0 I never expected that I was just a joke.
As the red skirt disappeared from the corner of the stairs, my breathing became heavier and heavier, and a stream of passion surged to the top of my head. I really wanted to rush up and slap her twice, tear her mouth apart, and then kick her hard.
But this is just thinking about the brain's lack of oxygen. Good qualities prevent me from doing that kind of shrew-like behavior.
sat for a long time, my blood returned and my IQ returned, and I finally calmed down.
Release my fist that I had clenched for a long time, and then I found that there were red marks in the palm of my palm, and countless crescent-like nail marks seemed to show my anger.
01
Half an hour ago, the enchanting woman in red sat in front of me, and I was still proud.
Although I don’t have the big red lips like that woman and the figure like that woman, it’s better than me. Even the first sentence of a woman when she met was "Tsk tsk, it's really collagen on her face."
Although I didn't hear whether she was praising me or belittled me, it doesn't matter. At least I don't need to use heavy makeup like her to cover up the traces of time on her face.
More importantly, Lin Zheng loves me.
However, I haven't been proud for long, and the next sentence made my blood completely coagulate.
"You are not suitable for Lin Zheng." The woman opposite opened her red lips and slowly uttered these words.
I widened my eyes and stared at her carefully, not letting go of any micro-expressions on her face.
However, she was very calm and even her eyelashes didn't tremble.
She looked at me quietly with a surprised face.
After a while, she said again: "He is not worthy of you."
Before I could speak, she added another sentence: "I am his ex-girlfriend," the woman stared at me without a moment. Her chestnut pupils seemed to see through me, and bit her lips gently. She whispered, "But he... has never broken with me."
It seemed that there was a string in my mind, which made me feel so painful. I am sure that my face must be whiter than the white porcelain cup in front of me at this moment.
"Why should I believe you?" I heard my voice was very dull and dry.
She seemed to have expected it, and a smile appeared on the corner of her mouth, as if mocking and mocking: "I have been breaking up and reunited with him for eight years. What kind of person is he? Do you think I don't know yet?"
I was stunned.
02
Lin Zheng never told me about his past.
But, this does not mean that he has not been in the past.
Just imagine, how could a 27-year-old man not have passed? Besides, he is so handsome, I don’t believe he is the one Liu Xiahui who is calm in her arms.
He was unwilling to talk about his past. I just thought he might have been injured and didn't want to uncover the scars again.
I comfort myself, who hasn't been there? The past has been turned over, what's the point of entanglement?
I also have a past, like that guy, I have a crush on a boy who has not succeeded for four years. Isn’t it my past? It’s just that I hide it well, no one knows that my secret love is bitter.
When I saw the person I had a crush on walked into the security checkpoint without hesitation, leaving only a determined back, I knew that my crush on it ended in vain.
Before I could even muster up the courage to confess, I was about to fly to the other side of the ocean, leaving me alone here and feeling sad.
When I was sad, I stepped into a barber shop that looked quite high-end.
03
When I saw the front desk with a few strands of blue and yellow hair that exploded into the sky, I subconsciously thought about my bank card balance.
isn’t it just washing, cutting and blowing? How expensive is it? To put it bluntly, just change your vest, how can it be a barber shop?
Facts have proved that I am really too immature.
When the front desk plane said, "Hello, ma'am, you spent a total of 380 yuan. Do you need to apply for a membership card?"
I was stunned.
What? Just 380?
In the color-blocking glass mirror behind him, I saw my pretty short hair that I just cut.
is not dyed or desiccated, just cut it a few times, and it actually costs 380 yuan?
I also saw the barber who just cut my hair and was looking at me.
His eyes were dark and calm, just like the indifference he had when he cut my hair just now.
He only said one sentence throughout the whole process, "What do you want to cut it?"
I only replied, "You can do it, as long as it is shorter than now."
He had a expressionless face, stared at me in the mirror in front of me for a while, and I looked at him without any scruples.
