Because the new year has just begun, the epidemic has spread across the country. And I never imagined that after an unexpected pregnancy, I would have to race against time to even get an abortion.

2022, another year of raging epidemic!

Because the new year has just begun, the epidemic has begun to bloom all over the country.

And I never imagined that after an unexpected pregnancy, I would have to race against time to even get an abortion. If you hesitate a little, you will either be locked up in the hospital or at home. No matter where you are locked up, you can’t afford it!

I am 38 years old, born in the 1980s, and a mother of four children. My son is the eldest, 12 years old this year, and I have a lot of money.

Being pregnant with the four babies was an accident. I was not prepared to give birth to them. After my son found out, he often said in my ears: Mom, please give me a younger brother! From now on, someone will play with me.

Because his father lives in the factory and often does not come back, and the family is full of women, he is very eager to have a boy as a companion.

I was pregnant in ten months, and I didn’t expect that I would give birth to a daughter. However, I did not favor sons over daughters. On the contrary, I loved my daughter more. I let my son do most of the things in life.

My son has done too much, and he will inevitably feel unbalanced. He can't help but protest against me, saying that I am partial and favor girls over boys.

I said to my son seriously: You are a man, and you will be the backbone of the family from now on. Mom hopes that you will learn to take responsibility and learn to do housework from an early age. Otherwise, your daughter-in-law will blame your mother for not treating you as a child. Education is good, just like your mother is complaining about your grandma now. Grandma raised your father to waste, and I don't want to raise you to waste too.

The son nodded in understanding.

In fact, I am very dissatisfied with my mother-in-law. When I gave birth to my fourth child, my husband took care of three children at home. I was hospitalized for three days, and my clothes were left to dry on the balcony for three days, and the hygiene at home was not improved.

The day I came home from the hospital, I saw the situation at home: the dining table was piled with unwashed dishes, there were footprints on the floor, and the bed was piled with clothes.

Looking at all this, I was so angry that smoke was almost coming out of my head. My mother-in-law actually said dotingly: This child has never known how to clean up the housework since he was a child.

I am almost speechless: Is it possible that anyone is born to do this? Isn't this what you are used to?

Every time I go shopping with my four children, there are always a lot of people turning heads, not because I am beautiful, but because of my four children.

"Wow! She is so amazing! She actually gave birth to four children."

I can always hear such exclamations from others. I don’t know whether others are laughing at or envious of me.

Sometimes I feel quite embarrassed.

Only when people reach middle age do they gradually realize the benefits of having more children. Although the process of giving birth and raising children will be very hard, when they think about themselves when they are old, no matter which one of their brothers and sisters has difficulties, they can rely on each other and help each other, even if A hundred years later, I left this world with no regrets or worries.

In 2022, after celebrating the Spring Festival in my hometown, the children started school on the 14th day of the first lunar month.

On the tenth day of the Lunar New Year, , I reluctantly said goodbye to my parents, and the trunk of the car was filled with their heavy love. My husband and I drove back to Dongguan with our four children and continued our wandering life in a foreign country.

In Dongguan, we run a small clothing processing factory, and we take our four children with us to study. Since we are foreigners, our children can only go to private schools. The annual tuition fee alone costs tens of thousands of yuan, which puts a lot of financial pressure on us.

In the past few years due to the epidemic, business has become more and more difficult every year. Especially this year, I believe most people are not having an easy time because the epidemic hit us right at the beginning of the year, and almost half of China was sealed off across the country.

I just arrived in Dongguan. At the request of the school and community, our whole family took the nucleic acid test .

At this time, the epidemic in Shenzhen, which is adjacent to Dongguan, is still particularly serious. Basically the entire city is under lockdown and the streets are empty.

At the end of 2021, we have been waiting and watching. We don’t know if we dare to go back to celebrate the New Year. We are afraid that if we go back, if an epidemic breaks out in our hometown, we will be locked down in our hometown, and our children will have to study here in Dongguan. dilemma.

I watched people on the street dragging their luggage home in twos and threes, and children clamoring to go home all day long.

Sometimes I always feel that no matter how much money I make outside, I can never earn that sense of belonging in life.

Finally, we couldn’t help but join the army going home.

On the fourteenth day of the first lunar month, children began to go to school as normal. At the same time, some people gradually began to return to Wan to work. The flow of people increased, and the epidemic hidden in the dark gradually surfaced.

First, positive cases began to be detected in Dalang, Dongguan, and the number was increasing day by day.

