1. I still have 528 yuan left after paying the tuition fee
I set off from Xuzhou on September 13 to report to Nanjing. I had 5,600 yuan on my body.
was spent 4,800 yuan on the day of registration. The specific expenses are as follows: accommodation fee of 1,000, machine deposit, pre-collecting fee of 240, work clothes fee, file upgrade fee, training fee of 2,910, apartment management fee, quilt fee, furniture key deposit of 400, insurance medical examination fee, agreement fee of 220, photography fee, grain and oil conversion fee of 30, etc.
00 reported on September 14th. In the half month from September 28th, there were some unsolicited expenses, such as the big brother's travel fee of 39, vegetable tickets 50, pickled vegetables 3.8, comb clothes hanger 3.7, headphones 27.5, drawing equipment 45, T-shaped deposit 15, library certificate 3, two batteries 0.8, small lock 3.6, stamp envelope 6, calculus book 5, Xuanwu Lake 12, etc., and another 278 was spent. The actual expenditure was 5,078 yuan, and the remaining only 528 yuan was.
, the 528 yuan must be maintained for winter vacation, more than three months and more than 100 days. In other words, the daily expenses in the future cannot exceed 5 yuan.
This is what I did when I was studying alone in the ladder classroom of Nanhua Middle Building. I was taking stock of my personal financial situation. I was really not a good person and didn’t know how expensive it was.
In fact, in order to help me complete my studies smoothly and let me go to school with peace of mind, before I came to Nanjing, my four sisters and many relatives and friends gave me a total of 8,060 yuan. Considering the tuition fee next year, I forced 2,000 yuan to my post office. Before leaving, I left 400 yuan in tobacco and alcohol money for my father who had been owed for many years, so I took 5,600 yuan to my trip.
2. A life plan worth 5 yuan a day
5 yuan a day, how can you eat a full meal? I plan this way: under the standards of breakfast 1, Chinese meal 2, and dinner 2, save as much as possible.
For example, a meat bun for breakfast is 0.6, a bowl of porridge is 0.2, which costs 0.8; two steamed buns for Chinese food are 1, one serving of potato chips 0.6, or vegetables are 0.6, which costs 1.6; three steamed buns for dinner are 1.5, one serving of tofu is 0.5 or one serving of vegetable soup is 0.5, which costs 2, which costs 4.4 yuan a day.
The remaining 0.6 yuan is rolled down, picked out from the gaps of teeth, and bought some other daily necessities, such as toothpaste, stamps, letter paper, haircuts, etc. At that time, a large dish of 1.5 yuan was equivalent to three steamed buns, which was worth a meal of dinner for me. Therefore, for me, it was a luxury that cannot be reached and I would definitely not dare to try it easily.
For 500 yuan, I tried my best to survive the next three months:
1. It is quantitative overhead and weekly account overhead record: buy toothpaste, letter paper, and refills and must be recorded, and overspends are never allowed;
2. It is to buy a bottle of spicy sauce and pickled vegetables. The lunch steamed bun dipping sauce deals with a lunch meal. When it is overspend, it will stop eating vegetables and eat steamed buns.
3. Go to the canteen later. According to experience, the remaining , big pot of vegetables in the canteen is about to finish. The window staff will give the students more;
4. "If you are hungry, you will eat more" with the only purpose of filling your stomach. Pick up the canteen occasionally and buy food in cheap and large quantities. I used to eat vegetables or pickles in my hometown, but I was trapped by money. Less than a month after school started, these have become my variety of food.
In order to save money, I try not to participate in the possibility of spending money, watching videos, going out for fun, having dinner or group trips that others invite. Of course, in order to maintain face-saving self-esteem, the reason for rejection is still high-sounding.
Because if someone invites you, you will have to ask someone back. I can't take advantage of other people's video tickets as calmly as Lu Yongjun. Even when Lao Zhai was coming and watching the video together, he kindly invited me, and I refused.
Recalling at the beginning of school, when four people in the dormitory went to Xuanwu Lake Park to play, the ticket was 3 yuan. When I got angry, I gave three roommates a 12 yuan. They didn't mention paying it back, and I didn't have the nerve to ask for it. At that time, it was equivalent to my three days of living expenses, and I still felt sorry for several days at that time. It’s also because people are poor and have no choice but to be poor.
When I came from Xuzhou, my family brought me ten kilograms of pancakes, sesame oil, peanuts, salted duck eggs and other foods. These simple and precious local foods were also served for a week. I soaked pancakes in boiling water, put some sesame oil, and ate a salted duck egg. I dealt with them for more than a week.
When my roommates were having a meal, I refused for various reasons, and then secretly ate by myself, aiming to quickly fill my stomach. Before they came back, they cleaned the battlefield, for fear that others would see it, so they said irrelevant to my meal.
Now that I think about it, I feel very pitiful and too saving. However, at that time, I felt that I was short of money and had to prepare for the future. It was a little bit easier.
Eating the food brought at home, I also remembered the washing powder and shampoo in my second sister's handbag. These have become treasures because they save you from buying them.