He does not have the whiteness that cannot be seen indoors all year round. Instead, he has a slightly healthy wheat color, his eyes are pitch black, his eyes are slightly raised, and there is an inconspicuous mole in the corner of his left eye.
Well, this barber named Lin Zheng is a little handsome, but I just don’t know what the skills are like?
Although the front desk guy just told me that Lin Zheng is the chief hairstylist in the store, I still feel a little worried.
The first time I handed over my hair to an unfamiliar hairstylist, I couldn't help feeling nervous.
But then I felt relieved. The person I like can no longer see. Even if I become ugly, what can I do?
I heard the hairstylist next to me chatting with his customers without saying a word, but I was surprised quietly.
From the mirror, I saw Lin Zheng's slender fingers picking up my long hair, and then his hands raised and fell.
, no matter what it looks like, cut off three thousand worries, I, Xu Weiran, will still... love myself well.
and someone who doesn't know what it is that I like him is awkward.
04
Close your eyes and feel Lin Zheng’s fingers shuttle between my hair. Suddenly I thought of a very old lyric: Through your black hair, my hand.
I couldn't help laughing.
But I still didn't open my eyes, and I could feel a strong gaze falling on my face.
, I sat upright.
Lin Zheng's fingers were gentle, and I could only hear the "click" sound. The soothing music in the room made me drowsy.
I don’t know how long it has passed, and the hair dryer is whistling in my ears. The warm wind makes me feel so comfortable, and I don’t want to open my eyes.
Lin Zheng's fingers kept pulling between my hair.
As the sound of the hair dryer disappeared, the cloth around my neck was untied.
He held a soft brush and swept the broken hair on my neck carefully.
Then a "Okay." sounded softly in my ears.
I suddenly opened my eyes, and the woman in the mirror suddenly changed.
The playful short hair with slightly curly curls covered my head like clouds. On my little face without makeup, my big eyes, and the black and lulu's eyes made my skin look crystal clear and white.
The slender neck has no hair modification, it is completely exposed, smooth and fair.
Lin Zheng in the mirror was still looking at me calmly, not complacent about the work he made, as if he was watching something that had nothing to do with him.
"Thank you." I looked at him and said.
He nodded slightly, counted as a response, and then turned toward the sink.
05
"Ms.?" The front desk clerk successfully pulled my eyes back from the mirror.
I took a breath, then took out my phone and opened the payment code, ready to pay.
When I lowered my head, I saw a pair of slender legs in black jeans walking towards me from the corner of my eyes. I didn't look up, but just deliberately gave in to the side.
"What's the problem?" As soon as he looked up, Lin Zheng happened to ask this sentence to the front desk.
I saw a cigarette between his fingers, gently knocking on the table.
I glanced at him and complained in my heart, sharpening the knife to the cattle and sheep. Is this knife sharpened too fast, right? Wouldn’t it be that it would be so expensive to get it?
Golden finger? !
I glanced at his hand again.
The bones are thin, the knuckles are clear, the fingers are slender, and the nails are very short cut, which is a perfect comic hand.
I observed three seconds of silence for my wallet.
With a "ding" sound, I lost 380 in my card.
"Ms., please walk slowly, welcome next time." The front desk guy said the same lines.
I waved my hand, nodded to Lin Zheng, and turned around and walked out of the club.
Hmph, I will never come again next time.
The sun shines on me, losing the gracefulness of my long hair, and I feel that the whole top of my head is relaxed.
But my heart is undoubtedly heavy. I cut my hair and cut off my week's living expenses, and it hurts really.
I just graduated from college and started working for half a year before I even sat on the bench.
However, the ugly duckling also likes beauty, and hopes that the boy she likes has her own eyes.
touched my bare neck, and I turned around and looked at the barber shop I just stepped out.
's signature does not have those fancy gimmicks, and the simple black and white design hides light luxury and high-end.
