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. Everything is a continuation of the past. I am glad to meet and part without regrets. I will still be the same when I meet again, open and fearless...
01
If it weren't for him, maybe I could not even get out of this small county town.
If it weren't for him, maybe my fate would be the same as my sister,
slamming school, getting married, having children...
storm too many TV series, and sometimes I can't tell whether it's in or outside the play.
Life is like a play, drama is like life, after rushing through the years, I realized...
The striving self is the most beautiful girl, and the scenery that is flying all the way is the fireworks that I want to see the most.
Hand your own path, and you can only rely on yourself to fight for your own life!
rules are not unchanging. As long as you dare to go against your life and dare to fight, nothing in this world is impossible.
Whether for him or for yourself, if you look back after more than 0 years, you will find that everything is the best encounter...
0 2
My mother called me and finally called me home.
The day after I returned to my hometown, I went to the largest supermarket in the county to purchase daily necessities for my mother.
When choosing rice, I was looking at the product instructions very seriously.
One hand just stopped in front of me.
"Just buy this Northeast rice, it's still vacuum, easy to store."...
The familiar voice suddenly jumped into my ear drum.
When I looked up, he turned his head and was talking to someone else.
Although it was only half of the side face, I still saw his appearance clearly.
I was stunned.
Ren Linyu, is it really Ren Linyu?
He has changed a lot, one head taller than when he was in high school, and his slightly straight beer belly is too eye-catching.
The sunny boy of his student days has long disappeared.
That slightly plump figure looks more like a kind family man.
If I hadn't remembered him deeply, it would have been really hard to recognize him.
When he lifted the rice bag and tweeted it, he didn't notice me at all. His attention was on the dazzling array of products.
He took the soy sauce, vinegar and seasoning on the shelves, turned around and walked towards the cooked food area.
I couldn't help but shout, "Ren Linyu?"
0 3
He turned around and looked around before he stopped his eyes on me.
I guess his brain must be running rapidly.
While trying hard to find me,
He didn't respond for a long time, and he still stood there and smiled at me politely.
For a moment, I was a little embarrassed.
I asked again, "Ren Linyu, don't you recognize me anymore?"
After I called out his name again, he touched the back of his head, looking embarrassed.
No wonder he couldn't recognize me for a moment.
I used to be too ordinary and too shabby.
Because the family's conditions are not good, I have never worn a decent piece of clothing, and even the shoes are big and small.
is naturally inconspicuous and will not be remembered by others.
. Although Ren Linyu in front of him gave him some blessings, he dressed appropriately and stood among the crowd, not fighting or scrambling, which was quite eye-catching.
I couldn't help but speak again.
"Ren Linyu, I am Ma Xiaofei!"
His brain suddenly had memories, which seemed a little awkward,
"Oh, Ma Xiaofei, you have changed so much that I dare not admit it, where are you developing?"
0 4
0 He remembered me and suddenly felt a warmth flowing into his heart.
That moment evoked too many memories of me.
Before I could speak again, his phone rang.
answered a call and his face changed.
"Sorry, Ma Xiaofei, I have something to do today. We will talk about it another day, I'll leave first."
After saying that, he flew around and left quickly.
My heart is full of joy. In this sudden drop,
slowly cools down.
0 5
I stood there, not sure how long I was stunned.
Ren Linyu's changes are not just external.
When he was a student, he was full of energy and his cold temperament seemed to be vivid in his mind.
Now he is so down-to-earth that he even bought food, rice, oil and salt.
never dreamed of it.
suddenly felt that he was a little strange.
It is this kind of confused memory that makes me confused.
didn't even add WeChat to him.
keep him in his heart for so many years, and finally met, but once again became a passerby.
0 6
Ren Linyu For me, it is not just a classmate.
It has an irreplaceable special significance for my life.
Before I met Ren Linyu, my life was dark,
When I was ten years old, my father died of illness, and my mother took me and my sister to live.
t mention how difficult it is.
My mother did odd jobs when she went out early and came back late, but she couldn't save up all my father was sick and borrowed foreign debts.
Years of depression made my mother in a bad mood and often got angry for no reason.
chasing us with a stick, and then hugging us and crying after the beat.
so much that my sister and I grew up in a fearful environment.
eating and warm clothing are our greatest happiness, and being able to go to school is even more blessed.