However, the quality of bulk washing powder is not good, and the clothes do not foam, so they have to dry rub it; and the shampoo is also inferior. Although foaming on the head, after washing and blowing the hair, the hair will be dry and astringent.
Once when I was taking a shower with Wang Hui , I used his Haifei Silk and found that my hair was also flowing and smooth. Then I realized that a simple hair wash cream had such a magical effect.
I used to be at home, and I never washed my own clothes and couldn't wash them. When I arrived in Nanjing, it was unbearable to have heat. I didn’t change the wash in the first few days. My roommate Wang Xin kindly reminded me that I had a smell on my body. I took it off with embarrassment and learned to be soaked and rubbed it in the water room.
When Brother Xin saw my clothes, he smiled and said that I had never done it at home. He kindly came over to teach me how to rub clothes, but because of the washing powder used, the washing was still wrinkled, with dirt that had not been rubbed off. Even so, I felt that I had made great progress.
3. Depressed mood
Half a month in Nanjing, I heard and witnessed a lot of new things and met many new classmates, just like Liu Laolao entered the Grand View Garden. From the initial novel, strangeness, nervousness and confusion, I gradually adapted to the pace of life in the new environment.
But compared with those who were admitted to the surrounding city, those with better family backgrounds, excellent clothes and conversation, and most public-funded students..., I still feel deeply inferior.
Because I was one of the few junior college students in Nanhua that year (there are only three junior college classes in the 1994 level: trade, trade, and technician, with only more than 100 people), self-paid (39 people in our class, 23 public funds, 16 self-paid), rural origin, family background, wrinkled clothes, stuttering conversation, shortness, and unrespectful appearance... It's just a bit of a bad thing. There is no harm in
without comparison. I think I really should repeat the school and should not come to this junior college to pay for it at your own expense. Looking at the laughter and joy of my roommates around me and playing cards, I feel very depressed.
pulled out of the bustling dormitory atmosphere and circled around the narrow and narrow Nanhua living area. Under the dark night sky, sitting on the parallel bars downstairs, with tears in your eyes, looking at the branches of Metasequoia towering into the sky, wondering where the road ahead is?
The guilt that studying at your own expense brings burden to your family, the longing and concern for your family, the self-blame of the college entrance examination results, the fear of high tuition fees in the future, the confusion about yourself not being able to adapt to unfamiliar campus life, the inferiority complex that is too far from all aspects of the students, and the lack of confidence in college life... These feelings are all over the place.
Late at night, my tears accompanied the song of " Whose Tears Flying" floating in the dormitory opposite, which played in a loop, and I could no longer hold it back - sad tears are meteors, happy tears are stars, whoever tears are flying in the sky, which one is the tears I shed, don't let me believe that meteors will bring good luck, how can that sad deserter realize my wish......
4. Yago's encouragement
Just as I stepped into a strange environment, gradually adapting to it, the inner feelings of homesickness, guilt, self-blame, confusion, and inferiority generated prompted me to pick up the pen and write letters to my elder sister, fourth sister, uncle, Yago and other relatives and friends, expressing my heart.
On September 29, I received the first reply from my second uncle, from China Mining University . I also carefully put a wrinkled fifty dollar note in the letter paper.
I trembled and opened the envelope. As I read, tears filled my eyes. The words were short and long. Writing words has never been Yago's strength, but a short page and half of the letter paper gave me endless spiritual strength. He wrote in the letter -
"I am also sad when I read your letter, but we should not block our way forward because of "sadness". Thirty years Hedong, thirty years Hexi , we have been in trouble for these years, but I don't believe that we will continue to be poor as we revitalize our family, and we must do it. Be borne. The family is difficult, this is the truth, but don’t feel inferior to that of . . People are poor and have ambitions. The family conditions are not as good as others. You must surpass them in study, because only learning is our capital. Who else can we rely on if we don’t rely on learning? Take up the courage and face reality bravely."
Yago’s letter made me think and feel excited. Especially when I read , “We must bear the responsibility for revitalizing my family. ” gave me a soul blow to me who was in a state of confusion at the time. When I was filling out my college entrance examination application, I asked him to ask him. He knew my family's condition and asked me to be cautious when filling out the application at my own expense. If it really doesn't work, it will take him a year to repeat the study. He only passed the examination for two years before he was admitted to the Mining University .
When I left Xuzhou and came to Nanjing to report, he was still surprised. Unexpectedly, I did not choose to repeat the school, but made the decision to study at a junior college at your own expense. But since he had made a decision, he did not blame me in his letter. He advised me to come and feel at ease, base himself on reality, face the problem, and catch up in learning.
The eldest sister and fourth sister also replied to me one after another, and repeatedly advised me: First, don’t miss home, everything is fine at home; second, don’t save too much money; third, just study hard, don’t be too stressed; fourth, don’t compare yourself in life, and follow your actual situation, just compare the shortcomings and the poor and the poor.
The letter from my family gave me great comfort and great support. I carefully sorted out the letter of family. When I was in a loss, I took it out, encouraged myself, cleaned up my mood, and set off again.
(To be continued)