The hairstylist named Lin Zheng casually leaned against the wall at the door, pressed the lighter "click" and lit the cigarette in his mouth.
Through the hazy smoke, I saw him looking towards me.
is only a few meters away, and I can see his indifferent and emotional face clearly.
touched his sight, and my heart skipped a beat inexplicably, and I could feel the hot ears.
then turned around and walked away quickly.
will never come here again. This barber shop that looks no different from those small street corner shops is not something new to me who can afford it.
06
people are all vanity. When my colleagues praised her for her beautiful hairstyle, I secretly rubbed my heart and bloomed for a long time.
These sisters are not as good as a newcomer as me. They have a deep experience and dare to pursue trendy fashion. Of course, more importantly, they have strong abilities and a considerable income.
The cute sisters took advantage of the weekend to rush to the south of the city and asked Lin Zheng to design their hairstyles. Of course they didn't forget to praise my hairstyle and praise Lin Zheng's craftsmanship.
Lin Zheng is very arrogant. Since he is a guest in the door, if he wants to design, he has to wait.
The sisters are waiting patiently for beauty.
After greeting the sisters sitting in the rest area, I planned to withdraw first.
When he turned around, he happened to see Lin Zheng looking up at this side. His gaze fell on my face, and then he moved away without hesitation.
is still the cold face. He skillfully picked up a strand of long hair, and the scissors moved, and the broken hair was scattered.
Focused and serious men are indeed very eye-catching.
Lin Zheng's craftsmanship will really not disappoint. The sisters who went to work on Monday made the company's colleagues lit up.
Girls from other departments took advantage of lunch time to find out where to cut their hair.
project team leader Cheng Jie told her the address and said, "You will report Weiran's name at that time and will arrange for you to have a hairstylist Lin."
I almost choked with a bite of rice. What, what does it have to do with me?
Sister Cheng blinked and said nothing.
Just got on the bus after get off work, I received a message requesting to add WeChat on my phone.
The avatar is a hand with distinct joints, with a cigarette between the fingers, and the smoke rises.
My heart suddenly beated uncontrollably, unbelievable and a little looking forward to it.
07
almost accepted it, and soon his message came back.
"I am Lin Zheng."
is really him.
I was a little nervous and nervous.
doesn't understand why he wants to add me.
"What's wrong with you..."
was about to send it out, and his second message followed.
"I want to know you."
is simple and direct enough.
But I am a step-by-step employee. I seem to be from two worlds with him. Why do I know me?
I couldn't figure it out, so I simply stopped thinking about it, so I asked stupidly:
"Is it... Is hair cut a discount?" The upper part of the
dialog box is always showing that it is being input, but after several minutes, I received his reply:
"As long as it is you, it's okay."
just a few words, I admit that I was flirting with him.
The cheeks were hot until you got off the bus.
08
It seems that I can’t get together with him.
He was still sleeping in the middle of the morning, and I was already at work; he was busy in the afternoon, and I was busy; he was still busy after get off work in the evening.
Sometimes, it is common to be busy until eleven or twelve o'clock.
He said that there is nothing to do with this industry, as long as customers come, they must be received.
is nothing now. There are more people before the Chinese New Year and there is no time to eat.
In order to make me worth it, he adjusted his day of rest every week to Sunday.
I said, isn't this good, right? After all, there will be relatively more customers on Sundays. Wouldn’t you lose the source of customers if you rest like this?
But he said, "I finally met once a week, and I want to cherish the time I spent with my girlfriend."
girlfriend?
My heart is beating hard, and my ear tips are all hot.
"But..." I want to say I know nothing about him.
"What? Don't want to be my girlfriend?" He seemed to see my thoughts, "Actually, if you contact me slowly, you will understand me." What do you think of
? Lin Zheng is not as deserted as he appears. He is very careful. He remembers the dishes I like and my taboos. He spoils me very much and cares about me as a child.
In the past two months, although we have met only a few times, we have had a great time together.
