Xiunai is my grandma, and she went there on the night of her ninetieth birthday. We who originally celebrated her birthday did not leave. When she was dying, she intermittently revealed the secrets buried in her heart. She just didn't want to carry anything anymore and wanted to go on the road easily. But everyone was so shocked that they could not speak at the secret that was revealed to the world.
Xiunai was a flower in the countryside when she was young. She was famous for her water spirit and extremely beautiful appearance. There is no doubt about this, because even in her twilight years, she still has a unique charm. Compared with other old ladies, she is like a clear lake, quietly making people happy. Let’s go back to the beginning of the story.
Because of her beauty, hard work, and kindness, when she reached the age of marriage, the marriage proposals almost broke the threshold. From young masters from rich families to good sons from poor families, they lined up to compete for her. But she simply refused them all. It turned out that she had a heart for Scholar Li who had wandered into the village.
She calls him a scholar because he is the most knowledgeable and well-behaved person in the village. The young man is tall, thin, gentle, handsome, and well-mannered. His appearance alone is the most suitable for her. It is a pity that he is an outsider and has not yet After settling in the village, and with the details unknown, my family disagreed.
However, she had a deep love for her and shared her heart. Of course, Li Shusheng was also happy with her, and the two made a private engagement to each other. We were together before the flowers and under the moon, and it was understandable that the two of us were in love. But at this moment, something big happened, which not only defeated the couple, but also caused endless tragedies.
mentioned before that the beautiful breasts are beautiful when young. There are many people who love flowers, but they are still sensible. They retreat when they can't pick them. The country people are quite simple and there are no people who are disgusting. Unexpectedly, the newly appointed county magistrate's son is a very flirtatious man. Hearing about her reputation, he came to the village to check the evidence himself. She fell in love with her at first sight and sent someone to propose marriage. Even after she was rejected, he did not give up. , he came to the village every day to intercept and harass her.
She was disgusted but also scared. After all, who would dare to offend the local official's uncle? The young man's original idea was to impress her with affection and give him kindness. Over time, he would eventually marry the beautiful woman with a smile. Unexpectedly, the beauty could not change her mind and was unmoved. When she asked again whether it was because she had someone in mind, she became very angry and became malicious.
Let’s talk about these two affectionate people. Their love is so tender that they finally cross the threshold and perform the ceremony of husband and wife. Just when he was about to get married, an official document came from the village, saying that Li Shusheng was a fugitive involved in a crime. Skynet had not missed any details, and he was going to be detained and interrogated to determine his guilt.
Li Shusheng shouted that he was wronged, and she tried her best to stop him and begged for a detailed investigation, but in the end Li Shusheng was taken away. She fell to the ground crying and didn't believe that the gentle Li Shusheng committed murder and swindled goods, yet he cried out that he was unjust.
There was no news about the scholar who was imprisoned for several days. Every time she went to inquire about him or see him, she was pushed back, making it difficult for her to do so. Someone quietly told her that she could ask the county magistrate for a try, or there might be a change. She was in a hurry and sought medical treatment. She was so anxious that she forgot right and wrong. She only wanted to avenge her lover, so she took the step of begging the wolf to stay. But it accelerates the production of bitter fruits.
When the story was told at this point, Xiunai's calm face finally became disturbed, and she began to gasp excitedly.
"I regret so much. If I didn't go looking for that devil, even if I died for love, it would still be a good outcome!" Tears flowed from the corners of her eyes, instantly soaking the pillow. We can only listen quietly.
"The devil saw me and begged him, and became shameless again. He asked me to repay him with my body. If I don't agree, I will sentence Li Lang to death. I hate it so much!" After saying this, he fainted. It took him a long time to wake up.
Li Shengbo, her only son couldn't help but persuade her: "Mom, stop talking and take a break." Xiunai's eyes were confused, but she still kept saying, "Son, do you know who your biological father is?" This question was like a stone hitting water, and the sound was like waves.
"I ran out of ideas back then, and the devil kept looking for me, putting pressure on me, and agreed to a one-month deadline. If I agreed, I would be able to avoid Li Lang's death penalty, treat him kindly, and even let him go free. He could just settle down in another village, and from now on the case would be cleared up and there would be no further investigation.After taking a breath, she continued, "January was a tough month. My body and mind felt like they were being roasted on fire. To make matters worse, I found out that I was pregnant."