After the children had attended classes for two weeks, the epidemic in Dalang was still not under control and had spread to other places. For safety reasons, the Education Bureau issued a notice of class suspension.

Now, the school has thrown back a few mythical beasts to me, and I have to live a life of chaos again.

About a few days later, a positive case was found in the community next to us.

It turned out that in the middle of the night, a ten-month-old child had a fever. When he went to the People's Hospital for treatment, he was diagnosed.

I feel very sad when I hear this news, because the child is still so young, only ten months old, and it is very pitiful to be separated from his mother.

But I am more nervous and worried.

Before, the epidemic always happened in the news, but never happened around us.

However, this time when we are here, we are really afraid that we will also be blocked all of a sudden.

Shanghai is a living example.

For a time, everyone was panic-stricken and rushed to buy daily necessities, firewood, rice, oil and salt. The community even requires nucleic acid testing to be done every day. Those who don’t do it will get a yellow code and won’t be able to go anywhere.

At this time, I never expected that a bigger "surprise" was waiting for me.

On February 28, 2022, my "good friend" who was usually punctual did not come to report. In the past, every time my period was delayed, it must be pregnant.

Could it be this time too...

I dare not think about it any further.

I spent another two days in anxiety and uneasiness, but my "good friend" still didn't come as promised.

Now I couldn't sit still at all, so I ran to the drugstore and bought pregnancy test paper . The two red lines in

’s nightmare still appeared.

Alas! Why are you pregnant again? At this moment, I am very confused.

I really don’t understand. Some people can’t get pregnant even if they want to. How could I be so unlucky and get pregnant accidentally? Could it be that I have the legendary constitution of being prone to pregnancy?

Looking at the two red lines on the test paper , I really want to cry without tears.

After my husband found out, he actually said with a smile: Why don’t we have another baby!

This guy's back hurts even when he's standing and talking. I was so angry that I slapped him in the face. I wasn't digging out your flesh. Of course you didn't know it hurt. I'm already worried. Thank you for being in the mood to joke.

When I gave birth to my fourth child, I was already 35 years old and considered an advanced maternal age. Because I was older and had given birth to three children before, my physical condition was not good.

After giving birth to the baby, I was still lying on the delivery bed for observation. At this time, the doctor had gone out, leaving a nurse to look after me.

At that moment, I felt a warm current gushing out from below, like a faucet that was turned on. When the nurse saw it, she was so frightened that she ran away, shouting as she ran: Doctor, doctor, come quickly!

At this time, I don’t know how to be afraid because I have never experienced it.

The doctor rushed into the delivery room at the speed of an arrow.

It turned out that uterine insufficiency caused massive postpartum bleeding . Fortunately, after the doctor's treatment, the bleeding was finally stopped.

However, there was still a lot of congestion in the uterus that had not been discharged. The doctor was afraid that there would be further bleeding, so he directly reached into the uterus and pulled out the congestion.

It’s scary to think about this kind of scene, let alone happen to me.

I remember that at that time, I was shaking with pain and sweating profusely. I could only hold on to the edge of the bed tightly and take deep breaths. It seemed that I had walked through the gate of hell again.

That kind of pain is still unforgettable. Only those who have experienced it can understand it.

Every time I think about it now, I get scared.

What is hateful is that my superstitious mother-in-law said that she was born on the first day of the new year and her birthday was not good, so she asked me to give her away.

One of my husband’s cousins ​​was adopted. Because she was born on the first day of the new year, her parents disliked her, so they gave her to someone else to raise.

How can I bear to lose the flesh on my body!

For this reason, during my confinement period, I acted as a shrew and had a fierce quarrel with my mother-in-law.

Faced with this unexpected pregnancy, considering various circumstances, this child could only go to the hospital for artificial abortion.

Actually, I feel quite helpless. After all, it is a life. Before I had time to see the world, I was ruthlessly abandoned.

Sometimes fate likes to play tricks on people, and it is not your turn to choose many things.

However, the epidemic seemed to be a little out of control at this time, and two positive cases were confirmed again in the community next door.

Suddenly, the entire community was closed, and nearby roads were also controlled. A 48-hour nucleic acid certificate was required for entry and exit.

The epidemic situation in in Dalang Town has not been brought under control, and there are many new cases every day.

On March 8, 2022, the little life in my belly has been 40 days, and my body has also experienced early pregnancy reactions. I feel nauseous and vomiting every day, and everything I eat tastes tasteless, which is quite uncomfortable. I really don’t know how I survived this before.