09
Sometimes Lin Zheng stares at a certain void in a daze, and there seems to be a deep sorrow in his eyes that cannot be dissolved.
I guess he should be a person with a story.
After all, a 27-year-old man, I don’t believe he is a novice in love.
, but he never mentioned it on his own initiative, nor did I ask.
I am very open-minded. His past does not need to be explained to me, but I am concerned about our future.
But, I don't mind, it doesn't mean that anyone doesn't mind.
Just as my relationship with Lin Zheng became deeper and deeper, his ex-girlfriend came to him.
Unexpectedly, Lin Zheng likes such a woman.
enchanting, charming, with a pair of attractive eyes.
and me are two extremes.
I don’t understand, how could Lin Zheng like a simple and simple girl like me?
She said, Lin Zheng and I are not suitable.
She said, Lin Zheng is not worthy of me.
She said, Lin Zheng and her have never been broken...
Her red lips opened and closed in front of my eyes. I hated her destined to win.
I know very well that she is trying to provoke my relationship with Lin Zheng.
What is suitable or not, and whether or not, is not up to her, I believe Lin Zheng’s feelings for me, because you can’t hide your eyes if you like someone.
However, she said she had eight years of relationship with Lin Zheng, and the string that tense in my heart broke with a "pop".
10
I don’t know how I came to Lin Zheng’s barber shop in Chengnan. I only remember that after getting off the taxi, my steps were still empty and my mind was blank.
I didn't go in, just sat on the chair under the parasol at the door.
It was probably the front desk guy who told him, and soon he brought a glass of water.
"Ranran, drink a sip of water first, it's warm." He handed it to me and sat opposite me.
In the evening of summer, the parasol cannot cover the heat, but I feel a little chill after a while.
I looked at him in a daze. I wanted to see him more clearly, but I couldn't see it clearly no matter how hard I looked.
"What's wrong with you? What's going on? I'm so pale?" he asked three times.
"Lin Zheng, you...love me, right?" My voice was hoarse as if it was a fire.
"Do you still need to ask? Am I not obvious enough to you?" He glanced at the cup, "You want me to feed you?"
I grabbed the cup and poured it in big mouthfuls. The water droplets rolled down from my lips and dripped onto my shirt.
Put down the cup, Lin Zheng pulled a tissue and wiped the corner of my lips, "Why do you have to be so anxious when you drink water?"
seemed to have recovered, and I glanced at the store, "Are you busy?"
"Well, there is a perm, Xiao Zhang is washing her, and it will be almost done when she trims her later."
"Can you leave early tonight?" I asked.
Lin Zheng looked at me with dark eyes straight, and after a while, he said, "Is there something wrong?"
"Yes."
"Okay, wait for me for a while."
11
Through the glass window, I could see Lin Zheng cutting the female customer's hair.
He always concentrates on doing things, as if immersed in his own world, and in front of him is nothing more than a work of art that he wants to trim better.
I put my arm on my pillow and looked at him without blinking.
I remembered last month that I bought an air conditioner in the rental house and made an appointment with the master to install it on Saturday. Lin Zheng found out that he came from the south of the city early in the morning. I was surprised why he would come, but he said that he was worried about me being alone at home because the air conditioner installation master was two men.
That day, he accompanied us to wait for the master to install it before leaving.
I remembered the heavy rain last month, and the wires suddenly shorted the circuit, the light bulb burned, and nothing could be seen, and nothing could be done. I posted a copy on my Moments: It was raining all night, and I encountered a power outage when night blindness was ill.
As a result, after eleven o'clock, Lin Zheng called me to open the door for him. I fumbled to the door for him to open the door just by relying on the faint light in my phone. He carried a portable light and a candle in his hand.
The umbrella fell a circle of water drops outside the door.
Think about it carefully, Lin Zheng is a person who doesn’t like to express himself very much and always does more than he says.
