Xu Zhou is my childhood sweetheart. My parents appointed us a baby kiss. I had a crush on him for 26 years, but he fell in love with my roommate.
Author: Silent
1. Xiaoqing, help me
My childhood sweetheart, who has been in secret for 26 years, fell in love with my roommate at first sight, and I smiled and promised to help him chase the goddess .
"Xiaoqing, help me, three minutes, I want to know all the news about that girl."
Xu Zhou called me so intimately for the first time, before that, he had always been consecutive The one with the last name calls me: Su Qing.
The two simple words, shouted out of his mouth, I can always taste a touch of sweetness in my heart. The two words fell into my ears gently and skillfully, and I suddenly realized that I had a nice name.
Until I heard the word "Xiaoqing", I didn't know that sweetness can be sweeter, wrapped in sugar, but the inside is highly poisonous.
I have never been able to refuse him, it doesn't take three minutes, because that girl is my roommate.
2. I thought we were childhood sweethearts
"Keep kissing for another minute, okay!"
5Xiaoqing is here! "
In the dark corner, there were gasping voices and low voices. It was Xu Zhou and my roommate Fu Xue kissing.
I never knew that Xu Zhou came to be spoiled The sound is so good, and I don’t know that people who have known for less than a week can be so loving and lingering at this moment. 2, 3.... There was a sound, as if a blunt knife was in the middle.
When the count reached 300, two people walked out from behind the tree, and Fu Xue took care of his messy clothes before walking over and holding me. "Xiaoqing, let's go quickly, don't pay attention to this liar!"
Xu Zhou looked at me and wiped his lips with embarrassment, which was covered with the lipstick on Fu Xue’s lips.
I can imagine it without having to look sideways, Fu Xue What a mess of lip makeup at this moment!
I tried my best to restrain my emotions in order to move my already stiff legs. Like a puppet, I was dragged to the bedroom by Fu Xue, and Xu Zhou's voice was heard from time to time behind him: "When you go to the bedroom, remember to call me. "
Obviously this will not be told to me. For me, he never cared about it.
I always followed his butt in elementary school, and we were in the same school when we were in junior high school. My parents didn’t come to pick me up that day. I was happily thinking that I could go home with Xu Zhou. After Xu Zhou was in junior high school, his parents stopped picking me up. He took the bus to school by himself.
I wanted to ride with him a long time ago.As usual, Xu Zhou planned to finish his homework before going home. I said that I would wait for too long. Xu Zhou asked me to return first. I stubbornly refused to leave. Xu Zhou finally had no patience and left a sentence of whatever you want.
I sat in the last row of the classroom and waited for him. Just looking at his back, the happiness in my heart can drown me. I drank too much water in the afternoon and I wanted to go to the bathroom, but I didn’t dare to disturb Xu. Zhou put his schoolbag on the table and went to the toilet. When I came back from a trot, Xu Zhou had already left. His desk had been cleaned up, and I was like the rubbish he threw away.
I walked home sullenly. When I got home, it was dark. My parents almost called the police in a hurry. From that day on, my parents never missed the task of picking me up in junior high school.
No one knows that I have dark phobia except my parents. My mother said that when I was four years old, she and my dad resigned from the company and opened a barbecue restaurant downstairs. Well, it often opens until three or four in the morning before closing. When I was a child, I often slept, and I couldn’t find my parents when I woke up. I even walked from home to the store downstairs by myself several times at night. Although it was not far away, my mother was scared enough for fear of being hugged. go.
Since then, I have to turn on the light to sleep at night. I dare not be alone in the dark. My mother took me to see a doctor. The doctor said this is called dark phobia. Seeing a small bed in front of my shop, the guests who were greeted and sent envied the quality of the child’s sleep. They could fall asleep even if they were so noisy. As everyone knows, the more noisy they are, the better I sleep. I learn from the doctor. That sounds like a word, this is called a sense of security. Later, when I got older, my fear of dark symptoms got better, and I no longer need to turn on the light when I go to bed at night.
All his patience and thoughtfulness have never been given to me.
Fu Xue probably turned her head, and said to Xu Zhou capriciously and cutely: "I want you to take care of it!"It is her habitual cute killer, and it has always been unfavorable.
Others may feel greasy when they make this expression, but this face of Fu Xue is the refreshing agent for all greasy!
