The path of life has to be decided by yourself
This is more than a year ago. One day before New Year's Day in 2020, my girlfriend Xue Wechat me and asked me if I have time for a meal. We are classmates of Fa primary school and elementary school. I am nearly 40 years old. I am busy with a lot of things outside my home every day. I don't have many opportunities to get together. I usually just chat on WeChat and QQ. I thought to myself, what happened to this.
Asked her on WeChat, and hesitated. Forget it, let’s meet and chat.
On weekends, letting my husband bring a baby makes it hard for me to be cool. When I arrived at the appointed restaurant, the snow hadn't arrived yet. I was turning over and looking at it while holding the menu. Snow came over.
Xue Xue ten years ago, before giving birth, she was really a beautiful woman, she had a very good figure, and she had a pair of smart eyes. She is now forty soon, and she has gained a lot of weight. The years have left traces of the vicissitudes of life on her face. I know that her life has been very unsatisfactory, and she doesn't care about her appearance and clothes at all. Alas, a woman, a woman who was so beautiful before, has no pursuit of beauty now, which shows how terrible her life is.
I ordered a few dishes and asked the waiter to serve a pot of tea. I poured tea on the snow and said, "Speak, what's wrong? This is?"
"Nothing, I just want to find you Let's talk." Xue smiled a little shyly.
"You can pull it down, can you hide from me? When did you miss me so much? Can you ask me out for dinner?" I squinted her.
"You have no conscience, when did I miss you?" Xue pretended to be angry and reminded me of her when she was young.
"Say it quickly. If you don't say it again, sister won't listen. You can hold on to it!" I also said angrily.
"I think I have cheated on my spirit." Xue said, lowering her head and holding the tea cup in both hands.
"What?! You cheated?!" I almost jumped up.
Xue is a very traditional woman in my mind, focusing on children. It's almost forty, and I would be embarrassed to listen to a bad joke. She is an auditor of a certification company, and sometimes team up with her colleagues to go to corporate audits. I also heard her say,Several male colleagues have acted ambiguously towards her. Every time she said it, she looked angry. The two words she said at most were "disgusting!" "Rogue!" Now she said she had cheated! I am so surprised!
"What are you yelling!" Xue said in a low voice, lowering her head and looking left and right, "It's a shame!"
"I'm talking about mental derailment!" Xue rolled me fiercely with her big white eyes.
"You said so quietly, how can I hear you clearly?" I sipped my tea and was shocked.
"Who?" I asked in a low voice.
"Tell you, I am a colleague." Xue's head almost got under the table.
"Oh! He?!" I said suddenly.
Xue told me that one of her male colleagues is 8 years older than us. I will call him Yun for now.
I remember she said before, she told the leader that she only traveled with this cloud. She said that the male auditors in the circle around her were not good people. Someone who was on business trips with her touched her waist deliberately on the hotel elevator; they touched her leg when she was sitting in the co-pilot. Only this cloud is kind but not presumptuous to her every time. Sometimes when reviewing Yun's car, he also talked very happily, but Yun has never acted excessively towards her. Yun is also gentle to the company and other colleagues. Even if it is an intern auditor who has just entered the circle, Yun is also polite and never refuses when he can help. Every time I reviewed together, Xue felt solid and warm, and felt reluctant to go home separately.
When I heard her say this, I thought she had a good impression of this cloud. Now it seems that this is a new development. My gossiping heart throbbed.
The chatterbox is easy to handle as soon as it is opened. After a few glasses of beer, the snow is fully confessed.
Xue's marriage life can be said to be a sad reminder. She has been married for three months, and her husband is not good enough. Later, I went to the hospital to see that it was a little better, and the couple lived every few months. After three years of marriage, the days have been settled, and after one success, I am pregnant with a child. After that, her husband was completely dysfunctional, and he hadn't touched her for 8 years. She sometimes wanted to be gentle, but was rejected. Her husband said that he felt inferior and couldn't face it.
She and her husband met on a TV blind date. In Xue Xue's words, there is actually no love. At that time, they were just going to get married.
Her marriage and family life is also terrible.Just say two things.
One is when she was pregnant, her mother-in-law came to take care of her at home. She cooked only one dish every day. She didn't have much meat, and she couldn't eat enough, so she didn't dare to say anything. One night, she should be really hungry and asked her husband to buy her two eight-treasure porridge. His husband was unwilling to go. Later, she cried and bought it.
The other is that after she gave birth to the baby, she had a caesarean section, and the wound had a problem. I don't know the specifics. Anyway, the tissue of the uterus is not cleaned, and then it will grow to the position of the wound and it will be very painful. The only solution is to do another operation to remove the wound on the stomach.
She went home the first day after the operation, and her mother-in-law took care of her at home. Then, I saw her mother-in-law shed tears, as if she was wronged so much. Xue was also strong enough to let her mother-in-law go back and take care of the child by herself. The child was only 2 years old. Send a belt around the waist, and carry the iron pan to cook.
When I heard her tell me these things, I was so angry, is this a human thing? His husband is a mommy! What did he do when he was most needed? !
I wanted to persuade her to divorce. But "I would rather demolish ten temples than break a marriage." How can anyone persuade people to get a divorce? I also caught fire and advised her to take good care of herself.
Xue said that at the beginning of October, her husband visited her house, and there was nothing good to say when he came back, and her heart was completely cold. Her husband took the child home, but she didn't go, and stayed in a hotel for two days by herself. At that time, I sent a message to Yun and asked him where he was. Yun went to his hometown to see his parents. At that time, Yun might also feel that something was wrong. After the National Day, Yun returned to Beijing and kept chatting with her on QQ. Later, every day QQ chat became her compulsory course, and Yun was very good at persuading others, which made her feel a lot more comfortable. Before, I felt like I was going to collapse, and I had the heart to jump off the building.
"What are you talking about?" I asked gossiping.
"I told him everything, I think I can completely trust him. He understands me and understands my pain. Saying I am a kind woman, if he experienced my life, he might have turned his face long ago Now." Xue's eyes lit up, looking intoxicated.
Such an infatuated little woman, I really can't stand her!
"Say everything, including you and your husband?" I deliberately teased her.
"Well,To him, there is nothing I can't say. He said, I'm like a girl hiding in a small black room, and he wants to lead me out of the small black room and let me show off in the sun.
"What's his situation now?" Have a wife and children?
"He has been divorced for several years, and there is a girl who follows her mother." Maybe there have been women before, but certainly not at present.
"How do you know?"
"We QQ every night until we go to bed. If he has a woman, can he have time to chat with me like this?" We often have to work overtime to write materials at work nights. I think he is chatting with me while he is working. "
Alas, it's over, my girlfriend seems to be trapped. Now that people are near middle age, it is really too dangerous to be emotional. Will a man of this age have sincere love? I don't believe it anyway.
"Silly girl, don't be so stupid. Open up to others if you don't do anything. If you meet a veteran who plays with feelings, you will be dead. "I said sadly.
"I now feel that I am about to collapse. After so many years, I feel I can't hold it anymore. You also know me, I do this now, you know I used all my courage. When a person is about to drown, even a straw has to be grabbed. "Xue smiled bitterly.
Oh, how can I persuade her?
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