netizen: I have been feeling depressed these past two days. It’s been rainy recently and sometimes exposed to high temperatures. My mind was in a mess and I couldn't feel the change in temperature. After I got up, my eyes and face were swollen and my condition was extremely bad.
On Thursday, my boyfriend's brother went to see a new garden project. The date was at 3 p.m., and he went with another female colleague from the company.
They stayed for dinner in the evening with the leaders of the park and the leaders of another company. He rarely drinks, but he drank a lot that day.
I had never seen him drink too much, but that night my female colleague called me and asked me to pick him up. He was drunk but did not appear to be completely unconscious.
My eyesight is very poor, so I don't drive at night because I'm afraid of danger. I called the driver in front of the restaurant and asked him to go home, so I took a taxi home.
We were sitting in the back seat, and the car smelled of cigarettes and alcohol. Very quiet, only the sound of the air conditioner running.
We sat far away. I helped him into the back seat and leaned against the window while I leaned against the other window.
He kept leaning on him, looking out with half-squinted eyes, and then he said, why are your hands so small? I looked at him with "Huh?" He stretched out his hand and held my hand directly, crossing his fingers.
He stretched out his hand to hold it, then raised it to his eyes and looked at it for a while, as if comparing it with my fingers.
I felt very bad at the time and immediately pulled my hand back, but he followed my movements and moved over, squeezed me into the gap on my side of the window, then rested his head on my shoulder and slept with his eyes closed.
I don't know if he was pretending to sleep or if he was really drunk. I don't know if he was trying to test me or what. I'm very confused.
His face was facing me, his posture was very calm. His nose touched my neck and I could feel his breath, a faint stream of air, but it scared me.
I'm not happy at all. Many, many voices flashed through my mind.
you finally got what you wanted, you deserved it. Is your boyfriend's brother drunk and having sex, or does he treat you like a toy and run him over with his paw for fun?
I'm so stupid, I don't know that all the luck in this life is gone, or I don't realize that the special one is not far away from me.
The butterfly effect in life may eventually come back to me, but it is myself who makes the butterfly flap its wings countless times.
Maybe he was really drunk, he could say everything was caused by alcohol, he could pretend nothing happened, but I remember it very clearly.
Thinking of this, I started to get scared. I didn’t dare to say anything or move, because if I moved, he would wake up, and then my eyes would really break the tranquility in the illusion, and I would keep crying.
When I arrived at his house, I wiped away my tears, but the makeup on my face must be messy, and my eyes and nose must be red.
He raised his head and saw that I was crying miserably with no expression or words, so he leaned down and kissed me directly.
I turned my head away, but he still kissed me. I made a sound of rejection, but I was afraid the driver would hear it.
It was a chaotic night. I feel like I can’t remember my mood, but I remember many details.
Later, the car stopped, and I immediately opened the door and ran out, in front of his community. His girlfriend is probably waiting for him at home. I have no idea. All I know is that I'm like a zombie.
I didn't go back to my home that day. I went back to my mom's house.
The WeChat and phone records between me and him turned into a dead silence. I didn't contact anyone and I didn't go to the company.
I don't know what he would say, whether he was really drunk, what he meant by doing this. I didn't go to work and he didn't contact me. What does this all mean? I'm already confused and trying to figure it out.
I think I will resign on Monday or go to trial on Monday. I would also break up with my boyfriend.
I think this "story" is coming to an end. I hope this is just a story.