Even a girl of mine eats her set, let alone Xu Zhou.
The unavailable are always in a commotion, and the favored have no fear, and Eason Chan honestly does not deceive me.
Xu Zhou and Fu Xue were able to come together, I probably contributed to them.
Xu Zhou seldom takes the initiative to look for me. This time I was also entrusted by my mother and brought me something. My roommate accompanied me downstairs and was hit by Xu Zhou. The two of them saw each other. It turns out that the slow motion of love at first sight in the movie is real.
During the highlight moments of the male and female lead, the female partner can only feel sad, but unfortunately, the female partner is me.
Xu Zhou and I are not only alumni, but also neighbors. To outsiders, we are childhood sweethearts, and only we know that the relationship between me and him is not as close as everyone thinks.
Xu Zhou and I are neighbors. When I was 3 years old, Xu Zhou's family moved upstairs to my house. Xu Zhou was very beautiful when he was a child. It was loved by girls of the same age in our building. I naturally didn’t exception.
I have been the king of children since I was young. I don't like dolls that girls like. I often mingle with boys. Because I eat a lot when I was young, I look stronger than boys of the same age. I have never lost a fight.
When Xu Zhou first came, he was not very talkative, and children didn't like to play with him. Some boys had the territorial consciousness of the earth snake at that time and often troubled Xu Zhou.I have acted as Xu Zhou's flower protector for a long time in my childhood. But between the two of us, we failed to spark the spark of love like the childhood sweethearts in the novel.
It’s just that some small flames emerged from my side, and Xu Zhou has been dismissive of it all the time.
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3. He introduced me to his friend
I never thought that Xu Zhou would make an appointment with me alone and threw a thick fan to cover it up My face was earthy, and when I thought I still had a glimmer of hope, Xu Zhou personally shattered all my fantasies.
I did not expect that there will be a third person on this date, not Fu Xue, but Lin Yang from the basketball club.
Xu Zhou joined the school basketball club when he was a freshman. I, a person with no motor nerves at all, didn't have a face and got in as a logistician. Lin Yang was my junior.
Lin Yang saw me coming and hurriedly got up and pulled the chair beside him: "Sister, sit down!"
Xu Zhou just glanced at me indifferently, and then called the waiter to order.
I’m not sure so I’m seated, I don’t understand what’s going on right now!
Waiting for the food to be served, the three sat in silence, Xu Zhou's hands were knocking on the wall of the cup one after another, like knocking on my heart. Lin Yang said first: "Senior sister, sorry, I asked the senior to ask you out. I am afraid it would be too presumptuous for me to ask you out alone. I heard that you grew up together, so I asked the senior to ask you. . Sister, can I chase you?"
I thought, I was not unaware at the beginning, until Lin Yang spoke, I finally recognized the reality as if I accepted my fate.
The sound of hitting the wall of the cup stopped for a while, probably because Lin Yang looked at Xu Zhou's eyes for help too bright, even I felt it, and Xu Zhou helped out: "I think you two are quite suitable.
He fell in love, and then he was eager to get rid of my burden.
Xu Zhou actually talked about a girlfriend quietly when he was in high school,It’s because the Banhua people in the class are very beautiful. Although not many people know about this, Xu Zhou certainly can’t take the initiative to tell me that I don’t know him well enough, so what’s the matter with me who always pay attention to him? Probably not found.
I used a couple's water cup secretly, and the strawberry ring rubber band hidden in the cuffs of his school uniform, every time I staggered my eyes... Also lost a lot of weight. I also wanted to viciously report their early love. When Fahai was the man who beat the mandarin ducks, fortunately, they broke up without waiting for me to take action. According to my guess, the two of them were together for less than two months.
Soon I will eat it again.
I looked at Xu Zhou, and he finally looked away from the cup in front of him and looked at me. Obviously there is only a table in front of us, but I feel like we are separated by a moat.
According to the plot in the TV series, I should pick up the glass in front of me and pour it at Xu Zhou, then turn around and leave. After staring at each other for two seconds, I couldn't help but laughed, Xu Zhou looked at me like a neurotic.
I laughed and coughed, Lin Yang patted me on the back without seeing it, and asked with concern: "Senior sister, are you okay?"
I waved my hand to say it was okay, and the earth-shattering cough gradually eased After I came over, I explained: "I never thought that a serious person like Xu Zhou would also be a matchmaker for others. The picture was so beautiful, I was a bit shocked! Sorry!"
