Hello everyone, I am Mumuxue!
I have been introverted since childhood. I am naturally sensitive and care too much about other people's opinions.
My height is not high enough, my appearance is not outstanding, I have no outstanding advantages, I don’t have good studies, and my family is not well off. The series of factors of
have created my inferiority character. This inferiority state of
once made me feel unconfidence in anything I did.
even dare not look into others' eyes, as if you have done something wrong.
01
After the failure of myopia surgery, I became even more inferior. After working for a few years, my work required me to face the computer every day, and my eyes and cervical spine could not stand it.
Mr. Zhou also bought a store at that time. He planned to make it by himself. He half-jokingly said, "Come and show me the store, and I will pay you a salary."
plus I wanted to do myopia surgery, and wanted to take a break for a while and find a job that would be less facing the computer, so I decided to quit.
At that time, I was full of hope that I could see the world clearly without wearing glasses. It was wonderful to think about it.
But the facts were not as I wished, my myopia surgery failed.
But it did not reach the level of a medical accident. Every time I went to see a doctor, the doctor said it was a normal phenomenon after the operation, so I asked me to go back and exercise my eyes according to the method she said.
At that time, I also did the method as the doctor said, and it did not return to normal for a long time.
You don’t need to wear glasses anymore, but it’s very uncomfortable and uncomfortable. The eyes are particularly prone to fatigue, soreness and dryness. How to describe
? It is the kind of feeling that you feel when you wake up every morning and feel your eyelids stick to your eyes, and you tear them apart as soon as you open it.
The eyes will get hot and sore after a little longer.
During that time, I was in a very bad mood due to eye problems.
Mr. Zhou often said in a ridiculous way: "You go for the surgery, it's fine after doing it. What do you think now?"
Whenever this happens, I feel very uncomfortable, both physically and psychologically.
Add me to the job and I didn’t find a job for a while after resigning, and I gradually became anxious.
The eyes are particularly uncomfortable at night, and eye drops don’t work very well. Sometimes it’s hard to suffer from insomnia.
02
My condition was very bad during that time. It seemed nothing to others, and I might even think I was very pretentious.
But I guess that feeling can only be experienced by myself.
In order to relieve the pain caused by eye fatigue, I finally put on frame glasses .
Mr. Zhou still laughed at me occasionally from time to time. After the operation, he still had to wear glasses and ruined his eyes. He was so comfortable.
Physical and psychological discomfort made me more inferior, and my life did not develop like I expected.
But I can’t ignore things, after all, I have to live!
I started to help with work in Mr. Zhou's store. That was a few years before the epidemic, and the store business was pretty good. Although I know nothing about what he did.
I started to learn slowly, learn to understand product knowledge, and learn to receive customers who come to the store.
Because of my introverted personality, I am not good at speaking, and I am often told by Mr. Zhou.
At that time, I was nothing in his eyes because I really didn't do well.
I often say to him: "What else do you think you can do? You don't even know the simplest way to greet customers."
Because I have been hit more often, sometimes I really feel that I am really useless.
inferiority filled my whole body and mind, and sometimes I even became timid when speaking.
When people feel inferior, they always have the illusion that everything they do is wrong.
If the customer enters the store and does not make a deal, I will think it is because of me, is it because I did something wrong, or is there something not done well.
After staying in Mr. Zhou’s store for a while, I gradually became familiar with the entire process of the store and began to be able to start a business independently.
But that kind of inferiority has always been with me.
I am suppressed by inferiority complex and less and less like I like. I hate myself very much.
I made up my mind to change!
03
I began to try to accomplish something and slowly cultivate my confidence.
I began to try to affirm my value. I am not bad, and my existence is not completely meaningless.
At least when Mr. Zhou has something to do, I can do business alone.
Although I don’t say much, there are often repeat customers in the business I do.
From a certain perspective, not everyone likes people who keep talking nonstop in business.
Introvert doesn’t necessarily mean that you can’t do one thing well.
Sometimes my performance is better than Mr. Zhou, and he gradually no longer often hit me or ridicule me, and began to accept my existence.
was also during that period when the store was not busy, I registered my WeChat official account and started to study writing.
Because of the eye problems at that time, the first public account I made was to share some knowledge about eye protection. In fact, I hope everyone can protect their eyes.
Because I have experienced those problems, I know the beauty of having. Just like that saying goes, because I have been wet from the rain, I always want to shelter others from the rain.
Later I registered my second WeChat official account, which is now the account "Mumuxue", which mainly shares personal growth stories, etc.
By writing articles, I have met many people with similar experiences to my own.
The article I wrote has gradually resonated with everyone.
Sometimes people will leave messages or send private messages to me if they have any questions, and I have gradually gained recognition from some people.
Around 2019, my official account began to gain some profit, which allowed me to see the value of my existence and gain more confidence in the future.
04
Higher self-esteem to self-confidence, start with doing a small thing.
I was reading "Cognitive Driven" written by Zhouling . The book says: A person's ultimate growth is to do something that is very useful to others and become a valuable person.
I think from inferiority to self-confidence is a process of growth.
Why do people feel inferior? Many times we feel that we are useless or are not as good as others.
and growing up is to make yourself a valuable person.
slowly becomes confident by making yourself valuable.
Although I am still introverted now, I no longer feel inferior because I know the value of my existence.
If you have similar experiences to me and can't raise your head because of inferiority complex, then try to be a valuable person.
Start by doing a small thing and slowly regain your confidence.
and above encourage each other!
3 typing is not easy. If you think the content is inspiring to you, I hope you can spend 0.1 second to like it. Yours will always be the driving force for my continuous output. Thank you!
Author: Mu Muxue, a self-media writer who focuses on personal growth and writing self-media practical information and is working hard to go to freedom. I hope that we will become better selves through hard work and live the life we like! Picture: From the Internet, please delete if infringed.
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