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It is another late autumn. It is too late to look back, but time is stranded by many past events. Sometimes, what I miss is not some people, but those sad years of the past.
Life is a lifetime, and the autumn leaves are gone, many years have passed, adding traces of aging to people.
I walked in late autumn for a walk, The autumn wind was whispering , the yellow leaves were floating, and occasionally only a single leaf lay on the ground and fell asleep peacefully. However, life is like autumn. We are also lonely towards the setting sun, with more white hair and wrinkles all over the folds.
Time is also ruthless, time is unforgiving, everything passes in ordinary life. If I say what I feel in late autumn one year, I can only sigh with each other: It is time that has tempered myself, and time has grown old.
On the road of life, things are impermanent, like clouds and smoke, have gone through ups and downs, brightness, and have also experienced all the hardships, even if you keep a calm heart facing life.
Fate originates and causes disappearance, causes gathers and causes dispersions, and see through right and wrong, and understand the good and evil of human hearts, so that we can understand life and distinguish human nature through hardship.
The years are shores, and the sea of suffering is boundless. Every footprint you walk through and every journey of experience are all the hardships that life must go through. Therefore, you can gain and lose at will, and do not hurt the spring and the autumn. Only by working hard for your dreams and life can you have an imperfect scenery in your life.
In late autumn, the weather is cold again, and my mood is already drifting with the autumn wind. How many thoughts cannot be relieved, how many sadness cannot be let go, hatred in the silent place, hiding in silence, and squandering words in silence, every word is gathering, separation, and joy and sorrow.
Autumn always goes deeper and deeper inadvertently, and also teaches us to think about life and understand life.
In this world, there is no empathy! There are some hardships in life that you must survive by yourself and silently, heal yourself, and let those wounds achieve your life through polishing.
There is some pain in life. You have to endure it alone, take it alone, and swallow it alone. Instead of expecting others to understand, it is better to organize yourself and forge ahead.
There will be a deep castle in the depths of everyone's heart. There is helpless desolation, helpless confusion, unreleased mood, unspeakable pain, and unhealable wounds. It is a place where others cannot intervene, a world where no one can understand. We hide our deepest helplessness and sorrow there, slowly lick it, and slowly heal ourselves.
Only you know whether it is painful or not; only you know whether it is painful or not. Sometimes, life is living in regret.
Autumn wind, with the coldness of bones, came towards me, brushing across my cheeks mercilessly, and I couldn't help but shivering.
National Day has passed, and it is 4 hours of the year. When it comes to cold dew, it is time for the dew to be cold and the weather will start to start to be cold. Despite the changing seasons and the passing time has changed, our faces have changed. Life has moved from prosperity to desolation, and the heart has returned from noise to silence.
If you still have regrets and sorrows in your heart, it is better to let go and let go in late autumn. No matter how hard life is, you will always survive the cold winter and usher in spring; no matter how bad your fate is, there will always be a turn of things, and there will be a blue sky again when you turn around.
No matter how difficult the road of life is, we must continue to treat the years and the journey of ups and downs. At any time, as long as you are still clear-headed, continue to work hard to do your own things, make yourself fulfilled and live a rich life.
Night is getting darker. I walk in Nanhu Park . The breeze blows slowly, and I feel cold all over.
Depth in the autumn, the leaves in the park are scattered all over the ground. I leaned over and picked up fallen leaves from the ground, and suddenly found that most of the fallen leaves on the ground were on the ground, with the back facing up, which was exactly the opposite of the leaves growing on the trees.
In fact, fallen leaves also have vitality. Just the moment when their lives are about to be exhausted, they are still attached to the earth that raises their lives. Therefore, when the leaves fall on the ground, they must also put their face close to the earth to thank their mother for their fertility.
Although the fallen leaves are only a thin distance from the earth, it still does not forget its gratitude, but it is tightly devoted to its mother's arms, accumulating strength for the re-growth of next spring.
In late autumn, the wind rises and leaves fall, making people feel withered, cold and silent, and thin clothes are too cold.
Along the way, autumn leaves are flying, and they are thin in the autumn wind. Life is the same, and I feel depressed and sad all the way, but I feel mixed emotions in my heart, and I want to write down my life with my pen.
I think, isn’t human life as miserable as fallen leaves! In order to survive, to live, and to the money that cannot be taken away, we have experienced ups and downs and downs and tasted the ups and downs of life. What can you do if you are happy or ordinary in your life?
In the end, isn’t each of us still as miserable as falling leaves? When he was born, he came to this world crying, and when he was old, he let the cry of others send away the world. It is written by the Tang Dynasty poet Li Shangyin : The silkworm will not end until it dies!
———Essay 2022.10.11