"Let's go, take you to dinner." Lin Zheng changed into a white shirt, not the black shirt he used to work just now.
12
The sun has set, and the red clouds in the horizon are faintly golden, which is very beautiful.
Lin Zheng held my hand and we walked to the food street of the International Trade Center.
I was in a bad mood and I couldn’t eat it in a hot weather, so I drank a bowl of black plum soup, and Lin Zheng also ate a bowl of rice with a bowl of rice.
When Lin Zheng drove me back, I was still in a bad mood, just leaning against the car window to look at the changing street scene outside the window.
The light from the street light slowly passed through the car window on Lin Zheng’s face and body.
Along the way, Lin Zheng frowned and didn't say anything.
Back to the residence and turned on the air conditioner, the heat in the body was dispelled a lot, but the depression in my heart could not be dispelled.
I don’t know if I should ask Lin Zheng, but what results will I get after asking?
I looked at Lin Zheng smoking outside the balcony in a tangled manner.
He turned his back to the glass door, his body was thin, I couldn't see his expression clearly, but I felt that he was shrouded in loneliness and loneliness, as if he was going to blend with the night.
A cigarette was finished smoking, and Lin Zheng and others had a little smell of smoke before they pushed the door in.
I shrank in the corner of the sofa and flipped through the mobile phone web page absent-mindedly.
He sat next to me, took away the phone in my hand, and then turned off the floor lamp.
The room was dark in an instant.
"Why do you need to turn off the light?" I asked softly.
Lin Zheng didn't speak, but I could feel his slight breathing in the darkness.
Half a moment, his voice was mute: "It's too bright, I don't know how to face you..."
Moonlight shines through the glass window in the small living room, and Lin Zheng, who was hidden in the half light and half dark, was extremely sad like a silhouette.
I reached out and gently held Lin Zheng's hand.
His hands were not as warm as usual, and at this time, his fingertips were a little cool.
"Lin Zheng..." I called him softly, but I didn't know what to say.
He pinched my finger and sighed, feeling a little powerless: "You will know some things sooner or later... I just deceive myself from hiding them..."
"..."
"She is here to find you, right?" Lin Zheng asked.
"Hmm. How do you know?"
"Guessed. We have been together for six months, and you have never come to me like today."
"She is..."
"Devil." Lin Zheng gritted his teeth and two words popped out.
13
I hate Zhang Ziyan, she tangles me like a ghost, shackles my breathing.
It has been four years, and I have traveled to many cities, but no matter how far I hide, she will find me.
19 when I was just in my freshman year, but something happened at home.
An overloaded van overturned on the way back to the countryside from the county town. None of the 16 people survived, including my parents and grandfather.
There are people without breathing and colorful New Year’s goods everywhere.
The moment before, I bought New Year's goods and was excited to return home, but the next moment, the car was destroyed and the car was killed.
didn't have time to hold the driver accountable for serious overloading. I only knew that the moment I received the message, the person I dearest and closest was already separated by yin and yang.
I have a hometown, but I don’t have a home anymore.
Later, I worked in a bar to earn living expenses.
At that time, I met Zhang Ziyan.
She is six years older than me, very rich, has her own company, but her family life seems not very happy.
can be guessed from the fact that she gets drunk in the bar every night.
For some reason, I caught her eyes.
She often orders my wine, so I took a lot of her tips.
At that time, I was young and immature. I didn’t understand that what others treated me was just a purpose. But I took it as others valued me and took it for granted.
Later, she learned that I was still studying and actually wanted to fund my tuition.
I was a little flattered, but I didn't dare to accept it.
After all, I have no support and I am not a relative of her. What can she do to me?
I politely refused, but she didn't seem to care. She still ordered my wine and ordered the most expensive wine. During that time, I was the one with the highest commission in the bar.
Later, I had a lot of contact with her. She often drove the Maserati to the campus gate to pick me out for dinner.
Gradually, I heard the rumors on campus, and they said, I was kept.
