Text: Han Xia Photo: Han Xia
Source: Dog Tail Grass (hania20181)
01
Train arrived from Zhengzhou to Beijing, and it was already 10 o'clock in the night.
I took my luggage with joy and walked off the train with Xiaobao's hand. A gust of cold wind blew, and I couldn't help but wrap my coat tightly.
"Mom, dad is there, dad, dad, dad," Xiaobao shouted happily. I saw Mr. Chen in the direction caused by Xiaobao's gaze.
Xiaobao broke free from my hand and ran to his father quickly. I followed closely behind and saw that Mr. Chen had just hung up the phone. He squatted down and picked up Xiaobao.
Mr. Chen held the child with one hand, took my luggage with the other, and walked towards the exit.
I followed them closely, looking at the two men, one big and one small, and felt the bitter wind exuded a hint of sweetness.
When he arrived at Liangmaqiao's residence, Mr. Chen took the key and was about to open the door. The door opened from inside, revealing a youthful face.
The girl's hair was still wet. She smiled slightly and said, "Brother Chen is back, sister-in-law and Xiaobao are here."
I turned around and looked at Mr. Chen in confusion. Seeing his slightly embarrassed face, he faced my eyes and said, "This is our company's new design, Li Qian. The company temporarily arranged for her to live in the employee dormitory. I haven't had time to tell you."
The girl said, "Brother Chen, please let sister-in-law and the others come in quickly. It's cold outside. I'll go to bed first after taking a shower."
Entering the house, I felt the same as before, and it was different. This is the dormitory provided by Mr. Chen's company to his employees. Before, three men lived together. Every time I came in, I could smell the smell of smelly socks. This time, I smelled a faint fragrance.
Because I took the train for a day, Xiaobao fell asleep before he had time to take a shower.
I said to Mr. Chen, "Dear, wait for me, I'll go take a shower first." When
came out, I saw Mr. Chen watching with his mobile phone.
He saw me and said, "The company has a lot of things recently. I have colleagues looking for me so late."
I walked over and hugged his waist and said, "Husband, don't work so hard, come on."
In the past, he must have pounced at me like a hungry wolf, after all, a small separation is better than a newlywed.
Today, he just hugged me and said, "I'm a little tired recently, so take a break."
Maybe he's really tired. I didn't say anything, turned around and went to bed.
02
The next morning, I was awakened by the whispers outside. There was no Mr. Chen on the bed.
I was afraid of disturbing Xiaobao who was still sleeping, so I got up gently and pushed open the door gently.
In the kitchen, Mr. Chen leaned on the door frame and was looking at Li Qian who was busy inside. The two of them said softly.
I stood at the door, feeling very dazed, and suddenly I felt like an intruder. If I walked out, it would destroy this warm and loving picture.
I smelled the ambiguous smell.
It is hard to imagine what would they do if there were no mother and son in the room, if only this man and a woman were left in the room, and they would spend time together day and night?
I closed the door gently and lay on the bed.
What if my hunch is true? Is it pretending that nothing happened? When you reach middle age, don’t you live a life just by yourself? He also said that he would not spend the rest of his life?
Xiaobao woke up and called daddy in sleepy eyes, where is daddy.
I looked at the cute little baby, hoping that everything was because I was overly worried about.
door was gently pushed open, and Mr. Chen walked over and said, "You two are sleeping soundly. Get up and have dinner. Li Qian has prepared breakfast."
Xiaobao and I packed up and went out, and the meal was already arranged.
The two of them were talking and laughing at the dining table, and Xiaobao and I were as restrained as customers.
After having breakfast, they both cleaned up and said they wanted to go to the company.
I said, "Isn't today New Year's Day? Why are you still working overtime?"
Mr. Chen was slightly stunned and said, "The service industry is like this. The more holidays it is, the busier it is."
Before I could speak, the door slammed.
Actually, I want to ask if it’s not for sales during holidays? Neither of you are a salesperson.
I endured my doubts and washed Mr. Chen’s dirty clothes, and after washing the clothes, I took them to the balcony to dry.
On the balcony, several sets of sexy lace underwear swayed in the wind, stinging my eyes directly.
And Mr. Chen's underwear was hanging close together, and I seemed to see those clothes laughing at me.
How long has it been since I bought lace underwear and new clothes? Since getting married? Or since having children? And what about after becoming a house slave?
For this family, I save money, but what I get is this ending?
Their ambiguity, teasing, living under the same roof, chopped my heart.
03
Mr. Chen and I met in Beijing. At that time, we were both drifting in Beijing. After a few years of getting along, we were at the age of getting married, so we got married naked.
We are not very stable in our work. After staying for several years, we have not made any money and can only make ends meet.
The reason for marriage naked is that Mr. Chen said over and over again that his family had no money and that his parents were not easy. He relied on a few acres of land to support him in college, and his sister was in high school. The most important thing is that I believe that if you are in love, you will have enough water and feel the fragrance of the roots of the vegetable.
