I know that the survival rate of brain metastasis in breast cancer is extremely low, not to mention that in two and a half years, brain metastasis has recurred twice, brain hernia once once, craniotomy surgery once, stereoradiotherapy and whole-brain radiotherapy once each, and this time it recurred again, so I made a decision, that is, the rest of my life, to allow myself to survive with quality.
Good night, dear friends, thank you for meeting.
I really can't figure out why my feet still get ulcerated, bleeding and painful after being stopped for a week.
I remember that in October last year, when I had brain hernia surgery, I stopped all the medicines. Soon my ulcerated toes recovered, but this time, there seemed to be no sign of improvement and I still had bleeding and ulceration.
I'm sorry I didn't tell you. I've stopped all the medicines. I didn't want to tell you about this so soon, but after chatting with one of my sisters yesterday, I still think I should tell my friends.
Discontinuation of the medicine does not mean that I have given up the opportunity to live. I want to live, but I also know that if I continue to treat, I cannot afford the huge treatment costs. Even if there is a way, how long can I last?
In fact, when this relapse, I knew that after treatment, I could only live for a longer period of time, but what do I have to bear?
It took me a whole year to get better from brain hernia and whole-brain radiotherapy, but the result was a recurrence again. I was not afraid, and I even felt calmly. I just wanted to do what I wanted to do for the rest of my days, with a quality survival, but to treat it until I can't even walk, which would be harder than death to accept.
Besides, I don’t think I will leave this world, anything may happen. Now I just want to do what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I have no fear, no fear, no helplessness, and only peace. If the ending is already destined, then all I have to do is live my own every day and not leave any regrets for myself.
I'm sorry I didn't tell you. I've stopped all the medicines. I didn't want to tell you about this so soon, but after chatting with one of my sisters yesterday, I still think I should tell my friends.
also hopes that my friends can understand my choice. If there are not many days left, I just want to live happily without regrets. Death is no longer important to me. It is important that I don’t want to waste every day I live.
Maybe when I completely relax and when I no longer consider the issue of life and death, everything will get better and better, everything is absolutely absolutely true, and I have confidence in myself.
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