Do you still remember Xu Meijing?
This queen who was once as famous as Faye Wong, has completely different fates. Anyone who mentions her will not feel a sense of respect and regret coming to his heart.
Last year, the former Chinese diva started an online live broadcast, and the result was very bleak, with less than 30 viewers.
Nowadays, if you search for Xu Meijing's name on major video platforms, you can hardly see any splashes.
Xu Meijing, who left many classic works such as "The Sunshine Always After the Storm" and "Moonlight in the City", has faded out of the vision and memories of most people.
Once upon a time, she was praised by the media as the "The Queen of Heaven Killer" ;
The first record of her debut defeated the "King of Heaven" Andy Lau;
As soon as Li Zongsheng heard her voice, he immediately begged to sign a contract with her. Why did such a legendary figure as
Why did suddenly retreat at its peak, and even be rumored to have suffered from schizophrenia, and fall into such a desolate situation step by step?
Her voice has healed countless people, but in the end she cannot heal her self who fell into the swamp of love like a moth.
used to be the queen,
But Faye Wong's free and easy
996, Xu Meijing from Singapore was like a thunder, disturbing the entire Hong Kong and Taiwan music scene.
Her two albums were highly noticed by the critics and had amazing sales as soon as they were released.
A song "Repent" It seems to be quiet but it is also tender and sad. The sentence " Rather than making you haggard in my love, I would rather you regret it after making mistakes" sings the sadness and relief of how many people love but cannot.
Another song "All people return home at night" , "Everyone is, love is not at all certain", accompanied countless single men and women who are confused and lost at night.
Xu Meijing's quiet and cold voice instantly conquered all the picky ears.
A year later, two great gods in Hong Kong's lyrics, Lin Xi and Huang Weiwen, wrote songs for her one after another. The unstandard Cantonese language did not affect Xu Meijing's voice charm at all.
A song "The Beautiful City" and a song "Knowingly Breaking", which is still praised as a masterpiece of "is worth half of the Hong Kong pop music scene" .
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I remember the first time I heard the song "The Legend of the City", I thought I had dug up Faye Wong's niche and unpopular treasure.
Speaking of which, Xu Meijing and Faye Wong do have many similarities.
The same ethereal voice, cold temperament, serious album cover, and even the "funny" stage styles at some stages are very similar.
The famous musician Xu Changde once commented that Xu Meijing "is another Faye Wong" .
Indeed, Xu Meijing, who was at the peak of her debut, became a "Queen Queen Killer". The number of awards won on the Hong Kong Golden Melody List was almost comparable to that of Faye Wong, who was very popular at the time.
Everyone thinks that Xu Meijing, who is so popular and powerful as , will definitely become the next legend.
However, more than 20 years later, Faye Wong is still an immortal myth in the music industry. She has been on the Spring Festival Gala and sang for many big IP movies.
, but Xu Meijing is like evaporating in the world, without any news.
Her fall, can be said to be the destined ending of a woman who is hurt by love and has no regrets.
is different from Faye Wong, who has the same bumpy love journey but knows how to get away immediately. Xu Meijing lacks free and easy and decisiveness.
The obsession with not being able to love makes her miss opportunities and turning points in her career again and again until she withered.
At the most popular period, Lee Chongsheng immediately went to Singapore to ask her to join her company and tailor an album for Xu Meijing.
At that time, this was a career springboard for many singers who were eager for, but Xu Meijing refused without hesitation.
Because, she fell in love with her record producer - Chen Jiaming, a married man.
is obsessed with it,
just reveals the opportunity to hurt yourself again and again
In terms of talent, Chen Jiaming was once called "Li Zongsheng of Singapore".
In addition to Xu Meijing's two high-quality debut albums, Zhang Xinzhe's "Over Fire", Wu Qixian's "Too Silly", Anita Mui's "Love You Thousands of Times in Life" , these popular old songs are all written by him.
1993, 19-year-old Xu Meijing hummed a tune in order to relieve her nervousness while waiting in the background of a singing competition.
At this time, a man walked in and exclaimed excitedly "Singapore can never find a sound as beautiful as you!"
From then on, Chen Jiaming became Xu Meijing's gold medal producer. He appreciated her, cultivated her, and achieved her, but he eventually ruined her.
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Young feelings and worship always come quickly and fiercely. In the process of intimate cooperation, Xu Meijing gradually fell in love with this talented "Bo Le".
At this time, Chen Jiaming had already formed his own family , but for the next seven or eight years, he has maintained an unknown underground relationship with Xu Meijing.
During this period, countless promises and countless despair were like a deadly deep well, absorbing all Xu Meijing's enthusiasm little by little.
Can't learn to get out of here, and I forget what reason is.
She placed her best years on an illusory love, but she did not realize: true love gives you responsibility and loyalty, not lies and weakness.
Finally, after seven years of entanglement, the original love triangle developed into a more deformed Love triangle .
In 2000, Chen Jiaming admitted that he fell in love with Xu Meijing's assistant Huang Fengyi.
In the end, this farce ended with the assistant being overwhelmed and choosing to commit suicide. Perhaps it was a painful blow that woke Xu Meijing up.