I understood the difficulty of his parents, so I said to my parents: "You are not selling your daughters. If you ask for a bride price, you always feel that you sold me out of your house." Fortunately, my parents were reasonable and finally agreed to our naked marriage.
Without rings, bride gifts, or weddings, Mr. Chen and I received the marriage certificate and entered the marriage in poverty.
When I got my marriage certificate, Mr. Chen kept saying to me that I was sorry for me and owed me too much. I will definitely give it to me for the rest of my life.
Shortly after marriage, I became pregnant. Because of severe morning sickness, I had to leave my job to raise my baby. The important task of supporting the family falls on Mr. Chen.
Mr. Chen is very motivated. He uses fragmented time to study, improve himself, and obtain a professional certificate.
Although Mr. Chen's salary has been rising again and again, it cannot increase its rent and consumption in Beijing.
After Xiaobao was born, our lives became more and more difficult, and we were reluctant to let Xiaobao be a left-behind child, so we communicated with our mother-in-law many times and asked her to come to Beijing to help us take care of Xiaobao. I went out to work to relieve the financial pressure at home.
When Xiaobao was 6 months old, her mother-in-law finally agreed to come to Beijing to take care of Xiaobao, but for various reasons, her mother-in-law was unwilling to stay in Beijing. Two months later, she insisted on leaving.
The mother-in-law said that she has a great responsibility to take care of Xiaobao, and she should not bear this responsibility. Her responsibility is just to raise her children. She also has a daughter to go to school and wants to raise her own daughter.
Even if we agreed to support my sister-in-law in school, she still did not agree to take care of Xiaobao. She said that if she was a mother-in-law, she did not have the obligation to see the child. Besides, this was how her mother-in-law treated her before. So it was natural for her to do so as a mother-in-law.
I understand that my mother-in-law’s life is not easy. Since she doesn’t want to take care of Xiaobao, let her go.
In the end, earning money to support the family still falls on Mr. Chen alone. Mr. Chen said that no matter how tired he is, seeing Xiaobao and I can resolve all fatigue when we go home. Although we are poor, we have laughter and joy.
Xiaobao is growing up day by day. We have been drifting in Beijing, but it is not a solution after all.
When Xiaobao was three years old, we raised some of the money, paid the down payment in Zhengzhou, and bought a new house.
For Xiaobao, we must have a home in the end.
After buying a house, I have to pay monthly payments and decorate them, and Xiaobao has to go to kindergarten, and the pressure is getting greater and greater.
Mr. Chen and I discussed with him that I would take Xiaobao back to Zhengzhou with him and he would make money in Beijing.
I always reject the separation of couples. I told Mr. Chen that we are breathing different air in two cities, so how can love continue?
Mr. Chen swears me to rest assured that the separation between the two places is only temporary and will not last long. In Beijing, he will work harder to make money, save more money, and strive to return to Zhengzhou to reunite with us as soon as possible. In addition, he went to the staff dormitory to live, which saved rent.
After going through all kinds of things, I no longer believe that love is full of water, I only believe that poor couples are sad. In front of the naked reality, we have to go out of place.
Mr. Chen's sister was already in college at this time, and her mother-in-law agreed to come to Zhengzhou to help me take care of Xiaobao.
After Xiaobao went to kindergarten, I returned to the workplace. In the company, I worked hard and was not afraid of suffering.
Because I also have selfish intentions, I please my leader, but when there is something happening at home, the leader agrees that I can ask for leave at any time.
A woman, living with the elderly and children in a strange city, with no one behind her. Looking back now, I don’t know how I survived it.
At the beginning, the two places separated. Mr. Chen would come back every month, and the high-speed rail was very fast, just two hours away, and the small separation was better than the newlyweds.
Slowly, he came back once every two or three months, saying that the company was busy, and then he said that he didn't want to face his mother-in-law's nagging and complaints when he came back.
My mother-in-law's melancholy aura was too strong, which made him breathless.
Yes, my mother-in-law has a bumpy life and is depressed all day long. In front of a person full of sadness, the happiness of our family of three will also stab her.
But after all, it's his mother, not mine, I can still tolerate it, why can't he bear it?
But, Mr. Chen, have you ever thought about how I spent all day facing my depressed mother-in-law? I rely on the joyful time we meet to resist the depressed atmosphere all day long.
We separated for three years.
In the past few months, you have said that the company is busy and will not come back, so you asked me to take Xiaobao to Beijing to find you.
But I came and saw it, but it looked like this.
04
I was caught in my memories and was called into reality by Xiaobao.
He said mom, hurry up and clean up, and today I made an appointment with my friends to go to the zoo.
Friends have time to accompany us, but Mr. Chen does not.
played in the zoo for a day, and Mr. Chen didn’t have a single call.
