Karma is getting stronger and stronger, and the relationship is too sad, what should I do?

thing is like this. Last summer, I suddenly had a dream, dreamed that I had a child . Although the dream was short, it was strange to say. I remember the child’s appearance, body shape, personality, temper and behavior habits. Why can I remember it so clearly? Because the kid is so different from me . Both looks and personality are different from me.

At that time, I was very strange, how could I have such a dream? Because at that time I didn't plan to marry anyone, even if I got married, I didn't plan to have children. Even subconsciously, I think so. But since I had that dream, my mindset has changed 360 degrees . I am no longer afraid of getting married, and I think it would be nice to have a baby after getting married.

Of course, I am not the kind of person who gets married for the sake of marriage , so I didn't think too much after this dream, because there are many other things to do in life.

Last fall, I went to a Taoist temple to play, and I lived there for a while, that is, there, things started to change.

First of all, less than a day after went to Taoist temple, I felt a very special feeling for a Taoist master for no reason. There seems to be a story between him. In fact, I didn't even look at his appearance carefully at the time, just don't know why I felt this way.

After that, we met from time to time in the Taoist temple, and I also found a very surprising thing, that is, the child I dreamed of before was very similar to him, appearance, size, personality, temper, even The subtle behavior habits, the two of them are like carved out of a mold.And I also found out that although I don't know him or know him, I just want to marry him and have a baby out of nowhere.

This inexplicable feeling aroused my vigilance. Is destined? Could it be that I can't help myself at all? I always feel that there is a kind of power invisible to me to get close to him, but I don't intend to obey that kind of power, so I have never taken the initiative to get to know him.

Until something happened later, it made me understand why I felt close to him for no reason.

One day I saw him looking for me in a crowd. At that moment, I was too familiar with it. I don’t know why. I’m very sure about one thing. I have experienced scenes like before. It seems to be a past life or In any life, exactly the same people, exactly the same clothes, exactly the same scene , at that moment all my feelings are back, and time does not seem to exist, because the past and the present completely overlap, and time and space overlap in an instant.

That moment was really amazing. After that, I was almost certain that I did not feel close to him for no reason. I should have some kind of fate with him in the previous life , but I vaguely feel that this is not a good fate.

So, for a long time, he and I were just strangers, and we didn't even know each other's name or age. Because of karma, I really want to know him, but I don't want to know him, because I know that I will lose myself again if this continues. But in the end, I still did not resist the influence of karma, and we still met .

It didn't take long for me to get to know him, and he felt very confused. Because of the inappropriate personalities of each other, there are many communication barriers between us , and it is hard to get along with each other. Since I met him,I feel like riding a roller coaster every day, and my mood is always ups and downs. However, even though the communication is not smooth, I inexplicably like him more every day.

I don't know what I like about him. , really, no matter what it is, he is not the type I usually like. At that time, it was obvious that I could not do without him. I often thought of leaving him as soon as possible, but I was always reluctant. When thought of leaving him, my whole person had difficulty breathing . At that time, my karma was already strong enough. I realized that if I didn't leave him, I couldn't live without him in the future. I had to leave him as soon as possible, so I left with tears in the end.

I remember that he left me before I left, but I really can't bear his bewildering operation with me when I was hot and cold. I was afraid that I would get deeper and deeper, so I stayed away.

At that time, I always thought that I owed him in the previous life, but then I had another dream, The dream is like a replay of my previous life . In my dream, I was a businessman, a restaurant owner, and an ancient man. He was also a layman at the beginning. He often went to my restaurant to eat. The key is not to pay for it. Every time he said that he would give it next time. Did not give. Gradually, he owed me a lot of money. At that time, my restaurant's business was still going well, so I didn't press his account. Later, the restaurant had some accidents and suddenly closed down, and I was penniless myself. I thought about him, he still owes me a lot of money, so I went to him.

After searching for a long time, he realized that he had gone to a Taoist temple to be a Taoist priest in order to avoid debts. So I found that Taoist temple, and when I looked for it, I saw that he was surrounded by many people. seemed to be transformed into a respected Taoist in the eyes of the worldly people. There are many disciples around him, guarding him,I took the IOU he wrote and wanted to ask him for a debt, but before I saw him, I was stopped by his disciples.

His disciples told me to forget it, don't count this account, and don't let me mention it, for fear of damaging his image . I refuse, because I have to live on the money. They just want to take the bill from me, but I won't pay for it. Then they locked me in a room and prevented me from going out.

That dream is so long, The Taoist temple I found in his dream is his Taoist temple .

After waking up, I suddenly realized that turned out to be the money he owed me ! He owes me the money, and I am going to ask for a debt. Isn’t it the same in this life? I have found the Taoist temple where he is all a long way away. may not pay his debts before, but now the debts have become sentimental debts . As long as I don't ask him for this debt, there is almost nothing to do with him. Just like in real life, as long as I stop looking for him, I should never have an intersection with him again.

This dream is just a dream, but because the feeling in 's dream is too real , I kind of believe it is a real thing.

Anyway, I am now quite sure that there is some karma between me and him. At this time, , whether I like him or not, whether I want him or not, there is an invisible force pushing me closer He, marry him and have children.

Especially recently, this kind of karma has become stronger. Because I have been away from him for a year, many of my feelings about him have faded, but only this "intimacy" can not fade . This is really strange,For the past year, I have not been in contact with him, we are far apart, and I also have a lot of communication barriers with him. I don’t know how this kind of "intimacy" is so deep-rooted, so deep-rooted, I can be sure of myself It is because of karma that I am moved to him. Even so, I still want to marry him and have children.

recently dreamed of him again, often dreaming of . He looked at my dreams in his dreams. He didn't participate in my dreams. He just watched and watched what kind of dreams I had . When I wake up, I don't remember what kind of dreams I had, but I always remember the way he was watching the dream in the dream.

I really don’t know what to do, I don’t want to be led by karma, because waits for this karma to disappear, my "intimacy" for him will definitely disappear_ strong2strong, when we are together, we should be very unhappy.