For the sake of making a living, my mother went further and further away. My sister and I were like two falling leaves, growing lonely and lonely in being ignored.
I have average grades, average appearance, and a taciturn personality. I always hide in a small corner.
There are almost no friends in the class.
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07
When I was in the second year of junior high school, my sister gave up the opportunity to go to high school and entered the factory assembly line.
She asked me to study hard with tears in her eyes and told me not to blame my mother.
At that time, I felt that I was a redundant person in this world,
lived a hard life, and I still couldn't see hope.
But I had to accept my fate and had to move forward silently.
Fortunately, I was admitted to high school and was less than two kilometers away from home.
That is where I met Ren Linyu.
He is the class monitor of our class, with special confidence and sunshine.
I still remember the scene when he stood on the podium to introduce himself.
"Hello everyone, my name is Ren Linyu, you can also call me Lin Yu,".
In my memory, the handsome boy was wearing an orange shirt, his thin face was so white, and his eyes were full of confidence and strength.
In that era, even we girls rarely wore such colored clothes, and he was that kind of alternative.
Ren Linyu is not only very popular in the class, but also became a sensational figure in the grade.
Ren Linyu is not only sunny, handsome and confident, but also has a wealthy family, with his father and mother who love him.
everything he has is what I lack,
so, at that time, I envied him so much.
0 8
I just envy him, just secretly glanced at him a few more times, and didn't dare to get closer.
never thought about what kind of relationship he could have with Ren Linyu.
That day, the school held the sports meeting , and I participated in the 100-meter sprint.
Although I am not tall, I have a pair of strong calves.
From elementary school to junior high school, my sprint results are among the best.
If my mother hadn't stopped me, I would have entered the sports school long ago.
That day, I became scared of the track for the first time.
not because I was afraid of my opponent, but because I was wearing a pair of sneakers that didn’t fit.
not only didn’t fit my feet, but also my soles were stiff, and my feet hurt when I walked straight.
Before I started running, I knew I was definitely losing.
that pair of shoes were worn by my cousin, and it is more than one size bigger than the shoes I usually wear.
When my mother threw this pair of shoes to me, she said, "It's enough to not be bare-legged. Don't pick and choose the ones. Our family doesn't have that condition."
0 9
0 9
My tears were rolling in my eyes, but they didn't fall.
I didn’t refute my mom because I’m used to it for a long time.
Not only me, but my sister is the same. She wears leftovers and uses leftovers, and she is almost eating what others have left.
I have been slow to enter the track, which has aroused discussion among my classmates.
They waved at me hard and cheered me up.
"Ma Xiaofei, what are you slowing down? Hurry up and prepare for warm-up," the coach yelled at me.
teammates subconsciously looked at my feet tightened backwards.
My mind buzzed, and it seemed that I could hear others talking about my unfit shoes.
"What an ugly shoe, I'm still wearing it after all the glue is opened, it's so funny."
I am not tall myself, and those "big shoes" do look a little abrupt, plus the frayed corners and small holes that vaguely explode on the sides.
won’t mention that it’s so embarrassing.
The most fatal thing is the big shoes. I haven't walked to the track yet, but it actually fell off.
At that moment, the laughter made by my teammates killed me.
shattered my self-esteem.
10
I didn't dare to look up at them, just blushed and put on my shoes and tied my shoelaces tightly.
Just as I walked to the track again, a tall figure came to me and handed a pair of running shoes from my hand.
"Put it on, this is Wang Ying's shoes, it is estimated that they should fit together."
that person is Ren Linyu.
Because of those shoes, I won the 100-meter championship. For many years, no one in my alma mater has broken my record.
Later I learned that Ren Linyu was sweating profusely in an anxious mood to find shoes for me to fit his feet.
Many years later, whenever I think of this scene, I can't help but feel warm and burst into tears.
Although it was not a dazzling thing, it was the first time I felt that someone was caring about after my father passed away.
Ren Linyu not only helped me realize my dream of winning, but also brought hope and strength to my confused and helpless youth.
My grades are very average, and my family still owes a lot of debts.
I originally thought about going to the factory assembly line as soon as I graduated from high school, and making money like my sister to pay off the debt for my family.
But since there was light in front of me, I wanted to get into college, change myself, and become a better person.
want to go out and look for another sky.
