unit evaluation results are out, have you seen them?
"I didn't read it."
"Oh, it must still be without you. Do you believe it - why are you leaving?"
Wan Yu pretended not to hear, rushed out of the house, and let out a long sigh.
1
Wanyu works in a large state-owned enterprise. She used to have sharp edges and corners.
No one can touch any of her belongings without her permission, just like a female lion king protecting her territory;
What if someone asks her what she is doing? Where to go? When asked when she would come back, she would answer without hesitation "I want you to take care of it."
But now, her light is gone, she dare not refuse or respond, she will only give an emotionless smile. Therefore, her colleagues say she has a good personality, but only she knows that this is not her true self.
"How did I become like this? " she asked herself.
A handsome face appeared in Wanyu's mind, but her heart trembled.
2
Once upon a time, they broke up.
Mainly because he felt that Wanyu was too willful and could not listen to suggestions.
But Wanyu loved him, clung to him, and begged him not to leave.
He is very outstanding, sunny, handsome, romantic, and loves fitness. He works as a supervisor in a large Internet company and achieved financial freedom very early.
She remembered that he would always give her some little romance occasionally, which made Wanyu feel very happy. Whenever they had time, they would hold hands and walk along the river embankment, talking warm words of love.
His tenderness towards Wanyu seemed to melt her.
"Leave it there, let me do it." "Little darling, be obedient and give uncle a smile. " were the words he said to her most often.
Colleagues said that she was too capable to lose such a boyfriend who loved her and doted on her. Sometimes Wanyu seemed to have delusions and felt as if she had messed up everything.
In the end, Wan Yu surrendered, admitted her mistake to him, and chased him back. Wanyu was very excited and silently recited his request to herself in her heart. She decided to change herself and meet his requirements.
3
They dated again, but not just the two of them, but also a group of friends he brought. He did not discuss it with Wanyu in advance. The reason was that in order for Wanyu to make some high-level friends, he thought Wanyu's circle of friends was too low-level.
That night, Wan Yu felt uncomfortably trying to find a crack in the ground to crawl in. She didn't say a word the whole time, she just felt uncomfortable all over, as if something in her heart was being chewed up and then disintegrated.
That feeling made her Anxiety, restlessness.
She opened her mouth, wanting to tell him if he could stop doing this next time, or if he could communicate with her in advance.
But after experiencing the last breakup incident, she did not dare to lose her temper with him. She began to review herself inwardly. Was her position too small?
Wan Yu thought that since he was so good, his decision would definitely be right. She should thank him and learn to be content.
In the end, Wan Yu chose to swallow her anger, but this endurance was not the end, but the beginning of all sins.
He still asked Wanyu to do what he wanted, as small as what kind of hairstyle to do, what color clothes to wear, and what to eat for each meal.
Although Wanyu felt very uncomfortable, she still did everything. , and constantly review themselves to see if what they are doing is not good enough and has not met his requirements.
Wanyu gradually lost herself. What she didn't know was that love requires more tolerance and freedom than cold truth and judgment.
When he used his thoughts to control her again and again, when Wanyu humbled her head and lowered her self-worth again and again, the sweet sugar coating of love had been lifted and its flaws were revealed.
"I'm doing this for your own good." "Baby, you must listen to me."Why didn't you do as I said this time..."
Every sentence pierced Wanyu's heart like a knife; it was also like an ever-extending vine, constantly testing her boundaries; more like sugar-coated bombs. , constantly destroying her as an independent personality, Wanyu's last line of defense was broken.
He possessed and controlled, day after day,
She endured and obeyed, year after year.
4
Later, she. It was as if she had changed.
She blended into the crowd, and the edges and edges that were once unique to her became blurred.
Her best friend looked at her pitifully: "Wanyu, are you still you? "
She looked up at her best friend and fell silent.
In a daze, she saw herself handing out a complete heart with a smile, but the other party stepped on it with disdain.
She squatted down and was about to be stepped on. The broken heart was pieced together patiently, she raised her head, continued to smile and handed the heart over,
Soon, the broken heart was thrown back again
She was like a child who had done something wrong, quickly put it together, and She fought harder.
She handed it out again, and there were pieces all over the floor.
At this time, there was a disembodied voice that startled her.
"Wanyu, look at that clown"
"No, that's not it." Me, not me! "She shouted desperately.
At this time, her boyfriend came. He was still so sunny and handsome.
But Wanyu felt that his shadow in the sun was so scary, like a wizard who wanted to control everything, waving to Wanyu .
Wan Yu looked at him, trying to pretend to be happy as usual, but this time she didn't laugh.
"Have you forgotten what I told you?" You wear this style of clothing. Are you showing off your brain? You should..."
"Let's break up. "
After Wan Yu finished speaking, she walked past him, carrying a gust of wind. She seemed to hear a sentence,
"The wind can blow away a piece of white paper, but it cannot blow away a butterfly, because the meaning of life is Disobey. ”
