opened the movie "Half Sea Water, Half Fire" at night. I felt that those grandsons were brainwashed by Wang Shuo 's novels at that time and fell in love so easily. I really found it ridiculous. Ever since I met him, I didn't believe that he was willing to accept all this so quickly. In my opinion, this is funny and incredible, because I didn't believe that we only knew him for a few days. Over the next ten days, he yelled at me like crazy. He asked me why he was not as good as him in my heart. I didn't know how to explain it. Isn’t it true that friendship becomes deeper when we have known each other for a long time? But in his consciousness, it was completely unfeasible, and my explanation was feeble.
Maybe it’s because over the years, I’m no longer in love. Even the relationships that started out ended in vain, they were all rational, so that I didn’t feel pain after the breakup. It seemed that every time a relationship ended, I felt as carefree and free as if I had gotten rid of a big trouble.
Half sea water and half fire stills
During this relationship, I felt that I had worked hard, and I hoped to do everything as well as possible within my capabilities, but later I discovered that I was indeed naive and thought of the problem too simply. I don’t know if I can continue if I simply stay with him alone. I only know that of course he will not leave behind what he thinks is the most important. Although I never want him to leave behind what he thinks is important, I just want a simple way to get along.
He said that he would not give up his freedom for money and a house, even if that life might be happy. He said that if I hadn't said something to him later, he might have paid off the mortgage for me. However, I didn't tell him, and I didn't care, because he and I are the same people, freedom is what I want, and I also don't accept being controlled by others.
Half sea water and half fire stills
I felt ridiculous. I thought that people like me who lacked fatherly love should find themselves a "dad". Maybe in this way, I would not be a little pitiful person that no one wants. Maybe I would be loved and loved by others, but I found that I couldn't do it. I hated that they even told me what tableware to use for eating, how I should respond to others, and how I treated others. , let me do what he said, I think all I want is love, not accusation, because the "dad" I want is that no matter how bad I am, he can be willing to stand by my side, encourage me, and say that I am doing well, even if I am really bad...
He told me that I am the most honest person he has ever dated, but at the same time, I am also the most dishonest among honest people, because I actually chat with other members of the opposite sex at the same time, even if it is not the so-called ambiguity, it is just casual chatting about something. But what I want to say is that I don’t fall in love so quickly like him. What is love? Maybe for him love is sex and possession, but for me, love is companionship and casual conversation. Maybe it was wrong from the beginning.
Half sea water and half fire stills
In the end, he made a long speech to denounce all my shortcomings and compared me with his predecessors. Maybe his departure was due to some elements of anger, but I didn't stop him because I was very tired and because I knew that I couldn't do what he wanted. Similarly, he will not be my "dad" after all. He is someone else's father. I will really envy that child.
When I typed these words on the computer, I still cried. However, I still don’t know why I cried. But I know that after being sad today, I will change my mind on this matter in the future, because I never like people who settle old scores.
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