1 1
It is because of that sports meeting that I started to study hard.
no longer thinks randomly, complains about unfair fate every day, and never gets confused again.
I don’t know where the confidence and courage come from,
warded off everyone’s contemptuous eyes and contemptuous words.
I was so obsessed with learning that I could hit the telephone pole on the side of the road when I was memorizing words.
But after all, because of his weak foundation, he only got an ordinary college.
After the college entrance examination, I disappeared into the crowd without saying goodbye to any of my classmates.
students celebrated the success of the college entrance examination in different ways,
and I went to work in the factory where my sister works in order to earn the fees required for the university.
Fortunately, my mother did not stop me. As my wishes, I flew out of that small county town.
As I entered university, I slowly got rid of the humble and timid self in the past and transformed into a brand new self.
I study hard, receive scholarships every year, and I am deeply loved by teachers and classmates.
I can’t see any dark colors on my body.
For so many years, I have always had a wish in my heart,
that is to say thank you to Ren Linyu in person.
12
On my first Spring Festival in college, I went back to my hometown. I only learned that Ren Linyu was studying in Beijing.
It’s a pity that he did not come back to celebrate the New Year that year.
My wish was put aside.
In the next few years, in order to save on road expenses, I never went back.
Later, I passed the postgraduate entrance examination, found a good job, and stayed in Shanghai.
At that time, I had already become cheerful and had contact with my former classmates. I also gathered around from time to time.
heard from classmates that Ren Linyu let himself go in college and talked about several girlfriends, one of which was more beautiful than the other.
It’s a pity that after graduation, he failed twice in the postgraduate entrance examination and finally returned to his hometown to develop.
In my opinion, Ren Linyu is not a person who is easy to give up, and
even more a man who admits guilty.
1 3
However, he left so soon.
This memory hidden in my heart has made me sigh for many years.
But what I never thought was that the sunny boy actually worked as an urban management officer in a small county town in his hometown.
This is what my classmates told me later.
didn't plan to be too "silly", and after thinking about accompanying my mother, I flew back to Shanghai.
But after meeting Ren Linyu that day, he wrote a WeChat message with emotion, and actually leaked his whereabouts.
0 In the evening, my classmates called: "Xiaofei, I don't know if I'm back. Who is the person?"
I was stunned for a moment, guessing who revealed the news, and I thought of him in an instant.
I didn’t react until my female classmate said she had read my circle of friends.
When I come back, I naturally have to get together well.
I also said bluntly that I had treated me and had not come back for many years. I asked my classmates not to compete with me, and asked her to call her local classmates.
female classmates applied for a few names, but there was no Ren Linyu.
Just as I was about to speak, she muttered, "Forget it, Ren Linyu, his urban management is so busy that he is working overtime nine times."
14
"Urban Management?" I couldn't help but ask.
"Ah, you don't know. After Ren Linyu came back, he took the civil servant exam several times but failed. In the end, his father asked his relationship and stuffed him into this unit."
" Urban management is also very good. Anyway, it is a regular unit, which is better than what we are floating outside. "
I quickly smoothed out the situation and did not forget to remind her to notify Ren Linyu.
"It's very easy to get together once, so let's notify him, what if he has time? "
For the arrival of that day, I was a little excited.
I went to the hotel I booked early and waited until it was almost over. Ren Linyu appeared.
html Why didn’t you just listen to your blind date? "
I felt incredible when I heard the word "blind date".
I can't associate the confident sunny boy with blind date.
1 5
I looked over at me, and Ren Linyu's face was flushed. I don't know if it was the effect of alcohol or the privacy question.
" said he was so fucked that he could not resist it, but he was less and less feeling of blind dates, and he was still alone.
that day ended, and I took the initiative to add Ren Linyu's WeChat.
He also said that I was not kind and did not give them the boys a chance to perform, and blamed me for paying the order.
At that moment, it seemed that the handsome boy was back.
that night, I lay on the bed, looking at the starry sky, and an inexplicable warm current surged into my heart.
I was completely sleepy, and I started to Looking through Ren Linyu's circle of friends,
one after another, and he couldn't bear to drop a word.
until he turned to the end.
The warmth and coldness between the lines finally gave me a general understanding of him now.