Lin Yang realized afterwards. When I get to my laughing point, Xu Zhou’s complexion is a bit ugly, although he usually doesn’t treat me very well, but his face is more gloomy now, and that’s right. After all, I never dared to make a joke on him, he Maybe I felt offended by me, looked at me a little angrily, and said, "Su Qing, are you sick!" A person who will never look back.
There is no anger, no sorrow, as if the laughter and the choking cough had drained all my emotions and took away my last obsession with Xu Zhou.
I looked sideways at Lin Yang beside me, only to realize that he had been looking at me all the time, his eyes were eager.It's like when I am chasing someone.
I cleared my throat and said solemnly: "Lin Yang, we may try it, but I may not know you too well. Can you start with a friend first?"
Lin Yang nodded like garlic Repeatedly replied: "Okay, okay, great!"
Before the meal was finished, Xu Zhou was called away by a phone call. Hearing his tone of voice, I guessed that it was Fu Xue on the phone.
After Xu Zhou left, I seemed to breathe a sigh of relief, and my tight body slowly relaxed and leaned on the back of the chair.
Lin Yang asked me: "Sister, you promised to try with me just now, do you still count?"
I didn't know, so I replied: "Of course, how could I make fun of this kind of thing."
I did not lie to Lin Yang.
Perhaps for Xu Zhou these years, I probably missed too much scenery.
I don't know if Lin Yang has noticed the strange atmosphere between Xu Zhou and me. Starting from today, I want to start a new life.
I got my affirmative answer. After Lin Yang checked out, he dragged me to change to a dessert shop. In my surprised eyes, I ordered a row of small cakes and set up a table.
"Sister, can't you eat spicy food? You just picked two light dishes, and the spicy dishes didn't move at all. No one can resist the charm of small cakes, sweets will make people feel better."
I took the spoon that Lin Yang handed over, looked at the dazzling array of cakes in front of me, and did not move for a long time. After knowing Xu Zhou for so many years, he never knew that I can't eat spicy food, because he likes spicy food. When eating together, I always follow his taste.
However, after only having a meal with Lin Yang, he could see that my heart seemed to be moved by something.
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4. Xiaoqing, don’t leave me
Since then, Lin Yang has often appeared in my life, good morning and good night, three meals a day , Pick up sooner or later, as if I can't take care of myself.
Except for my parents, for the first time I felt the feeling of being held in the palm of my hand. My life was filled with Lin Yang. At the beginning, I didn't have time to think about Xu Zhou, but gradually I became more and more accustomed to this habit.
I suddenly realized that the chat history between Xu Zhou and I was still two months ago. After that meal, Xu Zhou sent a message and asked me: [Are you serious? ]
There is no beginning and no end, but I understand at a glance what he wants to ask.
then replied: [Can't be more true. ]
Later, Xu Zhou sent a lot of messages and I did not reply.
I used to say "Good Morning, Good Morning, Good Night", and I was the one who used to say "Good Morning, Good Morning, Good Night". In my ten sentences, Xu Zhou would occasionally reply with one sentence. Usually, I was completely ignored.
Now when I look at the name "Yang Yang Yang" on WeChat, it turns out that good morning and good night are not meaningless words. The phone was blank, and I saw my smiling face reflected in it, filled with happiness.
That night, Lin Yang sent me downstairs to the dormitory as usual. I didn't rush in and urged him to go back. It seemed that it was about to rain.
He was motionless, his eyes staring at me for an instant, his eyes hot: "You go in first, I watch you go in."
His voice was a little dull, and I was blushing when he saw it. Blindfolded his eyes, stood on tiptoes, and kissed the corner of his mouth. When he was about to withdraw, he was suddenly dragged into his arms, and then there was a burst of raging siege.
I was kissed by him and my legs were soft, until Fu Xue's malicious cough sounded in my ears: "...It's progressing fast!"
I buried my face in Lin Yang's arms and felt the vibration of my chest cavity , I heard Lin Yang’s voice sound: "Good senior, good senior sister!"
I am not surprised, Xu Zhou is also behind me, although a little rude, I don’t want to leave the warm embrace, smelling the familiar honey locust on the tip of my nose Taste, as if docked in a warm and safe haven.