"Being pregnant out of wedlock, although you are no longer immersed in a pig cage like in the old days, you still have to kneel in the ancestral hall and hang your shoes in the streets. I can't imagine how terrible it would be. If Li Lang can be safe, my humiliation will count. It’s not blind, the child can be saved, even if the thief becomes his father, there will still be a day when father and son will recognize each other. Finally, I agreed, I agreed.” Xiunai’s breath became even worse.
This frightened Li Shengbo, "Mother, mother, please slow down and stop talking!" "No! I must tell you, your father is Li Lang! You are not Sanhu's son at all!" Oh, Sanhu is my grandfather, the last husband of Xiu Nai. "Mom, what did you say?" Li Shengbo was also confused.
"I was forced to agree to the devil's request against my will. I agreed to marry him, and I also asked him to fulfill his promise, release the person, register the household, and withdraw the case. But who knew that he agreed to everything, but found me in the wedding room? When he was not innocent, he became malicious and lynched Li Lang and took me to identify his body. He was taking revenge on me. I wanted to die. I really wanted to die at that time. I wanted to go to the underworld with Li Lang and become husband and wife. Yes, I killed him! But I can't, I still have children, and I can't let the Li family die. You don't know, I have lived a life worse than death, and those things are worse than animals, but they hate me. He was willing to let me go, but he often got drunk and bullied me. I was afraid that it would be bad for the fetus, so I often made jokes and tried to please him, hoping that he would be more lenient. When the belly became pregnant, I would insist that it was his seed." Sighing, her mood gradually calmed down.
"But who would have thought that when the movement came, he got sick and died not long after he was arrested and imprisoned. Because of him, I also became very bad. My belly was getting bigger and bigger, and my family didn't dare to get close to me. Life was very sad. . In this life, I am grateful to Brother Sanhu for saving me and my children, for not despising me, for marrying me, and for treating my children as if they were his own. Even if I have no more children, my life is very miserable. There is no need to worry anymore. Lisheng, your father’s surname is Li! But you can only be Zhao Sanhu’s son in this life, remember it!”
“My life has been very painful, and I can’t love you so much.” I have failed him in the end. I only feel grateful. Although your surname is Li, he is the one who protects you and raises you. My dear, you will be Brother Sanhu’s son for the rest of your life. Now I have to go underground to meet the three of them. I hate you so much that I want to let go. It is useless to suffer the torture of hatred any more. I love you so much that I want to go underground to accompany him. I hope he doesn’t hate me. I will ask for his forgiveness, you Sanhu father. , forgive me for the disappointment in my life, I will leave you to him. A hundred years later, you will also be his only son!"
"Mom, son, please stop talking." Li Shengbo begged in a low voice, and everyone was still in the huge shock, let alone speechless. "I'm taking a break. I'm suffering for love and enduring for my children. I'm going to take a break from this boring life of mine." Xiunai's voice gradually became darker and died down. It wasn't until Li Shengbo's heart-wrenching cry that everyone came back to their senses and realized that Xiunai had stopped breathing and had passed away.
Birthday celebrations turned into attending a funeral, which none of us could have imagined. It is really sad to hear that Xiunai's birthday is also the day of Li Shusheng's death. When I think of the beautiful breasts in my memory, my face always shows no sadness or joy. Most of the time, I am working quietly and meditating. Only when facing the children will a faint smile appear on the corner of his mouth, which is amazing.
It turns out that she is not without joy and sorrow, she just buries her sorrow deeply in her heart. Joy cannot outweigh the sorrow, so she cannot see it at all.
It is hard to imagine that a woman, who has endured the merciless years, can survive this long time because of her love for her children. She is desolate and lonely in her heart, but has the courage to take on the responsibility. What an amazing woman! At the same time, he also felt compassion for me, Mr. Hu, who had loved a woman who didn't love him all his life, including her children, but had no regrets.
I can only say that in that era, love was only done with heart and expressed with actions. Even if there was no response in a lifetime, you were still willing to give it. And our modern love is very fragile, like clouds, they will disperse when the wind blows.
