Hello everyone! I talk about life through words. I hold the pen in hand and share with you the trivial things in life, taste the ups and downs of life, and the mood of the four seasons.
After graduating from college, I stayed in the bustling metropolis.
In this unfamiliar city with dim lights, I am like a mechanical puppet on a clockwork. I go to the subway on time every day and clock in to the company on time. However, I rarely get off work on time and get off work overtime almost every day. Nine o'clock, ten o'clock at night.
earns a monthly salary of 18,000 yuan. Sometimes there will be bonuses for good performance. I rent a house and it costs 4,000 yuan a month.
I seem to be living the same life every day. Every day is a repetitive day. Every day is a step-by-step life. The same days seem to remind me. In fact, I don’t need to mind. My colleagues around me are also the same as me. of life.
In this strange city, we don’t have anyone with whom I stick together to keep warm . I dated a girlfriend when I was in college, but with the end of my college life, this relationship also became an imperfect Full stop, because my girlfriend was going back to her hometown to take the public exam, long-distance relationship was the root cause of our breakup.
Now, I have been working hard in this strange city for six years. Although I have tried very hard to integrate into this city during these six years, the reality is that I am still renting a house and my salary is probably It would take 20 years of not eating or drinking to save enough for the down payment of a house.
I feel very tired recently, and my head feels dizzy, like a cloud in the sky. I think it is because I have spent too much energy and my body and mind have been in a tense state for a long time, which leads to this.
So, for the first time in so long, I asked for leave from my manager. This time I asked for a full ten days of leave.
I want to go home to see my parents whom I haven’t seen for a long time.
When I stood at the door of my house, my mother was as excited as a child when she saw me. She quickly called to my father,
"Look who is back? Why didn't you tell us in advance when you came back? I was so ready to meet your dad. Let's pick you up together and prepare your favorite food in advance."
said and asked my dad to kill the chicken. My dad smiled and said
"When you come back, see how happy your mother is, just like the Chinese New Year."
Yes, I have been wandering outside for so many years, and only the Chinese New Year is when I stay at home the longest. Maybe for parents, children who work hard outside, No matter when they go home, it is like celebrating the New Year for them, because the New Year means reunion.
During the past few days at home, I slept until I woke up naturally. My mother cooked delicious food for me in various ways. All of this seemed to be like a child again, my carefree youth. .
I went to the market with my mother and met my childhood playmate Xiaogang.
At this time, he was already the father of two children. He said to me,
"Liu Bo, you are back, how are you? It's better to be in a big city!"
I smiled bitterly and said
"It's better than anything else. , I’m really exhausted outside. Look how good your life is now. You have two children, your wife and children are on the hot bed. Head, I’m so envious! "
" went out to work after graduating from high school. After getting married, he came back and opened a small restaurant with his wife. He didn’t have much future, just making a living, unlike you in college. The city has high wages and good treatment."
Xiaogang said and forced me to go to his small restaurant to visit him, saying that we hadn't seen each other for so many years and we must have a good chat.
My mother told me to go and go home by herself, so I went to his hotel with Xiaogang.
Xiaogang and his wife run a medium-sized restaurant in our county. It was dinner time and there were quite a few guests. Xiaogang's wife greeted me and went to get busy.
Xiaogang and I came to the private room on the second floor. We sat across from each other. After a few glasses of wine, we both started chatting.
"I really miss the days when we were in school. Life was so beautiful back then"
I miss the past and can't help but express my feelings
" In fact, our small county The development has been quite good in the past few years. If you are too tired in the big city, you can also consider coming back. After all, our home is here, our parents are here, and we have grown up here for more than 20 years, so our roots are here. On this land, no matter how good the big city is, we still have no sense of belonging, because I Our relatives are not there, and there is no home where our relatives are not there!"
In the past few years, I have watched all kinds of people talking, but they rarely tell the truth. This time when I met Xiaogang, I put my heart in my heart for so many years! I poured out all the frustration inside, like pouring beans out of a bamboo tube. When I was working outside, I only reported to my mother that she was safe, because I was afraid that she would worry about me. In fact, it was not easy for me, and my sadness was all gritted through my teeth. Tears swallowed into the stomach.
I don’t want to talk about those annoying things at work anymore. Xiaogang and I drank and chatted as much as we could, as if we were back to our green years.
Happy days are always short-lived. After the short ten-day vacation, I had to start the journey back again.
My mother was very reluctant to leave me and kept wiping her tears when she saw me off. My father said to me
"Son, please take care of your health outside. If you have no money, tell us that your mother and I both have retirement pay."
I felt sour in my heart. , My eyes are hot, My son has traveled thousands of miles, and my mother is worried . Although I am already in my 30s, my parents still tell me repeatedly.
Sitting on the train going back, Xiaogang's words kept coming to mind, "Our small county is also developing well. Have you ever considered coming back? Where there are no relatives, there is no home."
I thought about working hard on my own. Settling down in this city, and then bringing my parents over to enjoy the happiness with me, but as full as the ideal is, the reality is just as skinny. The facts tell me that this is just a beautiful wish of mine!
Although I earn a salary of 10,000 to 20,000 yuan a month, I really can’t afford a house in this city. Even if I don’t eat or drink, it will take me 20 years to save up enough for the down payment of a house here. I have already worked hard in this city. It took six years of hard work.
In the past six years, I didn’t dare to be late, spend money lavishly, or get sick. Because of the one-month perfect attendance bonus, no matter how uncomfortable I was, I had to grit my teeth and squeeze the subway to go to work. I was really too tired. I'm tired and want to take a rest.
At the end of this year, I mustered up the courage and made up my mind to submit my resignation letter to my manager . I want to go back. My parents are getting older and they really need me by their side. However, I also want to get rid of this "pretend". is strong .
Big cities like Beijing, Shanghai, Guangzhou and Shenzhen are not suitable for everyone.
I want to go back to my small county town. Although it is not as prosperous as a big city, that land will bring me the warmth and sense of belonging that big cities cannot give me!
After returning to my hometown, I quickly found a well-paid and easy job with my graduate degree and six years of work experience.
After my job became stable, I went on a blind date arranged by my parents. After getting engaged to the woman, I bought a house and a car.
I will get married soon. My wife is gentle and virtuous. No matter how late I come home, she will always light up a light and wait for me.
I am now close to my parents. I often go to my parents' place to have a meal and sit around the dining table and the family enjoys themselves happily. I think this is the most true and beautiful portrayal of the peaceful years.
I no longer feel the loneliness of wandering in a big city, replaced by the warmth of home.
Finally, I want to say, those workers who are wandering in foreign lands and working hard for their dreams, how are you?
If this kind of life makes you physically and mentally exhausted, why not return to our hometown? It's true to run hard, but life when you slow down is another beautiful scenery.
The world is so big, thank you for meeting you, I hope you will be filled with fragrance along the way
