2022 will be a relatively difficult year.
This year, my brother suffered from depression , and my mother had an accident at work, leaving scars on her hands forever.
And I was struggling hard in my studies and life. Sometimes I really want to show off and say, "Forget it, why do you have to work so hard?" However, there is always some reluctance in my heart.
I'm only in my twenties. I haven't tried a different life yet, I haven't gone out to see other scenery, and I haven't really looked for what I want, so I don't want to just muddleheadedly join a company, earn a stable salary, and live a life that ends at a glance.
I know that many relatives say that I am "ignorant" and "too ambitious". They say that civil servants are the real breadwinners, and it is best for girls to be teachers. Don't go to other provinces, don't think about going to big cities, don't find boyfriends from other places, don't join private companies, don't mess around...
I've heard a lot of words like this. I understand the good intentions of my relatives. They hope that I can live a stable life. It's just that this is the life state they expect, not what I want.
I can endure hardships, get tired, and turn day and night upside down. I'm not afraid of any of this, I'm willing to pay the price for my love. I want to do what I like, I want to sincerely record my stories with others, I want to run a public account of my own, and I want to engage in work related to my profession.
In order to realize my dream, I suffered a lot and stumbled along the way.
I will never forget the self-blame I felt for buying a fake course, and I will never forget the joy of harvesting my first 20-yuan manuscript. I know this is a difficult mountain road to walk, and there are people competing with me coming and going on the road, but I am not afraid. I just keep my head down and keep walking. I believe that when I look up, I will be able to harvest the stars in the sky.
However, there are also times of anxiety. My classmates have received offers one after another, and my roommates have also confirmed their internship units, and everyone is moving forward. It seems that I am the only one who writes articles on the Internet that no one cares about, earning a few cents a day, going around in circles, stagnating.
I don’t know how many nights I said to myself: "Give up. People always have to live. You can’t stay at home like this all the time. You have to face reality and accept it. You are already an adult and you have responsibilities to bear. Give up the illusory writing dream. Don’t be so literary and artistic. Don’t be easily moved. You should wake up."
I am really unwilling! I don’t want to work hard to finish college only to work in a job that has nothing to do with my major. In this case, what's the point of my university?
Some people want to talk about me again, saying that I am naive, saying that I have not been beaten by society, and saying that I do not understand the pain of life. In the face of life, we only talk about survival, not meaning.
I understand all the principles, but I think that in life, you have to believe in something. If there is no meaning, then our lives are destined to be like a pool of stagnant water, without any fun.
I firmly believe that everyone's choices and life have meaning and value. This is also the reason why I insist on creating stories. I hope to bring you new ideas and new perspectives, so that everyone can find their own hearts through other people's stories.
Before, when I was sorting out the New Year's greetings from Southern Weekend, there was a passage that moved me very much:
No matter what role you are, don't be overwhelmed by the tide of history, or wash away your independent existence.
At least you have to be a strong little person in the big era and a free dancer in the carnival night.
The people are all of us, you are one of the people, and your yearning for beauty is related to the direction of the country.
Yes, believe it, this is how the world should be. Everything should start from you and return to you. To your life, to your life, to your history, to your meaning.
No matter how brilliant and glorious the era is, it is all created by little people like us, like our fathers. We should have the right to pursue freedom and happiness. We should let others hear our voices. We should not be buried, we should be seen.
So, I don't want to compromise. I'm still young, I'm motivated, I can be slapped by reality, and I'm mentally prepared that I might accomplish nothing.
I see many young people like me persevering. Their efforts and dedication to their dreams often make me cry.
My senior student who is one level older than me can't release the movie she made at her own expense, but she still insists on working in the film industry; a classmate insists on getting up at six o'clock every day to write novels; my good friend works part-time to save money for studying abroad...
They are all working hard, and they all persist for the love in their hearts. I once asked my senior sister: "The film industry is too difficult, why do we continue to do it?"
She said: "I still can't let it go. I no longer believe in the nonsense of changing Chinese movies on my own. As a media person and a person who loves movies, I feel that I have an obligation to do something for Chinese movies , even if it is of little use."
From the senior sister's answer, I saw her conscience as a media practitioner.
I am the same way, I always want to do something for ordinary people in life. Even if my story can give one person the strength and courage to move forward, I will be very happy.
said a lot of things from his heart. In a few hours, 2022 will pass. In the new year, I have set the following goals for myself:
1. Keep my family and friends in good health
2. Find a job that I like and that is valuable
3. Increase the number of Toutiao fans to over 10,000
4. Update the official account on time
5. Continue reading
6 .Keep writing
7. Practice the vest line
8. Always maintain love and kindness
9. Try your best to help people in need
10. Live a free and passionate life as soon as possible
The above is this year's year-end summary. I hope that when I write the summary next year, these goals can be achieved.
2023 is coming, and the laughter, anxiety and warmth that happened in 2022 will all become pictures in our memories.
At this time point, I sincerely wish that everyone can continue to make progress in 2023 and find a lifestyle that suits them. I wish that everyone can have a free, romantic and passionate life, always be loved, always be expected, and always have someone by your side.
Finally, I would like to give a sincere blessing to my dear 108 fans and the first friend who followed me: Xinghua, Fenyang, Luliang, Shanxi:
I hope that my friends can live better and better, the elderly are healthy, the children are strong, the work goes smoothly, and they can realize wealth and freedom as soon as possible, have their own time, and do what they like. Even if you have heavy responsibilities at home, don’t forget to love yourself.
coco I am really grateful to these 108 friends, because you have given me hope to continue creating. As I write this, I feel like crying again. I am indeed a bit too sensitive and affectionate [face covering]. Thank you very much for your support. You can't imagine how much power a "follow" and "like" can bring to me.
In 2023, I will continue to create good stories for everyone. Thank you for your company this year. We will go hand in hand next year. No matter what happens, Coco will always be by your side.
Finally, dear friends, please click and follow, this is really important to me [I’m about to cry]!
