern is whether my future life is worthy of the sufferings I have suffered."
Friends who are familiar with me praise me Is a filial son,But I, a filial son, can only do this to the best of my ability, and there is no way for my old mother to enjoy the blessings for the time being.
In a clip half a year ago, chatting with a friend, he said to me: "You are so filial to your mother, God won't let you get through those troubles."
I know my friends are kind, and I told him: "Respect your parents, you can't ask for or exchange anything, just bless yourself so that you can bear the burden." I remember that my friend listened and was full of praise.
To be honest, I am not wronged at all in debt, and I am grateful and apologetic to all credit cards and online loans. But I can't say that I can't go out to work and owe me taking care of my mother. Although there are some reasons for this, the fact that I am in debt is due to many factors.
As the saying goes, everyone has hard-to-read sutras, and I read several hard-to-read sutras at the same time. The two most anxious things are mentioned above. Today, when I write here, I feel a little tired. Having carried on several things for so long, a person has tolerated it in silence for so many years, and can still stand up stubbornly and healthily, and really marveled at his pressure-bearing ability and willpower. Be grateful for what you have and don't complain about what is missing. It's mine, and I will eventually get it back after I cross the catastrophe. After the storm is over, you won't remember how you survived, but one thing is certain. When you go through the storm, you are not the same person.
The situation at this time is really embarrassed on all sides, and all the relatives have left. I was baptized in the wind and rain. I hope to see the rainbow after the rain soon. Now it is not the dream that is pushing me forward. The faint light, but the abyss of reality behind it.
Debt is not terrible, but what is terrible is the pressure and panic on debt. If I do not take action, determine the direction, and find a way to make money, then I drag it for a day, and the greater the risk caused by my debt, it is not impossible to be sued by several banks later, and it will face even more after being sued. Unimaginable. Leaving aside debts, if I still hesitate in this way, I may face problems in my future survival.
Starting from tomorrow, you must adjust your mentality, face the problem squarely, why your mind knows, stay quiet, wherever your heart is,Su Lv can go. When a person has a good mentality, he thinks with righteous thoughts, his behavior is diligent, and his expression is righteous. Everything in the world is a reflection of the state of mind. The mood is gloomy, and the world is bleak. The state of mind is clear, and the world is clear. The mood is gorgeous, and the world is colorful.
When writing these, I specially put "Victory" to cheer up my spirits. believes that good things will happen, don’t worry, the best will always appear when you don’t expect it .
Since ancient times, life has been windy and rainy. Who will live in peace for a hundred years, bite , keep your teeth straight!
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