In fact, from her care for me bit by bit, I can feel that she is different to me.
It’s just that I still can’t accept being kept by a woman.
After all, she is a married woman with a family.
In my lonely life, she is just a sister who is older than me.
14
I used my studies as an excuse to deliberately alienate her. She seemed to have noticed it, but she did not show it.
After the junior year, I did not go to the bar again, but instead found an internship company.
But unexpectedly, the boss of the internship company was her friend.
That's it, she and I have another intersection.
At the wine table, she asked the boss to give me more advice, and the boss smiled faintly: Your people will be reused.
The three words "your person" made me feel ashamed. I wanted to explain, but they were all covered up by her without a trace.
Later, I really became her person.
That night, she checked in for me and made everything a certain fact.
How can I do such a thing with a married woman?
I am ashamed and regretful, but I cannot change everything that has happened.
She doesn't care. She said that she and her husband had long been together, but they just kept it on the surface for the benefit of the family.
Moreover, her husband also has women outside, and she can also have a man she likes.
Her words shattered my views.
I can't accept it at all.
The teachings of my parents and school education since childhood made me unable to accept being a mistress who ruins other people's families.
During that time, I was in great pain. I was afraid that things would be exposed and I would be pointed at by others.
15
I didn’t go to that internship company again, nor did I do any work, and I hurried in school every day.
Looking at my classmates taking the postgraduate entrance examination, those who take the offer get the offer, those who go abroad, I live like a walking corpse.
But no matter what I do, I can never get rid of Zhang Ziyan.
She would come to me from time to time, I didn’t want to go, but she threatened me that if she didn’t go, she would tell the school about me and her.
Amid the strange eyes of my classmates, I had to get into her car.
I am deeply trapped in the midst of drunkenness and dreams, and cannot extricate myself.
Sometimes, I really want to just go on a daze like this, not thinking about morality or the world.
But the only conscience in my heart has not yet been eliminated. I hate Zhang Ziyan and even more.
For Zhang Ziyan, she is just a heartless woman. She doesn’t love me, she only loves herself, what she greedy for is my face and my body.
However, I couldn't satisfy her selfish desires. When I discovered that I was just one of her many toys, I collapsed.
After getting my graduation certificate, I fled that city.
I did not do professional-related work, but became an apprentice in a barber shop in a small town.
Gradually, I fell in love with this craft, after all, I have to rely on it to make a living.
Just when I thought I could live with peace of mind far away from Zhang Ziyan, I ignored that Zhang Ziyan was simply a devil.
I don’t know how she found me, but she told me that she and other men had broken up and just wanted to live a good life with me.
I said, you still have a husband.
She still doesn't care: the interests of the two families are inextricably linked to each other, and one moves the whole body. So, divorce is impossible. Anyway, everyone is playing their own things, aren’t they safe?
She is shameless, but I am also shameless, and just entangled with her in a unclear way.
16
I despise myself like this, I once thought of committing suicide.
But when I walked into the waist-deep river, I didn’t have the courage to continue walking.
I have no relatives in this world. If I were like this, I wonder if my parents in heaven would forgive me?
So, at that moment, I finally backed down.
Zhang Ziyan gave me the house, but I didn't want it, she threw it to me directly, but I didn't even look at it.
I maintain my little bit of pitiful self-esteem and don’t want to be manipulated by a woman I don’t love.
I guard my small rental house and earn my living expenses with my skills.
I think more about getting rid of her, having a normal relationship, and living a normal life.
I met a girl who was traveling with me while working in a barber shop.
The girl has a good impression of me, and I want to get in touch with it too.
After getting off work, we will make an appointment to have dinner, go shopping, and watch movies.
When I was about to confess my love to her, Zhang Ziyan appeared. She threatened the girl not to be a third party while I was away. The girl was frightened by her and later left the barber shop.
I asked her angrily, but she said shamelessly that I can only belong to her.
