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Smoky's finger gently stroked Han Zifeng's tightly closed lips. When he fell asleep, he looked like a tired child. The candlelight was jumping on the table not far away, gradually becoming blurred.
fingers covered the man's eyelashes, and the smoke man smiled softly. A man actually had such dense and slender eyelashes, and the eyes under the eyelashes... The man in the smoke thought, and his heart swayed and could not stop.
At that moment of dusk, Yan Man fell into Han Zifeng's eyes. As I watched, there was no other thing in the world. Such a pair of eyes reminded Yan Nan of his hometown, childhood, and the clear river outside the village for no reason.
is all old things. For many years, Yan Man has no intention of looking through it again.
12 years old, my hometown suffered a drought, and my family left their hometown and were displaced. The man in Yan was sold to a brothel by a distant uncle, and his fate had another beginning.
had unwilling to resist and struggle, but gradually accepted his fate. So what if you don’t recognize it? He is just a thin daughter, and the darkness of the world is simply beyond my sight.
everything is futile unless you die.
death. Yan Man had thought about it, but when he picked up the knife, he couldn't do it. So I realized that I actually had a shallow nostalgia for life.
, since you are greedy for life and fear of death, you should accept your life.
From then on, singing and singing every night, and men after men of smoke pass the long years. In the soft body, I gradually could no longer see my heart covered by the red flowers and green willows.
heart? What does a woman in the world want her to do?
Until that dusk, I met Han Zifeng.
Han Zifeng was wearing an extremely shabby long gown, thin and almost faded. But Yan Man didn't care. Yan Man cared about it only his eyes. She saw herself sinking in his eyes, straight and unable to stop it.
That day, Han Zifeng came with another man in brocade clothes. A scholar is in a downturn, but he may not have no rich friends. Just got pulled over. My friend said, when will you not be romantic at this time?
Han Zifeng does not argue. It’s not that he is not romantic, but it’s just that he is inappropriate. He doesn’t believe it in the fireworks alley, so he can find a jade-like face.
Rouge poked the man in the cigarette behind him: "What are you looking at? You seem to have never seen a man."
smoke man turned around and smiled. Any kind of life that lasts too long can bring you a sense of helplessness. For example, the jokes and laughter between sisters on weekdays. In fact, they are also open-minded. In the same situation, if they don’t love each other, what else can they love?
Rouge is the best sister of a smoke man. How old is the big smoke man? In private, he loves her very much. It doesn't matter in normal times, everything is already open to you.
"What a good-looking man." Yan Man said, "Sister, don't you think?"
Yan Zhi smiled: "There are good-looking men everywhere. Don't look at it, just a down-and-out scholar. Save your heart."
Yan Man turned his head. The first time, she didn't listen to Yanzhi. He approached Han Zifeng slightly.
Ruzhi no longer paid attention to her and held her skirt with her fingertips. Standing gently in front of the man in brocade. The man held his hand gently and the rouge entered his arms. They embraced each other and walked towards the pink powder of the upstairs.
The gap in the upstairs, Yanzhi turned around and blinked at the smoke man. The smoke man's clothing was invisible, so he raised his head and looked at Han Zifeng quietly: "Sir, are you interested? Sit down and listen to me playing a song?"
Han Zifeng turned around and was stunned.
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At such a close distance, Han Zifeng felt a kind of helplessness in resisting. The woman in front of her stood in the brothel where she had always been indifferent. That indifference has disappeared in my heart from now on.
That night, Yan Man felt that he finally looked like a real woman, not a beautiful but heartless body. That night, the ancient love between men and women slowly continued in the Hongluo tent, shocking the world and crying ghosts and gods.The smoke man hid in Han Zifeng's clean passion, rising all the time, as if he was about to rise to a height that he could not see.
will not stop. Until his strength was exhausted, Yan Man exhaled, thinking how wonderful it would be to lie dormant in this person's body from now on.
Tears flowed down, and the wet land flowed through Han Zifeng's body.
actually feels warm. I haven't had tears for a long time, and I ignored it, it can actually be warm. In the strange warmth, Yan Man thought of a fatal word for no reason: love.
thought of it, and it was too late to prevent it.
From that day on, the man in the smoke refused to pick up other customers. The dignitaries, nobles or wealthy businessmen, have all found various excuses to refuse. He refused to open the wooden door with peony flowers inscribed.