She made up her mind and after launching her last album "Static" , she said she would withdraw from the entertainment industry from now on.
But when the reporter scolded Chen Jiaming as a "scumbag", she would subconsciously defend him "I am in front of the Taiwan Strait, he is behind the scenes. It is unfair for you to say this to him."
Two years later, Xu Meijing left the scarred Singapore and settled in Taiwan.
But in her heart, this person has never really let go.
In Taiwan, Xu Meijing met the popular idol drama actor and the new generation of love song prince Yuan Yaofa.The two gradually fell in love and soon got married.
Unfortunately, the sweet time is short. After marriage, the two often quarreled. Yuan Yaofa, whose career declined, changed drastically and even abused his wife.
Just as Xu Meijing was exhausted, Chen Jiaming appeared again.
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He excitedly told her that he had divorced and returned to being single, "We can finally be together!"
Another time, Xu Meijing chose to fight for him. She took the initiative to file for divorce from Yuan Yaofa and returned to Chen Jiaming, but found that this was just a futility of repeating the same mistake.
Chen Jiaming, there was no divorce at all. After going around in circles, I didn’t expect that it would be a big dream.
This time, Xu Meijing's spirit was completely destroyed.
In the long ten years of entanglement with Chen Jiaming, love cannot make Xu Meijing nervous, fragile, sensitive, and at the same time quite stubborn.
Her emotional experience of several setbacks coincides with the despair and entanglement in the lyrics.
"The red eyes looked at this lonely city quietly, like the joy squeezed out by a bitter smile."
Xu Meijing regards love as the most important thing in life and is willing to give everything for it, but she doesn't know: In the long years, she has long turned love into an obsession.
Her affection moved herself and the listener, but she could not touch someone who didn't love you so much.
From the last day to the "madman",
is obsessed with love. It's really not worth it.
After retirement, Xu Meijing was revealed by the media to suffer from schizophrenia and tried to commit suicide several times.
Later, she confirmed in person in the interview that she was indeed not in good spirits in those years.
In 2006, she even broke into the guest room of a six-star hotel, shouted "call me god!" to the guests inside, and forced the other party to kneel down, and was eventually arrested by the police. The incident of
made Xu Meijing confirm the title of "Crazy Woman" .
The fact is that the guest mistakenly thought that Xu Meijing was a prostitute and kept verbally harassed and insulted her, which led to the next scene.
But people don’t care about the truth, they only know: Xu Meijing was completely crazy.
After more than ten years of rehabilitation and treatment, Xu Meijing's mental state gradually returned to normal. In 2019, she also held a concert called "Interlaced Shiny" in Nanjing for the first time .
All the audience went to the scene for feelings and memories. A netizen once described it like this:
"As other female singers come out, they are goddesses descending to earth, only she comes out, and old friends come to reminisce about the past. After ten years, it is not us who come to see her, but she travels across the ocean to see us."
Years have passed, and her voice adds the vicissitudes of time. Before leaving the scene, Xu Meijing smiled and said to all the audience "Life is short, I wish you all."
That night, she looked like she had never been hurt, as beautiful as the moonlight.
But soon after, passers-by accidentally took a photo of Xu Meijing singing on the roadside in Singapore.
There was a photo of herself at her feet, and there was a cardboard next to her that was written in Chinese and English. "In order to compete for family property, the family forced Xu Meijing to go to Banqiao Hospital.Meijing cut off all relationships with the corrupt Xu family and manager Chen Jiaming. "
No one knows whether this is the real situation. But there is no doubt that her determination to cut off her relationship with Chen Jiaming came too late.
That's right, even though she had already retired from the circle, the two still maintained a cooperative relationship.
From beginning to end, she did not completely separate from this person and live again.
1 No one knows how Xu Meijing is doing today. But we hope that this former "Queen" can continue to sing freely and enjoy life freely under the stage.
Half of my life has passed since I met Chen Jiaming at the age of 19. It is time to let go.
Over the years, even though I know that I can't get the other person's feelings and see Chen Jiaming's character clearly, Xu Meijing is still struggling repeatedly between giving up and being tender.
The deeper the obsession and longer the time, the love for a person is no longer pure. What may be entrusted by us with deep emotions is no longer that person himself, but a beautiful imagination.
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There is a word in psychology called "endowment effect":
When a person owns something, when he owns it, he will unconsciously raise the value of the thing and cultivate emotional dependence.
And when he feels that he is going to lose this thing, what he faces will be exponentially painful.
is the same in love. The reason why many foolish men and women are trapped in their old love has been unable to get out is because they psychologically raise the value and role of a certain person.
In fact, that person is likely not to have these "feeling" or "perfect qualities, and there are not so many irreplaceable halos.
Blind affection is actually a kind of "narcissistic" chronic suicide.
Love should not be just based on feelings, more need to withstand rational scrutiny and moral judgment.
Excessive obsession will only make people deviate from reality and move towards illusion.
Only by breaking free from the spiritual mud of love but not getting, can we gain freedom in our hearts and embrace a broader life.