She even said that she could send me to further studies and invest in opening a store for me, as long as I am willing to stay by her side.
I refused.
I just want to get rid of her, however, all I can do is escape.
has been to several cities, and my skills are becoming more and more skillful.
But my heart is getting more and more closed. I don’t love her, but I don’t love anyone.
is her, which makes my life a mess and makes me lose the qualification to enjoy love.
Until I came to this city, until that afternoon, I met Xu Weiran.
can't say what it feels like. I just like Xu Weiran's eyes, which are very clean and pure, just like the clear sky after the first rain, without any impurities.
I know that my stagnant heart has a little bit of turbulence.
But I know better that a dirty person like me is not worthy of her.
17
I thought that Xu Weiran and I were just a match. Like anyone else, she was just a passerby in my life.
When she paid, I saw her dilemma.
I know very well that the consumption in our store is not something she can afford.
Actually, I felt this way when I was giving her a hairstyle.
From her hair that she had never taken care of before, I guess she might not understand the barber shop at all, so she was taken to me by Ah Huang in a daze.
And I am the chief hairstylist, how can the fees be low?
But she asked nothing and gave me her hair completely.
She trusts me so much.
I didn’t dye her hair, perm her hair, and did not do any fee-based items. I just cut her hair short based on her face shape, her temperament, and what I thought.
Looking at her appearance in the mirror, I was amazed for a moment.
But I didn't dare to express my thoughts, but just looked at her calmly with joy hidden in her eyes.
I concluded that she would not come again when she knew how much she was going to pay.
But unexpectedly, on the second weekend, she came again and she actually brought her colleagues from her company.
I saw her again.
My heart throbbed uncontrollably again.
She didn't stay for long and left quickly.
I saw her out from the glass mirror.
While doing hair for her colleagues, I learned her name and her job.
is the same as I thought, she is as simple and beautiful as she appears.
I pretended to be innocent and told her colleague that I could enjoy the VIP price if I could report Xu Weiran's name in the future.
But it seems that I have not stored Xu Weiran’s WeChat.
Her colleague was very enthusiastic and quickly wrote her mobile number to me.
That night, holding her mobile phone number, I hesitated for a long time, and I didn’t know if I should add it.
I was scared and frightened, especially when I thought about the fact that I had been confused with Zhang Ziyan in recent years, I was at a loss.
But I met such a beautiful girl I like in my heart while I have nothing to do, and I really don’t want to give up.
After a day and a night of painful struggles, I finally mustered up the courage to send Xu Weiran the WeChat message requested to add.
I think if she refuses, then I will give up from now on.
But unexpectedly, she accepted me.
Even though she didn't expect that she actually asked me stupidly if it was a discount for haircut.
I couldn't help laughing.
18
I walked into her world bit by bit, caring for, caring for and spoiling her as much as I can.
And Xu Weiran's heart and eyes are full of me. She trusts me, depends on me, and loves me without reservation.
The heart that has been frozen for a long time is gradually melting as if it has entered spring.
It turns out that loving someone you like is such a magical and beautiful feeling.
It turns out that being loved by the person you love is so happy.
But for many nights, I numb my nerves with alcohol .
I am afraid, I am afraid that my disbelief will be known by Xu Weiran, and I am afraid that the happiness I have worked hard to create will collapse.
I deceived myself and thought that as long as I didn’t say it, Xu Weiran wouldn’t know. Wait until the time is right, I will tear my ugliness apart. Xu Weiran, who loves me deeply, will definitely not abandon me.
But, I forgot, I was immersed in the beauty and actually forgot Zhang Ziyan.
Zhang Ziyan is a devil with a beautiful skin. She is rich, powerful and powerful. In her eyes, I am just an ant that survives. How could she make me feel better?
As long as she wants, she will always hold my lifeline tightly.
Seeing Xu Weiran, who should have met tomorrow and Sunday, come to me with a pale face, I knew that Zhang Ziyan had appeared.
