hasn't posted headlines for several days. I've been very busy and tired recently and I have no energy to write anymore.
I have suffered from bipolar disorder for more than 20 years and have exhausted my life energy. Even though I am still young now and am in my prime in my thirties, I still lack energy. And I have been in a state of tension, my body is tight and my mentality is nervous, and my energy is consumed faster.
Although it is bipolar disorder, the number of manic attacks and the duration are really not long, and most of the time it is a depression attack. Therefore, I have been in a state of powerlessness for a long time. I am very tired of doing anything. I don’t want to do it well. I feel that my normal life every day has exhausted my energy. Therefore, I need a lot of rest to maintain a stable state without emotional breakdown.
I am in charge of personnel recruitment in the company. I feel pretty good after more than ten days, but I am too tired physically and mentally. In fact, the work intensity is not high at all and the pressure is not high, but I still feel very tired and there is no way, this is how depressed people are.
I don’t care how much money I earn. Just give me 1,500 yuan a month enough for me to eat, but I hope the work pressure will not be too high. It would be great if you have something to do, at least it would be the life of ordinary people, and I was very satisfied.
Just like this, it will become more and more difficult to get married, and it will be further and further away from me. In today's society, having a car, a house and a deposit is standard, but I have nothing and still owe hundreds of thousands of foreign debts. Because of physical reasons, you cannot work at a high intensity, so it is very difficult to make money quickly.
But time is unforgivable, and I am getting older every year, and I will be thirty-four soon. Even if you have nothing to lack at this age, it is difficult to find someone who is satisfied with it, let alone me?
Think about the future, it’s really pessimistic! This is my destiny, just accept it calmly
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is very tired, I want to have a good sleep.
