Before I turn 22, my biggest wish is to marry Mr. Zhou. In my imagination, the wedding dress must be blue, and the bouquet should be a warm red cuckoo. The ring can be without diamonds or precious metal, but it must be customized exclusively by him, the only one in the world.
When I was young, I was superficial and had a one-sided definition of happiness. The imagination of future life seemed to be concentrated in the bright moments of life. I arrogantly felt that the trivialities afterwards would indulge in those beautiful things. In the clip, always happy.
I did receive rings later, ordinary Swarovski , a man can only order one dr in his life, and find a ring designed exclusively by a craftsman... I never doubt the sincerity of the other party when giving these gifts, just Just like hearing some people’s oath of a mountain alliance, I believe in the sincerity of that moment, but I never add a beautiful filter to everything about him just because of this moment.
It’s getting harder and harder for me to be moved by these gorgeous looks, and it’s hard for me to understand why some girls cry with excitement when they are proposed; I will be happy all day when I receive a bunch of roses ; And the other half of the words that can be spoken in three minutes, it takes half an hour to finish it is romantic. Lu Xun said, "The joys and sorrows in the world are not interlinked, but I only think they are noisy." I can’t reach the height of Lu Xun. I never think the sense of ritual among others is noisy, and I will also watch the occasions when boys stand among candles holding roses and propose marriage, but I feel vulgar and have a sense of vulgarity while watching. You may sigh in your heart that people’s imitativeness is too strong. If a proposal is such a big deal, if you don’t want to worry about it, there are still girls who promised with tears in their eyes.
I can't explain why I feel vulgar when I see these scenes, but in fact, whether flowers, candles or men, I have no prejudice.
I eagerly love every flower in the world. At the moment, there is a bunch of pink dianthus inserted on the countertop. I bought a bunch of it without any modification, just simply Put it in the bottle. Actually I like all the vital things in this world,Probably because my natural temperament contains too many shadows of "can't afford to die, it's not right to die", so I often devote an extraordinary kind to the living and even a little barbaric animals and plants. Like, crazy jointing plants always make me feel extra beautiful. Perhaps many people will say that some flower pruning will grow better. Of course I know this, but I always stubbornly feel that what is against my nature is good with a kind of humbleness that adapts to the will of others, even if I live for a long time. , And only the body exists in time. If life is just a pyrotechnic splendor after all, short enough to only make a fleeting hole in the dark night, it would be more arrogant and enthusiastic than standing in a safe position forever and living in silence.
I actually like candles too, not to say how much I like candlelight dinners, or to some extent it represents the people in this world who have been silently paying for people, such as teachers, soldiers, and doctors. I like candles simply because they are candles, which can be used as lights to give me some comfort in the dark; they can also be melted into liquids and let me hold them like I like them. I like it only because it is it, and the thing returns to the state of being just a thing. When it communicates with me, it may make me feel a little more pure. It's like many people in the bustling world have many beautiful titles, gentlemen, gentlemen, ladies, talented women... as long as they put on these beautiful labels, they will naturally have many enviable auras on their bodies, so we just Seeing the swear words behind many gentlemen in this world, the glamorous ladies take off their socks, and smell whether it is really unbearable. What’s more sad is that in order to maintain the scenery in front of this person, we have to hold it all the time, not to break this beautiful side, and then to live a good life, it is not possible to say whether they are tired or not, anyway, I watch , Very tired.
It seems that it is not appropriate to say "I like men" here, and it is also inappropriate to say "I don't like men". For another human group coexisting with women, apart from repaying the minimum respect and understanding of life, I can't seem to find more words to summarize this complex group. Not to mention that many men are so ordinary and so self-confident, nor that men are opposed to women, and are full of anti-human capture and persecution. In my eyes, the difference between men and women seems to be nothing but gender. The characteristics are worthy of my condemnation. When a person no longer regards gender as a means of obtaining dividends,I don't regard all the contributions as a kind of loss or an investment that can only be earned and cannot be lost. I believe that many hatreds in this world can be easily solved. Project yourself to a large group of "people", only pay attention to the quality of individuals, and don't incite negative emotions based on gender. Be an individual, just be an individual.
may indeed be because girls’ youth is buried after twenty-five years old. In the past two years, it seems that it is difficult for me to use those sharp sentences to anger all the events around me that seem unpleasant to my eyes, and I am unwilling to use absolute prejudice to achieve an ear-shattering goal. It may also be because of this reason that there are fewer and fewer "accomplices" around me, and people have become more and more quiet, even with a lot of loneliness that ordinary people cannot understand.
I have always felt that I am not a cool person, at most I cannot empathize with the many joys and sorrows of this world, and I rarely really tell others about my emotions. Many people may feel that the fundamental purpose of talking is to calm the emotions, so that the grievances in the heart can be diluted to a concentration that they can bear with the narration. But I always feel that listening to people talks is extra time-consuming, and it’s difficult to persuade the other person to give advice. It takes extra energy to find someone to talk to. It’s good to listen to other people’s suggestions, but in most cases what you get is either a negative feeling about yourself. Either it is a sensible courtesy. After all, everyone living in this sea of people is an isolated island. When you meet someone and something happens, you think that the sorrows and joys that follow for many years can be linked to it, but even that kind of stays with you for a lifetime. The chance of death together is also pitiful. You said that this life comes and goes, what is the interpretation of the future?
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