His ambition to hit a wall in the postgraduate entrance examination and then failed in the civil service exam, and he was disheartened.
Although he entered a not-so-good unit and his income was average, his advantage was stable.
is much superior to us.
don't have to struggle, but his parents bought a good house and car for him.
16
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In our small county town that is not ranked first in the last quarter, there is no pressure in life. 5
For him, the only thing he lacks is a girlfriend who can be seen and can be talked about.
How can a girl who can easily look at small places?
But time doesn't wait for anyone, and she will be in the third place in a blink of an eye.
But time doesn't wait for anyone, and she will be in the third place immediately.
He is also like many ordinary men. He is getting older and his belly is getting stronger and stronger.
people are becoming more realistic and more down-to-earth.
no longer just looking for beauty, no longer waiting for fate, but also joining the army of blind dates.
just to find a woman who can live a life.
ordinary Spend my life in the ground...
17
No wonder he was so "down-to-earth" and "home-style" in the supermarket.
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Get married and have children, playing multiple roles of son, husband and father.
The warm-hearted image of me suddenly made me feel unconscious.
I was stunned for a full half minute, a little caught off guard, and wanted to accept it, but my hands were trembling again.
finally typed a line of words.
"It's too late, it's inconvenient for video, please forgive me."
He replied to me with a smile and a arched fist.
Through the screen, I could feel his surprise at my changes.
We talk from work to life, and we keep chatting.
might be casual in the opening chat. I finally said "thank you" to him.
h he was stunned for a moment, not knowing why I thanked him.
18
I didn’t explain, I just wanted those memories to stay in my heart forever.
He is no longer the same person he used to be, but just a man who has been abrasived by reality. As I chatted, I didn’t know what to reply, and my heart was filled with regret.
For so many years, he has played an important role in my heart.
In my eyes, he is different from other men.
But the chat that day made me completely awake.
It turns out that he can be so merciful and so full of old things.
learned about his Douyin account, and I also went there to visit him.
is even more exciting. Not only are there scenes of his life shot, but also scenes of him at work.
He wants to eat Haidilao, he wants to spread it, he also wants to drive it on a yacht, and
even the car he drives has to deliberately make a big close-up of the sign.
There are even more exaggerated things. Even if you have a kiss, you have to complain about the other party.
I didn’t forget to pick up my sleeves and lay his famous watch...
put it in the past, I would envy him to death,
But now, the characteristics that gather on him are all the ones I hate the most.
I don’t know if I had misunderstood him or if he became like this with the rendering of life.
I quietly quit Douyin and kept that beautiful memory in my heart forever.
1 9
Before the classmates could ask me back, I flew away.
sitting on the plane and watching my hometown go away little by little, I suddenly felt relieved.
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We are no longer the self in the past, nor the person in each other's eyes.
Maybe there will be no intersection in this life and no such beautiful memories.
However, no matter what Ren Linyu becomes, even if he becomes the middle-aged greasy uncle in my imagination,
I will sincerely wish him sincerely, hoping that he can meet the girl he likes in the journey of life.
has nothing to do with love, and there is no deep friendship.
only because in my humblest time, he once warmed me like a beam of light,
and I, because I felt the power of that beam of light, have come to this day and become a better self.
I think many people have a beautiful memory of their youth in their hearts.
not only a relationship, but also a special emotion, just like Ren Linyu and I.
No matter what kind of love it is, it is difficult to shine into reality.
walks into each other's hearts...
This is an online story of emotional convexion...
is a very innocent story.
made me feel a little sad.
very enterprising girl, very warm boy.
met the right person at the right time, inspiring the pace of progress, but did not hold the light in my heart.
I really want to change the script so that the male protagonist will continue to be dazzling and the female protagonist will stay for him.
may be because I have watched too many romantic movies and I want to end the comedy.
I really want to have that kind of love that lasts for thousands of years, which makes people imagine.
It’s a pity that it ends in this way. The plot of
is too infectious may not be applicable in real life.
It is not easy for two people from the same channel to enter a house.
just think about it. That middle-aged greasy uncle may not be unhappy in life.
may not be the one we think so vulgar.
No one can see through any other's life, and no one can dominate the happiness of another person.
There are too many unknowns in life, the road is still long and the wind is still very strong, and no one knows who will meet at the next intersection...
Author: Xiaofeng
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