3 years ago, the Yan Man took off the top card of Honggu, so sometimes he could choose his guests at will. Even if my mother was very unhappy, she didn't dare to say it was too serious. She stood aside, gritted her teeth, and endured it.
It’s not that the man in smoke cannot see it. The man in the smoke just doesn't want to see it. I have long been familiar with my mother's dark green face, and it has changed a lot in an instant. However, because Han Zifeng had no money, he secretly tried to kill him with his thorny eyes.
Yan Man also knows that being willful is not the solution. After all, my strength is insignificant and I can't break the rules in the building. So he secretly handed over the accumulated silver jewelry to Han Zifeng. He asked him to buy luxurious clothes, wear emerald rings, and swing silver notes in his hand to get back in.
First, Han Zifeng refused and hugged the man in a sad way: "Yan Man, Yan Man, I am deeply ashamed of not being able to redeem you. How can I spend your money and buy your smile? What kind of man am I?"
Yan Man stroked Han Zifeng's soft hair: "It depends on the relationship. Love is divided into importance. Zifeng, we don't care about anything else."
Han Zifeng stopped arguing, and after all, it was the time with Yan Man. I can't let her go. That love is not the feeling of Yan Man alone.
But what kind of person is my mother? It’s not that I don’t know the sudden change in Han Zifeng’s identity. Which brothel Hong Gu can’t bring out shocking private money? It's just that there's nothing to say. The cigarette man earned countless silver dollars. Quan Qie is deaf and dumb, and she can't make any mistakes anyway.
was Yanzhi who spoke, and walked lazily to the Yan Man's room one afternoon. As soon as you open your mouth, you made it clear: "Yan Man, you like this man. You can stay with you for a while, and you can also pay some silver. But don't take it too seriously. After finally getting to where you are today, life can still go on. Don't make love or love, and finally put yourself in. A good-looking man has no conscience. Who is willing to come here to have fun?"
yan Man smiled, and the beauty in his smile that he had carefully carved for many years was already showing guilt. He refused to respond. He turned around and asked: "Sister Yanzhi, for so many years, Have you really not moved any man? "
" Yes." Yanzhi smiled slightly, "Forget it, it's okay to not recognize fate. Why bother? Yan Man, I have to pour cold water on you? Looking at it from the beginning, how many women like us finally got on the shore? Yes, there are also such stories. But most of them did not escape the life of Du Shiniang . Yan Man, do you still remember how Peony died? "
Yan Man suddenly trembled.
When the peony died, it was the second winter of the second year when the tobacco man sold him to the brothel. That was the most beautiful and popular woman in the building at that time, but she fell in love with a man outside. Give him body and heart, and give her the gold and silver she had exchanged for her body over the past few years. The man had everything, so he bought a good land outside the beautiful city, bought a luxury house, and married a good woman. I completely forgot the solemn oath of death under the peony flowers.
Those vows are just exchanged for everything you want.
It was night, and Peony swallowed the last golden ring on his finger. Until death, he refused to admit that he had made a mistake.
After Peony's death, Yan Man moved into Peony's room.A year later, Yan Man followed Peony and became famous. But Yan Nan never thought that his life would be followed by Peony.
Rouge patted the man in the face of the smoke man: "Sister, it is not easy for us to live for a lifetime than anyone else. There is nothing, only this life. You can stay as long as you can. Time is fast, and your face is fleeting. We originally couldn't stand up to time. Everything will soon be neglected. Remember that we have no heart, and if we don't have heart, no one loves it. It's nothing to play every show, but you must understand that everything is a play."
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After that, there was no extra word about Han Zifeng. She said everything she should say, but she couldn't walk out, it depends on Yan Man herself. She is her own cause and her own result.
That night, the smoke man didn't sleep. In the bed where Mudan slept in the past, thinking of Yanzhi's words, his heart felt tighter and colder. But thinking about losing Han Zifeng, Yan Man bit his lip and almost bite blood: If he lost him, he would be better than dead! Would rather die!
A woman with fireworks really cannot have love. Once she loves her, she cannot look back. Yan Man knows everything and knows himself, and he has turned back without a shore.
Seeing Han Zifeng again, Yan Man's heart felt like he was suffering from life-seeking.
