Hello everyone, I am ao proud star. Long time no see. Click on the "blue font" above, all the experience you want is here.
26 to 33 years old, I have experienced the trough in my life. It can also be said that the days after getting married and having children have become my trough.
The work that I didn't like very much seemed more painful, and the marriage life that I had never experienced before made me lose myself more and more.
I like to watch rape flowers in spring, but I can't make time.
In the past two years of reading and writing, enjoying a lonely life alone has slowly awakened me, and in the darkness before dawn, I can finally see a trace of dawn.
Even though I am still in the most difficult time in my life, I have a direction and understand how to work hard to change the status quo. I know very well: After till the trough of life, I can only appreciate the spring blossoms in the coming year and enjoy the sweetness of life.
01 I often encounter troublesome things at work
Recently, my work is very busy, and the company's system is a bit messy. A project took several months to come to an end. My colleague who was doing the materials was absent-minded, so the boss gave me everything.
The three bosses often feel physically and mentally exhausted. They have to agree with this and then that. There is always a huge energy calling me to resign.
But I dare not leave my job, for fear of losing social security and a stable source of income. Although I can make some money by writing about self-media now, I still don’t have enough confidence to write full-time.
I just have some obsession. I have been waiting for the moment when my side job is catching up with my salary. I always feel that if I am stable, I will not be so easily worried about gains and losses.
is almost the end of the year. Perhaps for another three months, the fans will grow, and the salary and year-end bonus will also be settled. At that time, the choice is the best choice for cost-effectiveness.
Although you have any unsatisfactory work, you must be able to stand your temper and temper. has survived the days that you don’t want to last until that period so that you can lose regrets in the days to come.
02 There are many things that I don’t have time to do, but I have to slowly complete
Some time ago, I wrote an article
03 No matter how bad life is, think about the end, determine the direction and continue to work hard
After moving, it seems that the time is much more crowded than before. The things I moved back before have not been able to sort out, so I have to spend 4 more hours on the road every day, which makes people have no time to take care of many things.
Home is much more complicated than one person. Those trivial matters are indeed not worth mentioning, but when you are exhausted, there are still people who think that you are not working hard enough is really sad.
Lying in bed at night, when the night eroded the entire room, I listened to the book by Shi Tiesheng on mobile phone: "It waited for me to be born, and then waited for me to live to the most arrogant age and suddenly crippled my legs."
Shi Tiesheng's life made me shed tears unconsciously. I don't know whether I was sad because of Shi Tiesheng's life or because I was too tired.
I just know that I have to work hard on myself. No matter how bad my life is, I think about the end, determine the direction, work hard, and always stay away from those who can't adapt to it and live the way I like.
04 Set goals for yourself, and if you survive, let yourself be free for a while
These days, it has been obvious that winter is coming, and it is already twilight after get off work.
I ordered a bowl of vegetarian noodles worth a few dollars and started eating it alone. Thoughts spread, fatigue and the emotions that yearn for freedom are intertwined.
I think if I have a job that can support myself, I don’t have to get off work so late every day; if I have a job that I have a free job, I can accompany my child when he is taking online classes.
If I have a free job, I can choose a day with clear sky to see the vastness of the sea and a day with low breeze to appreciate the magnificence of the mountain.
So I have to survive the current low period and survive this winter so that I can become the way I like to taste the sweetness of life, and have the choice to see the rapeseed flower fields I have lost in my hometown next spring.
I set a goal for myself. As long as the side job catches my salary, I will focus on the media, take my family to the city I once yearned for the most in the spring season, and let myself be free.
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Author: ao The arrogant star, an amateur coder who has been experiencing the storm and constantly getting up~ determined to realize freedom of life through writing and become what you like.
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