Lin Yang didn't let me go. Seeing an outsider was there, not only did he not let go, but the hand on my waist became tighter.
Fortunately, Fu Xue didn't want to see my red face, and quickly left with interest.In a short while, her voice was getting further and further away from us, and occasionally a few sounds came from not far away:
"Xu Zhou, why are you walking so fast, wait for me!"
"Where am I? I make you angry, you stop me, Xu Zhou!"
Lin Yang lifted my face, but I glanced at him confusedly, not daring to look at him, to be more precise, I was embarrassed to look at him.
He quickly kissed my face again, and I dared to look at him face to face. It turned out that I was not the only one who blushed. I rarely see boys blush, even the tips of their ears are red, so I stretched out my hand curiously To pinch his earlobe, the tentacles are warm.
"Don't touch it!" Lin Yang warned me, his tone was rare and vicious, but his voice was duller than before, and his deterrence was greatly reduced.
My hand suddenly pulled away, and the heat on my fingertips seemed to burn like a spark, and the hot geothermal current burned into my heart.
Lin Yang grabbed my hands and placed them on both sides of his cheeks: "Senior sister, can I turn right?"
I nodded and asked him in a rare soft tone: "What should I eat tomorrow morning? , Boyfriend?"
Lin Yang was irritated by me as if he finally couldn't bear it, and bit my lips again.
Lin Yang and I were greasy and crooked for a long time at the gate of the girls’ dormitory. I didn’t expect Fu Xue and Xu Zhou, who left just now, to return. I remember Fu Xue said that they were going to see the midnight show tonight. cinematique.
Seeing Fu Xue rushing to the bedroom, I was finally willing to let go of Lin Yang's hand: "You go back, take a break early, I will go see Fu Xue first!"
Lin Yang clicked on his own Lips, gestured me to take the initiative with a malicious look. I looked at Xu Zhou, who was still standing aside and watching the direction of our dormitory. Without Lin Yang's embrace as a cover, it was somewhat embarrassing.
Lin Yang urged me again, and I hurriedly touched his lips, then pushed him around, for fear that he would make any excessive demands.
Lin Yang finally turned back and forth away, and I remembered turning around to comfort Xu Zhou: "You go back first, I will help you persuade her."
I used to chase him, look up to him, and face him. When the mood is either joyful or heartbroken,There are rarely such calm times.
Xu Zhou ignored my words, and just asked me: "Are you together?"
I have long been accustomed to his bad tone. After he reminded me, I suddenly thought of the blushing and heartbeat scenes just now. , The fingers stroked his lips unconsciously.
Xu Zhou suddenly stretched out his hand to pinch my shoulders. With that strength, I tried to break free, but it was in vain. As he leaned towards me, I subconsciously covered my lips with my hand. I didn’t think too much. Xu Zhou, like that, clearly wanted to kiss me, but I couldn’t figure it out. He did it. What is the purpose.
Xu Zhou paused, pinching the hands of my shoulders, and pressing harder, as if to cut through the flesh and blood and grab my bones.
"He can, I can't, can you? Don't you like me? Don’t fall in love so soon, Su Qing, how cheap is your love!"
I never thought about it in my life, one day, I Will slap his handsome face with a slap. Although I have been calm when facing Xu Zhou, the years I have loved him are not a weight he can insult and trample on my feelings!
Xu Zhou's head tilted slightly, his eyes were slightly red, and his hands were shaking uncontrollably. His expression was unusually panic: "Xiaoqing, don't leave me!"
This scene is very familiar, I I finally remembered that Xu Zhou called me by my name so affectionately many years ago.
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5. That year, he needed me so much
During the summer vacation of the first year of high school, Xu Zhou's parents divorced. Legally, Xu Zhou was sentenced To the mother. His father dragged his luggage and moved away. Not long after, his mother dragged his luggage and left, leaving Xu Zhou, who had just turned fifteen. I heard from the adults that Xu Zhou decided not to follow anyone. Fortunately, Xu Zhou had money in his family. After his parents divorced, even though Xu Zhou was treated badly emotionally, Xu Zhou has always been regarded as a worry-free life.
But I know that if you can choose, Xu Zhou would rather lead a happy and poor family life.
No one is surprised that Xu Zhou’s parents divorced,The quarrels in their house made the neighbors feel that there would be such a day sooner or later.