The smoke man lost weight, and Han Zifeng's tenderness and care could not resist the smoke man's haggardness.
"Yan Man, give me some time to gain fame and fortune, come back and redeem yourself for you, and come back to marry you as your wife." Finally one night, Han Zifeng made such a vow. The man's tears fell between the smoke man's fingers.
Yan Man rushed over and kissed him in tears: "Zifeng, after this winter, I will let you go. The winter is too cold, I am afraid. I don't want you to leave me, I don't want you to leave me."
Han Zifeng hugged Yan Man speechlessly, and in the silence for a moment, he could hear the wind outside the window, which was getting colder.
That winter, Yan Man and Han Zifeng stayed together every day. Three meals a day, the man who smoked cooked them by himself, and delivered them to Han Zifeng's mouth. She was going to be his wife before she became his official wife. She was afraid that after this winter, he would go and never look back.
Han Zifeng didn't know her fear. He only carved his vows in his heart countless times in the love of such a woman. He is not a loving man, he believes that the man in the smoke deserves his life to look back.
The willow trees on the street finally sprouted goose yellow buds. The Yan Man bid farewell to Han Zifeng and gave him the last savings around him. It was an accident that she had lost everything for him.
Han Zifeng left.
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"Yan Man!" Yanzhi opened his eyes wide: "You won't..."
"I can." Yanman pulled Yanzhi's hand, "Sister, why do we have to accept our fate as women? I love him like this, he should come back, right? I just love him."
"Yanman." Yanzhi pulled Yanman into his arms, "In fact, whether it's going to advance or retreat, isn't it a dead end for you to do this?"
"I don't care, I just want him to love me, I don't allow him to abandon me. Whether it's life or death, I will accompany him."
3 months later, Yanman resisted death and guarded Han Zifeng for 3 months. But three months later, Han Zifeng did not come back. The smoke man began to feel desperate.
4
That evening, the smoke man leaned lazily on the carved railing, his clothes and hair were a little messy. Yanzhi looked at her not far away. No more words. Everything is already like this, and now she can no longer save Yan Man.
The young man stood downstairs at some point and asked him to see the Yan Man.
smoky man smiled disdainfully: "I'm just, is there anything you want to ask me for? Now, I won't accept customers."
smoky man raised his head: "Do you know Han Zifeng?"
smoky man's body shook, and his heart suddenly twitched: "Is he good? How is he?"
The name of
smoky, for the past three months, she bit her lips every day.
"He died." The man said, "Zifeng and I are fellow townsmen. We have been together during this period. In the past 3 months, he has taken on many errands and worked hard to earn money while studying hard. But his health is getting worse day by day. He often gets sick for no reason and refuses to see him. Three days ago, he could no longer hold on and struggled to go and go there in the middle of the night. Before he died, let me tell you that even if he had no choice in this life, he will definitely marry you in the next life."
The man opened his hand and said that it was not worth much, but it was his heart."
The man spread his palm, a white silver ring.
Yan Man didn't see it. Yan Man flew down from the tall building before the man opened his hand.
"Zifeng, I'll accompany you." She just shouted. The sound broke.
rouge only pulls the skirt of the man in the corner of the smoke man. Holding the pink silk empty-handed. Yanzhi's tears were "brushing" down, which were the tears she had lost for a long time. She thought there would never be another.
She didn't expect that she misread the ending of the story of Yan Man.
is not wrong. If Han Zifeng holds over and then goes to the list, who would say it well? Even if you marry a man who is swearing in confronted with criticism, you will inevitably be able to dissipate all of your enthusiasm one day. Perhaps by that time, even when the Yan Man's past was liquidated, the Yan Man's ending would not be better than this. There is also an extra burden of brokenness and sadness. There are certainly exceptions to
. But the so-called exception is a miracle that is difficult to encounter.
Thinking about this, Yan Man's jump can be considered a good ending.
At least, when she left, she was full of passionate belief in Han Zifeng, love, and life.
Half a year later, a new female baby in the brothel has picked the top card.
But he is only 16 years old, with a crystal clear young face, but his smile is already charming. It makes people feel sad.
infant moved to the room before the smoked boy. Yanzhi looked at it, chuckled lightly beside her, laughing tears.
