I haven't had the same feeling like today for many days, and I feel heartbroken. Today is your Yuanqi, and all the family members are here. They are so nice. Although it is not a day of rest, they all ask for leave just to send you another trip. Today, your good nephew is still making a large table of delicious dishes for you. Everyone has sent you ingots and some of the clothes left behind have also been sent to you.
The epidemic situation has not been together for a long time. Everyone is talking and laughing together, looking at the new flowers I planted, looking at your original old photos, and talking about happy things in the past. This is probably what you want to see. You have always been a person with great love. During your lifetime, no matter who happens, as long as you know, you will try your best to help others solve the problem successfully. This is also the reason why everyone admires you and loves you. When you were hospitalized, friends from all over the world came to see you. On the day you left, there were endless people in your family. Your excellence is not only because of your talent, humor, optimistic and cheerfulness, but also because of your willingness to help others and generousness. You are elegant and easy-going, and you are a humble gentleman. Everyone’s evaluation of you is “the man on the street is like a jade, and the young man is unparalleled in the world.”
After the bustling, the home has returned to quiet. In the photo, you looked at me quietly, still smiling. Yes, everyone can no longer cry when talking about you. I hope you don’t care too much about us. I hope you can be safe there. Your relatives often call me and often come to accompany me when they have time. They try to cheer me up and make you feel at ease. But tonight, I disappoint you again, I feel sad, and I cry again. After today, I no longer have to get up early in the morning to cook, make tea, and burn incense for you. Just like the three months of accompanying the hospital, I slept on the very narrow escort chair every day, staring at the salt water bottle every day, and I don’t want to leave you at all. If you are better, I feel extremely happy. If you change a little, I am worried and scared. Then you left, I slept in the big bed at home, but I could only fall asleep with sleeping pills. I am willing to accompany you like this. Everyone thinks I am very hard-working, but I am really not tired. With you, everything is fine. I still feel happy to be with you. But you left, and didn't ask me if I was willing or not, so you left me resolutely. And today is forty-nine days when you leave. It is said that your soul will leave home today. From now on, you will only come to see us during the holidays. I feel that you have left me again, no matter whether I want it or not, no matter whether I am reluctant to leave it, just like the day you left, silently, regardless of whether I still hold your hand, you just left like this, leaving so suddenly, I was unprepared, you left quietly...
Under the mask of smiling, there was a tingling heartache, life needs to continue, I need your company, you are here, everything is fine, you are not here, life is meaningless.