It's just that Xu Zhou was pitiful. The day his mother left, I went to see him at his house. In the empty living room with the door hidden, Xu Zhou squatted by the door, his back, I still feel a pain in my heart when I think about it.
I did not speak, and sat quietly beside him. Xu Zhou was probably tired from sitting, like a kitten, leaning on my lap very docilely, muttering: "Xiao Qing , Don’t leave me, never leave me!”
That was the first time I saw such a fragile Xu Zhou. I was holding his thin body, sadly not knowing what to do, so I could only learn the movements of my mother. Patting his back lightly, his mouth kept repeating: "I will never leave you...Never leave..."
The memory of that summer afternoon was too far away, Xu Zhou recovered quickly As usual, going to and from class normally, as if the fragile boy in my arms that day was just a dream I had imagined.
Xu Zhou didn’t like to talk at all, and since then he has been more silent. It didn’t take long for neighbors in the neighborhood to tell that Xu Zhou’s parents were remarried. Of course, his parents would come back to see Xu Zhou from time to time, often carrying large bags and small bags. I came back with a lot of things, and then left after a short stay, like walking with relatives, not like going home.
Parents come and go, Xu Zhou's expression has not changed much. The boy's fragile heart is covered with a thick layer of ice.
At that time Xu Zhou was falling in love with Banhua, I was so cold, because Xu Zhou's phrase "Never leave" once again lost the rhythm frantically, he needs me so much, I think, come to him Said that although I am not the person he likes, I must be a special person.
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6. No one would stand in place and wait for anyone
until now I realized how many years I have been able to stay with Xu Zhou, The big reason is because Xu Zhou acquiesced to me. Every time I was desperate, he rekindled my hope and then destroyed it with his own hands.
He has always been sure what I want from him,After school started that summer, Xu Zhou and Banhua said they had broken up. I thought that the one who could stand beside him was finally me. I mustered up the courage to confess to him, but what was waiting was his sentence "Su Qing". , Don’t be too self-righteous!"
You asked me how it feels to fall from heaven to hell, I think this is probably it!
Since then, Xu Zhou’s attitude towards me has changed from the original indifference to me. I don’t know what I’ve done wrong, and silently excuse him in my heart, only when he is a double of a sudden family change and a broken love. Hit, it became less and less human.
I silently retreated to the safety line of my neighbors and acquaintances, easily not daring to cross the thunder pond for half a step, still being beaten and battered on the road chasing him without looking back.
I know that Xu Zhou has always wanted to leave this city and leave this home, so when he filled out his volunteers, he resolutely filled in the school more than two thousand kilometers away from home, and the city is far away.
Even though Xu Zhou ran so far, he couldn’t get rid of me. Xu Zhou's grades were very good, but I was not bad. I was also influenced by him. I also spent the thoughts and thoughts on him on studying, teachers and classmates. Boasting that I am smart, only I know that I can work harder for Xu Zhou.
When Xu Zhou said that I was lingering, I thought he was joking. Later I learned that Xu Zhou said he wanted to get rid of me seriously. To be more precise, he wanted to get rid of not only me, but also the past that he never wanted to remember anymore.
Xu Zhou in front of my eyes overlapped with the fragile teenager in my memory. I gently wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes. Xu Zhou's dim eyes suddenly burst into light. I'm not sure if the light is because of Me, his look is really distressing.
Xu Zhou relaxed, I opened his hands and slowly said: "Sorry, I broke my promise! I may not be with you forever, Xu Zhou!"
Xu Zhou's expression was a little softened. Suddenly stiffened, the look in my eyes seemed to want to eat me, the peach blossom eyes that were originally affectionate, deep like an abyss that swallowed people.
I inexplicably thought of Lin Yang's drooping dog eyes, what would it look like if he got angry.
While Xu Zhou was still in a daze,I turned and walked to the bedroom. I used to stand where I was watching him from behind, and for the first time I left Xu Zhou behind, I could walk so simply!
"Su Qing, you come back to me..." His voice was still heard behind me, but my steps were so firm.
No one will stand there waiting for someone, a lifetime is so long, how can I only like him alone.
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7. A good night dream
In the bedroom, Fu Xue was lying on the bed wrapped in a quilt, even his shoes did not take off. There were intermittent sobbing under the quilt. I didn't know how to speak. I thought, maybe I was the culprit who made her look like this.
