Foreword: There used to be a saying, "If you don’t be crazy, you will get old", but Ms. Zhong cried and said that if time goes back, she will no longer choose to be crazy, and then choose to indulge herself, she will protect her family wholeheartedly, cherish marriage and not In his later years, he fell to such a tragic stage. Let's take a look at her experience.
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When I was 28 years old, I married my ex-husband. He had no special advantages and no outstanding appearance. It was just because my parents thought he had a stable job and a reliable person, so they urged me to get married. .
When I first got married, I had a sweet life with him. He took me first and took good care of me. It wasn't until we gave birth to our son that problems began to arise in our marriage.
Not so much that there is a problem, it is better to say that I provoked the problem. After giving birth to my son, I took care of the child full-time at home. I was determined to be a good mother, but every day of bringing the child made me feel irritable and boring, and my emotions vented to him.
We started arguing intermittently. I complained that he only knew work and ignored family, but he rebutted that it is a matter of course for a male protagonist and a female protagonist. I only regretted marrying someone hastily when I heard it. .
Every day with children makes me feel that I have lost the good life of being a girl and a wife. Unknowingly, I began to yearn for the state of being unmarried, looking forward to the appearance of someone who really spoils me and loves me.
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The arrangement of fate is always unexpected. It was dusk when I was almost hit by a car. In fright, the owner got out of the car and apologized to me and compensated me. As we went back and forth, we left each other's contact information.
After getting acquainted with each other, he asked me to show up for dinner, and I started to talk to him about life. In my eyes, he is a successful man who drives a famous car and speaks softly. I have a feeling for him, and he also hinted to me that he likes me.
We started underground love in the intent. After being with my lover, I once again realized the happiness of women, and I was loved and cared by men. Being immersed in this relationship, I am more and more indulging myself,It is difficult to withdraw.
After spending half a year with my lover, my husband discovered my abnormality. After following me, he witnessed everything in front of me, and he angrily filed a divorce with me. Knowing that I could not stay, I agreed.
He and I proposed that if my son is brought up by him, he could give me 100,000 yuan. I thought he treated his son sincerely, and it is not convenient for me to live with the child, so I agreed without saying a word.
Soon after the divorce, my lover and I broke up. I knew that he and I could not last long. This kind of ending is also expected, and we will soon get together and get together. After that, I never stopped my pursuit of love, and continued to search for the destined feelings.
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Maybe the divorce made me figure out a lot. You don't have to be too secular in your life. I started my days of enjoying life to the fullest. In the following 20 years, I lived freely, earned as much money as I spent, and changed many boyfriends, but I never thought about getting married because I no longer wanted to experience the helplessness and cold treatment in marriage.
Until when I was 56 years old, I accidentally fell on my small arm during an exercise. Although it was fine, I felt the sadness of life for the first time during the hospitalization period. Facing the white walls on all sides of the hospital, I was helpless, no one filled me with a glass of water when I was thirsty, and no one took care of me when I was uncomfortable. I was hospitalized for 20 days and no one came to see me.
At that time, I discovered how lonely I actually was. I thought about looking for my son, but he closed the door to me. He resented me for abandoning him since I was a child, and he spit on me as a woman with no self-respect.
Now, I am 64 years old, and people don't know until my later years, how sad it is to indulge in old age. I wanted to live in a nursing home, but I heard that I had to have children as a guarantee and I had to pay enough money, but when I was young, I spent too much money and there was no extra money.
Even when I usually go to the community to chat with my friends, I don't think I can integrate into them. They only talk about their children and grandchildren, but I can't interrupt a word.
Now that I have poor legs and feet, I sit at home every day, and no one knows which day I am really afraid of unexpected death.It is something I never expected to get to the point where I am today. My life just feels painful.
Conclusion: Poor people must be hateful. Ms. Zhong has come to this point because she does not understand the value of marriage, the beauty of ordinaryness, and she does not know how to plan life, and does not understand the preciousness of a partner It is also the price of her being alone today. With her story, I would like to advise everyone to cherish the current life and make life planning as early as possible.
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