At this time, B ultrasound could basically be seen, so I went to the hospital for preliminary examination.

After confirming that I didn’t want to have children, the doctor prescribed a bunch of tests for me, including blood tests, liver function, kidney function, B-ultrasound, and many more.

I haven’t had the surgery yet, but I’ve already spent more than a thousand yuan on these examinations. It’s really painful!

I really don’t understand. Does a small abortion surgery require so many examinations?

After the B-ultrasound results came out, the doctor said that the fetus was still small and it was not suitable for surgery now. It would be better to do it when it grows older. He asked me to have the surgery again in ten days.

However, at this time, because the epidemic in Dalang Town was not under control, the epidemic spread to several other towns, and positive cases were detected one after another.

Dongguan suddenly became the hardest hit area by the epidemic.

I hold my mobile phone almost every day and pay attention to the epidemic all the time. I am afraid that one day there will be confirmed cases in the area where I live, and it will be blocked all of a sudden.

What should I do with the baby in my belly?

I have a baby, but I can’t afford to support it. I don’t have a baby. If I’m locked up, I don’t know if I can get out. If I get out, can I come back?

I live in the fear of the unknown every day. During this period, I am really worried and helpless.

These ten days were like a year.

spent five days like this.

March 13, 2022, there are still five days before the surgery, but there is a test result to be obtained today.

At about nine o'clock in the morning, after settling the children, my husband drove to the hospital with me. As soon as we drove to the intersection of the community, we saw a lot of fences piled next to it.

Is this a road closure?

My heart was suddenly frightened and nervous.

Unexpectedly, when we arrived at the hospital, many nurses were busy packing their things, as if they were moving.

What happened to this hospital today?

It wasn't until I got the test results and found the doctor that I learned from her: It turns out that their hospital is classified as a "designated hospital" and specializes in receiving patients from epidemic areas, and we can only go to other hospitals for medical treatment.

After seeing the patients in the morning, they will move out in the afternoon.

At this time, I was panicking and anxious.

quickly asked the doctor: Can I have surgery now?

The doctor looked at my test results carefully, thought about it and said: The fetus is a little small, so it would be better to do it in a few days, but the current situation is quite special, so let’s do it today! I'll write an order for you, so hurry up and pay the fee. I'll get off work in more than an hour.

I grabbed the order and gave it to my husband to pay the fee quickly. I sit at the nurse's station and fill in the information, and the two of us divide the work and cooperate, which saves a lot of time.

It was almost eleven o'clock when my husband came back from the bus. The nurse collected the order and immediately led me into the operating room.

When I walked into this place again after a year, I still couldn't help but beat my heart. I hate myself quite a lot, because every time the scar heals and I forget the pain.

The nurse next to me asked me to quickly take off my pants and lie down on the operating bed. They were about to get off work, and they wouldn't be able to finish the job if I kept dilly-dallying.

There was a male anesthesiologist standing next to me, and I had to untie my pants in front of him. I still felt that I couldn't get over it, and the movements of my hands couldn't help but slow down.

I stole a glance at the male anesthesiologist. He had been busy with his work with his head down and had no time to care about anything else.

The nurses were also busy with their own affairs. In the large operating room, I was left alone struggling in place.

Another little nurse urged: Hurry up! Sister, we are very busy today. We have to pack things later and move out in the afternoon.

Looking at the people in front of me who were busy working for me, I tried to overcome my inner fear and cooperated with them quickly.

Until the anesthesiologist gave me the injection, I gradually fell asleep.

After a dream, I woke up and was lying in the lounge. Maybe the effects of the anesthesia hadn't worn off yet. I was a little groggy. I felt particularly sore and uncomfortable in my waist.

After resting for half an hour, the pain in my waist was a little better and I felt more awake. I slowly got up from the bed, but my head was still a little dizzy.

It was already past 12 noon. Thinking that the four children at home had not had lunch yet, I slowly walked out while holding on to the wall.

Standing at the door, I looked back at the operating room with the lights out, and secretly swore in my heart: I would never walk in here again, and I must take good care of myself in the future.

The next day, as I expected, our community was also sealed, and no one was allowed in or out.

Fortunately, I had the surgery in time yesterday, otherwise I would have had to give birth to the child.

I can't help but feel filled with emotion when I think of that little life that was missed.

In these years, I gave my youth to my family, my hands to housework, and my bad temper to my children. I repeat the same life every day, with no surprises and no expectations. I don’t even know who to talk to. I have nothing but my children...

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