Even if I take my work home, the effect of work is halved than before, because I will work and think randomly. No one at home sees it, so I will think unscrupulously. When I cry, I will take a break before continuing to work.

15, I have been changing jobs and the longest job I have gone to the factory to work, and it seems that I have not done it for more than 4 months. Even if I take my work home, the effect of work is halved than before, because I will work and think randomly. No one at home sees it, so I will think unscrupulously. When I cry, I will take a break before continuing to work.

Some people think I am uncertain, some people think I am lazy and don’t want to work, but in fact I am powerless and unable to do these jobs. At the beginning, I always cried at work, had heavy mental burdens, and was late. Later, I made mistakes at work, either forgot this or that.

Yes, patients with depression have become weaker in physical strength and will than ordinary people, and they will have any work to do, whether it is physical or mental labor, they cannot last for a long time.

Severe forgetfulness and physical decline are due to long-term lack of sleep. How many bosses or bosses will hire an employee who is always late or forgets to do things?

No matter what, I persisted for 15 years and never took the step of my brother and Wang Di because I have relatives, friends and classmates around me.

They always lend a helping hand when I need it. They will always silently care about and protect me behind their backs, give me time to settle down, give me space to think deeply, and believe that I can get out by myself.

Therefore, mild depression, fear of social interaction and love to cry, will not have much impact on life, but when you have severe symptoms of insomnia and amnesia, it will have an impact on your work.

Someone may ask: "What made me persist for so long and not fall down?" The following conditions may provide treatment for some patients with depression.

First condition: life goal

This is the most important first condition. When my daughter left, my son was only one year old, and then his father left and we got married to others. Under the double blow of

, if I remain indifferent, it must be because I am cold-blooded and have no emotions like a machine.

Yes, at first I just started crying and thinking about it alone at home every day, and then the other party’s father wanted to pick up my son.

"It's hard to find someone to take your son with me, should I raise it?!" This is what the child's grandfather said.

"You don't want him, I'll give him to someone!!" This is what the child's father said.

The child is only one year old. I have worked hard to give birth to him. How could I bear to let him leave me like this and live such an uncertain life. I stay by my side, at least I am his biological mother and will not abuse him.

raises children to adulthood and becomes my life goal. This goal defeated all the symptoms on me and allowed me to stick to this day.

The second condition: life motivation

I decided to keep my children by my side and raise them myself. This is also a decision that all relatives do not agree with. Therefore, I rarely bother them. I have to walk on my own path.

But they won’t understand. Without this decision, maybe I have disappeared into this world like my brother and Wang Di.

How did an ordinary person suffering from severe depression survive with a one-year-old child alone? People who have never experienced it will never understand, and will never understand how difficult it is.

When I applied for a nanny, someone said, "You have to bring your son to do it. Then is I asking you to come here to take care of my child or your child?!"

The father of the child avoids the child's support. When I had no job or income, I rely on bank credit cards and online loans to live. No one will provide funding for no reason, so my debts have not been paid off yet.

Making money and raising children has become my motivation for life.

The third condition: Have your own interests and hobbies

Someone may ask: "For 15 years, you have been alone and rarely socializing. You will always have time alone when you work and take care of your children. What are you doing during these times?"

"I take online classes, I sing, and I dance. Although no one appreciates it, I enjoy myself."

Yes, without socializing, life always goes on. In the first 10 years, I made money to take care of my children. When my children go to school, I will have time to be alone.

When my children go to school, I also took online classes at home. I re-enrolled in my studies that I had not completed before. It took 5 years to take the college entrance examination for self-study because my memory declined. , I have to spend more time memorizing the exam content.

When I was tired and sleepy in online classes, I sing and occasionally danced, so that life would pass.

So far, I still occasionally cry for no reason, still occasionally insomnia, and forget something. Even so, I still have to make money to pay off my debts, and still have to take care of my children alone, but I believe that time is really a panacea that can dilute many things. I am not smiling now, but at least compared to 15 years ago, I am calm now.

When I was in a low mood, I also had the urge to commit suicide like my brother and Wang Di, but in the end I suppressed my thoughts of concern and responsibility for my children.

People who are fighting depression: "When I find myself in a low mood, think more about the people you love and the people you love in this world. ”