Just when I hesitated, Fu Xue first spoke: "I broke up with him!"
I was a little surprised, and the question in my heart had not been asked yet, she said again: "I raised it." It turned into "What did you just talk about downstairs? I heard him call you!"
Fu Xue sat up from the bed, and I saw her red eyes clearly, and I sat down to her By the bedside, said: "Xiaoxue, listen to me explain!"
Fu Xue said: "Okay, explain it!"
She is too straightforward, but I don't know what I want to explain, what I did wrong NS? Is it my fault for loving Xu Zhou for so many years?
Fu Xue saw that I was silent, and didn't ask any more questions. She just leaned in and hugged me and cursed in a low voice: "Dog man!" During the night talk, I mentioned to her in the details, but she didn't match this person with Xu Zhou at that time.
Fu Xue was indignant for me at the time, and he also scolded "dog man" and advised me not to hang himself on a tree. After all, the forest is so big.
Later, after she was with Xu Zhou, she slowly matched the mysterious crush between Xu Zhou and me from the minutiae. At that time, she was only skeptical. Later, after Lin Yang and I started dating, Xu Zhou made a series of abnormal behaviors,It deepened her suspicion even more, until Xu Zhou saw me kissing Lin Yang just downstairs. The sudden burning of the nameless fire finally let Fu Xue see the clues.
I leaned on her shoulder wearily, and asked: "Why don't you blame me?"
Fu Xue choked up and said: "What's wrong with liking someone, that dog man is not good for me, nor good for you! "
I was amused by her, and she also laughed, smiling and laughing, we started to cry, snot and tears wiped each other's body.
The two tossed about the middle of the night before each lying in bed. I took out my phone and saw dozens of unread messages. After deleting Xu Zhou's WeChat account, I clicked on the "foreign-like" chat dialog.
....
【Are you sleeping? Senior sister]
[Are you asleep? Girlfriend]
[Are you asleep? precious? ]
.... The latest one is
[What would you like to eat tomorrow morning? ]
I answered with a smile: [whatever]
I know these two characters look very flat, but I am happy to imagine him feeling helpless over there, the next second it will display: the other party is typing ...
It's so late, and he is still waiting for me to reply to his news. My heart is warm, and I miss his embrace very much at this moment. I don't know what news he is editing and haven't sent it for a long time.
I cut Hu, and sent five words in the past: [I miss you so much]
There will soon come back five words: [Don’t tease me]
I changed the topic: [You were just here Edit what]
He replied: [I'll give you a full seat for the Chinese man]
I was amused by him, looking at the screen smirk, Fu Xue suddenly said to the bed: "Don't irritate people!"
I converged in embarrassment Smiling, editing the message quietly. Although I met just now, there are still a thousand words to say at this moment, and I don't even know when I fell asleep.
A good night's dream.
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8. She is an uninvited guest in my life,I have always been deeply in my heart
Xu Zhou's perspective
When I first met Su Qing, I was a little afraid of her. We just moved to this community that day, we saw a chubby girl turning a thin boy Sitting on the ground, I later learned that the hooligan was the neighbor who lived downstairs.
Although Su Qing doesn't bully me often, and even protects me many times, I am still afraid of her. The first time I met, I was too impressed. The children in the community often teased me about what a man hiding behind a woman was. For the first time in my life, I had a fight. As a result, I was beaten by the group of young boys with a bruised nose and swollen face. However, it is Su Qing that I hate more than those people who scold me. I don't need her to take care of my affairs.
Despite this, I suddenly broke into this uninvited guest in my life. From elementary school, junior high school, high school and then to university, Su Qing has been lingering.
I often dislike her, and occasionally I feel soft-hearted. When she came to the classroom and waited for me to go home with me in junior high school, I had to do homework to let her go home and she would not listen. Later, I didn’t bother to care about her. After finishing the homework, I I packed my schoolbags, but saw that there was no one in the back of the classroom, but the schoolbag was still in the seat. I guessed that she went to the toilet. I thought that the girl in the class said there was a mouse in the women’s toilet. Waiting for her at the door of the men’s room, she came out, I had no time to stop her, she ran all the way to the classroom, helpless, a few steps to keep up, but listened to her standing at the door of the classroom and scolding me as a bastard, she probably thought I didn’t wait. She left by herself, and I didn't want to explain anything, so I followed her all the way and walked home.