When it was dark, I arrived downstairs of the dormitory. I saw the lights on, so I called Mr. Chen and told him that we had already arrived downstairs. I was subconsciously afraid to knock on the door directly, and I was timid because there was Xiaobao, and he was my armor and my weakness.
After I arrived at the dormitory, I saw Mr. Chen and Li Qian talking and laughing in the living room, while Xiaobao and I were like invaders.
Without evidence, I hope everything is my imagination.
When I went to bed at night, Mr. Chen slept with Xiaobao in his arms, saying that he was tired recently and asked me to rest early.
Lying on the bed, listening to their slight snoring, I couldn't fall asleep, I was thinking that Mr. Chen was so abnormal this time.
Mr. Chen's mobile phone screen lit up. I took his phone and went to the bathroom secretly, but fortunately, the password was not changed.
Mr. Chen didn't expect me to look at his phone, because I have always trusted him. A friend once told me that if you live in separate places, aren’t you afraid that he will cheat?
I said confidently, no, he will not cheat, he said he owes me too much and will be nice to me for the rest of his life.
Maybe I owe too much to me, so I don’t care about it once.
Is what a married man cheating says is a national unified template?
"Don't worry, I will never touch her. I saw stretch marks on her belly. I... I can't go down.
Don't worry, baby, I gave you all of it. I just want to be exhausted on you."
Seeing these words, my hands were shaking.
flipped through the phone again, and I also saw photos of them going out to play and hugging, as well as photos of Mr. Chen holding popcorn in one hand and feeding her popcorn with the other hand when watching the movie. The angle of selfies is really good, one eye is full of spoiling, and the other girl is in love with spring.
The day they watched the movie, it was the day when Xiaobao got a fever of more than 39 degrees after taking the epidemic prevention injection. I was so scared that I trembled all over and called Mr. Chen but no one answered. You were watching a movie with her, and I took Xiaobao to the hospital alone in the middle of the night.
The original words I saw on other articles were truly seen in Mr. Chen’s chat record. My eyes were crying and my heart was bleeding, but I still rationally took the screenshot and sent it to myself, and then cleared the message on my phone.
When did Mr. Chen cheat? How come I don’t have any premonition?
Women's intuition is very accurate.
He deliberately wanted me to see these? The photos are not deleted? The chat history is not deleted? Is he embarrassed to speak directly and force me to speak up?
Once when he came back, I told him that I had to take care of both my work, decorating the house, and Xiaobao and my mother-in-law. My colleagues all said that I was a man and didn’t even take care of the word “female”.
Mr. Chen said in disgust that this is also called decoration. Our company has a new design. If she designs it and then decorates it, it will be called decoration.
I said to Mr. Chen, wake up, in addition to the mortgage loan, Xiaobao kindergarten cost, mother-in-law’s 2,000 yuan, daily vegetables, rice, oil, salt, sauce and vinegar, how much can we have left? Where can I find someone to design money? I can only buy some things for my family every month like a bird holding a meal.
, and I ignored him when he said that when he was new to design, his eyes were shining and he did not respond to my hard work.
If you love someone, you will also run out of your eyes if you cover your mouth.
is it because of naked marriage? After all, a marriage without money is not worth cherishing after a long time.
Men always calculate costs, and I am the one with no costs.
With the conclusive evidence, I cannot escape, I can only face it bravely.
html woke up the next day and told Mr. Chen that the company had something to do temporarily, so I took Xiaobao back and I had already signed the ticket.
I saw that it was indifferent to Mr. Chen’s eyes.
Although he said, I don’t have time to accompany you, why are you leaving?
I looked at him calmly and said, "You are outside alone, take good care of yourself."
I don’t need to watch his disguise here. I had the courage to get naked, and now I also have the determination to cut the mess quickly.
all say that a cheating man is like a RMB falling on shit. It would be a pity not to pick it up, but it was disgusting to pick it up.
I didn’t ask for RMB when I was naked, so why do I have RMB that fell on shit now? After returning to Zhengzhou, I sorted out all the evidence of Mr. Chen’s cheating, and attached a divorce agreement and mailed it to him by mailing it to him by .
Mr. Chen, after receiving the express delivery, please don’t tell me that you are confused for a moment. You are alone and lonely and empty, and you make a mistake that all men in the world make. I did not expose you in person and you left us the last respect.
Mr. Chen, I said many times that I asked you to quit your job and return to Zhengzhou, because my salary has also increased again and again.
And you always have various reasons that you are unwilling to come back. Maybe the girl in your arms is the reason that you are unwilling to come back.
When you live in two places, you missed Xiaobao's growth and my growth.
Mr. Chen, the rest of your life, you are just Xiaobao's father.
is no longer my husband.
Author profile: Han Xia, Many articles on gender emotions, marriage and family. I love to listen to stories, and I love to tell stories even more. Let me tell you the joys and sorrows of the world in detail. Dog Tail Grass: hanxia20181, an original official account that writes real stories. About family, marriage, , love, and the fireworks of the world, and all kinds of things in the world.