The dirty thing I once tore open was torn apart and appeared bloodily in front of Xu Weiran.
I was in pain and couldn't extricate myself from pain.
I don’t know how such a beautiful girl can accept such a disgusting and dirty me?
I am not worthy of her love.
Since I met her, I dared and could not desecrate her beauty.
Every time I send her home, no matter how late I am, I will leave. I am afraid that I can't control my heart, and I am even more afraid that I will hurt her.
Maybe, a person like me is not worthy of her love at all.
19
19
Lin Zheng told me a very long story.
Although his voice was dull, I could feel his body trembling slightly.
He suppressed pain, discomfort, and sadness, and narrated it almost coldly.
I listened in a daze and sat in a daze. I don’t know how long it took. The room was very quiet, and I was the only one breathing.
I don't know anything when Lin Zheng left.
The tears on my face were already cold, and the air conditioner made me tremble all over.
I can't imagine what kind of life Lin Zheng experienced.
Losing a relative is already sad enough, but in just a few years of youth, it was destroyed by a married woman.
How could there be such a shameless woman? Keeping the bowl and looking at the pot is a blessing for all people.
If you have money and power, do you really not take social opinion seriously?
20
The next day, it was dawn and I woke up.
Watching the morning light penetrate into the gaps in the curtains bit by bit, I quickly got up and put on clothes and wash.
I decided to go to Lin Zheng.
I went around overnight last night.
I am not the Virgin and I have no ability to redeem anyone.
I sympathize with his unfortunate experience alone, and I also hate his unclear relationship with Zhang Ziyan.
But, I only know that this should not be his fault, why does he always escape?
evasion cannot solve any problem at all, so why not face it directly?
is afraid of things being exposed and afraid of others' eyes. The more this happens, the more shameless people are holding on to your weakness and doing whatever they want.
I want to tell Lin Zheng that only by facing it bravely can we completely get rid of Zhang Ziyan. I don’t believe that under public opinion, people like Zhang Ziyan who corrupt public order and good customs can still live a reckless life?
How can she have face in front of family business and family? Did she really think she could cover the sky with one hand?
In the new media era, did she really think that her fig leaf would always cover up her ugliness and dirtyness?
21
Just as I got off the subway, I received Lin Zheng’s WeChat when I walked towards his rental house.
He said, he left, making me forget him, he doesn't deserve love.
I called him immediately, and he had blocked me and deleted my phone and WeChat.
I ran towards his room like crazy, but I could no longer knock on his door.
I squatted at the door weakly, holding my arms and crying uncomfortablely.
I was angry that I was not fighting and stepped on my self-esteem into the dust.
Why not be braver?
Do you know that your heart is kind and you are not dirty at all. Who says you are not worthy of love?
22
I published Zhang Ziyan’s ugly story online in anonymous form, which immediately attracted the attention of netizens and soon became the hot search list.
Zhang Ziyan would not have thought that I did it, because she was always sure that Lin Zheng, who was inferior, would not tell me such a thing.
Social public opinion forced her to apologize for her actions online, and even in order to maintain a hypocritical harmony, she and her husband also publicly showed their love, and the stocks of her family business fell sharply.
A few months later, news of her divorce and a fight with her husband for property was revealed online.
I didn't care about these messages, but I saw that she looked haggard in the photo, and she no longer had the sexy charm and smugness she had when she met me.
23
I don’t know if Lin Zheng has seen these messages. If he sees them, will he feel better?
In the past year, I have been to the south of the city many times. Sometimes I would sit in the coffee bar not far away, looking quietly at the door of the barber shop through the large glass window, hoping to see the figure in a black shirt leaning against the wall casually and lit the cigarette in his mouth.
However, hope was lost again and again while waiting, and no one knew where he went.
No one knows whether he is life or death.
He was like a gust of wind, gently brushing through the ends of my hair, just proving that he had been here.
——(completed)
(all pictures are deleted from the Internet)