I looked at the entrance of the corridor, Su Qing was hugged tightly by her parents, and couldn't help but look at her home in the dark. My parents probably haven't come back yet!
I thought that after this incident, Su Qing might not care about me, at least for a short time. But the next day, she still greeted me with a happy smile and asked me to wait for her to go to school with her. I sighed, not knowing when this kind of day would be.
When I was in the first year of high school, I talked to a girlfriend and couldn't tell what I was feeling. She confessed to me, thinking that she might get rid of Su Qing, so I agreed.
I have always known that my parents are often busy with work and often quarrel, but I did not expect their divorce to come so unexpectedly.I do not deny that they all love me, but they may love themselves more than they love me.
My parents are gone, I squatted by the door and sat all night until Su Qing opened the door and sat next to me. My stiff body finally couldn't hold it. I leaned on her lap and felt her The warmth brought by the embrace, I think I might be ill. I told her to never leave me. Su Qing agreed to me without hesitation, and I finally fell asleep in her arms with peace of mind.
I don’t know if my unspeakable attachment to Su Qing is love, maybe I just want to grab a life-saving straw, no matter which kind, I know clearly, for me, Su Qing is a special person.
After school started, I soon broke up with Banhua.
But I don't want to turn to Su Qing's arms. I don't allow myself to indulge in anything, because the things that make me indulge will eventually leave me. Those promises, sooner or later, will dissipate in the wind just like a passing moment.
So when she confessed to me, I told her those hurtful things. Although I clenched my fists and tried to restrain my emotions, the psychological pain was about to overwhelm me.
I thought she should give up now, but I forgot that Su Qing is an unkillable Xiaoqiang. She still appeared in my life in her usual way, but it was much more restrained than before.
I never said that Su Qing is actually very beautiful. Although she is not the kind of peerless beauty, she can taste something inexplicably after a long time. There are actually many people who chase her. I don’t know they are attracted to it. What's her point? I shamefully hope that she is useless in the eyes of others.
But I have to admit that Su Qing does have many advantages. When she sees her classmates being bullied, she is the one who is in the early days; she is the one who would rather be late to help the old grandma cross the road; wear a mosquito bag to feed the stray The cat’s person is her...
Of course, she also has many unknown ills. Sometimes when I run into her alone on the road at night, she always behaves like a neurotic, sometimes talking to herself and sometimes aloud Sing loudly. Later I learned that she seemed very afraid of the dark. So I used to call her short legs when I passed her, and then strode in front of her. Although she didn't dare to refute, her mood stabilized a lot, and she stopped making all kinds of noisy noises to embolden herself.
We maintain this kind of relationship that is neither salty nor indifferent,Until the university, it was unexpected for Su Qing to sign up for the same university with me. I have to admit that many times I admire her resilience.
I want to make a clean break with those who don't want to recall the past, but Su Qing used her presence to tell me, as if all my efforts were futile and delusional.
I used Fu Xue despicably again, trying to get Su Qing out of trouble, and even personally pushed her to other men.
I think these 26 years of feelings are enough for her to reject any man.
I didn’t expect that Su Qing would give Lin Yang a try so simply, I don’t know if I was more fortunate or angry at that moment, and I didn’t know how I escaped and left the food tasteless. Of the meal.
That table of red and bright spicy dishes, I didn't move a bite. In fact, I didn’t like spicy food at first. It’s not that I couldn’t eat it. I just didn’t like it very much, because Su Qing brought a plate of red and colorful spicy chicken downstairs. I remembered Su Qing’s taste inexplicably. The drooling look of that dish impressed me.
Listening to Fu Xue often talk about the progress of Su Qing and Lin Yang, I always acted indifferently, and Fu Xue stopped mentioning it after one or two times. Until that night I saw her and Lin Yang kissing downstairs in their dormitory. I couldn’t tell what it was like. I just didn’t want to stay longer. Fu Xue asked me if I liked Su Qing. I didn’t want to admit it, but the heartache couldn’t be fooled. people.
Fu Xue broke up with me and told me not to harm Su Qing anymore. She said that Su Qing is very happy now.
Is she happy? Is she happy without me? But she had promised to never leave me. Su Qing apologized to me that she had broken her promise, and then turned and left without looking back. I haven’t seen her back, but this time she suddenly realized that she must Never look back again.
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