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During the Mid-Autumn Festival this year, my first love girlfriend who had not been in contact for six years sent me a WeChat message saying that she was getting married. The wedding was chosen in a hotel in the southern suburbs of Xi'an, very close to my community.
From the message she invited, I could see that she sincerely wanted me to go to the scene, but I did not dare to give a definite reply, but just evaded a few words of blessing. When I typed these unscrupulous words on my phone, I was galloping in my heart, and all kinds of emotions were colliding.
We met in junior high school. I wrote love letters to her, bought gloves and notebooks, and I really liked them ignorantly. She also accepted my confession and exchanged notes between each other, and I still keep them. Later, due to academic reasons, I took the initiative to separate for a while, and she cried all night. Of course, this was what I heard from her roommate later.
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After graduating from junior high school, I was admitted to high school, and she went to work in the Southern Electronics Factory, and then she got married. My husband is a gangster in our local area who is not doing his job, which makes me unable to accept it no matter how. When she got married, she asked someone to send me a message to me for a meal. I didn't go to college because I was away from home. The main reason was that I always missed her in my heart at that time, for fear that I would be sad when I saw her at the scene.
About my junior year, one day, I suddenly received a call from my phone number that showed that my place belongs to my hometown. I heard her voice after answering. She was in a bad mood on the other end of the phone and told me in a crying voice that she was divorced, and that my husband cheated on him and repeatedly domestic violence.
Because I haven't contacted each other for many years, the two of them feel a little strange and distant. Therefore, facing her complaints, I was at a loss for a long time, and I didn't even know what kind of language to comfort me. Later, I mustered up the courage to say: When I graduate from college, I will support you!
The result made her amused. She replied: It is impossible between us. You are a college student, I am a working girl, I am not worthy of you!
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That night, we talked for a long time, but in fact, it was mainly because she was talking about how unsatisfactory her life was and how her in-laws' family was harsh and cold to her. I remembered them all one by one, thinking that if I really had the chance to be together, I would do my best to make up for it. After the incident of
, we became more in touch, but she kept silent about whether we could date. Gradually, I lost confidence a little. Later, I often had to be busy with my studies, and later I took the postgraduate entrance examination, so I more or less ignored her, and even interrupted the contact directly...
I didn't expect that now I suddenly received her wedding invitation, which made me feel very disappointed and confused for a moment. From my heart, as a first love, I still like her very much, and I am a very nostalgic person. But I also know that such love, such nostalgia cannot give others the future, and I just graduated and have no material accumulation at all, let alone the life she wants!
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movie says that liking is presumptuous, but love is restraint. I also understand the universal principle of compassion for others, but I just can't let go of her, especially when I think of her walking into the marriage hall with others, I feel so painful.
On the night before she was about to get married, I continued to call her and asked: I said I wanted to support you, why did you refuse?
She paused for a while and said: At that time, I said it was impossible, but I never saw you any struggle or effort later, so think about the result now! After she finished speaking, she hung up the phone!
Originally, the news of her marriage had already made me very painful. Now when I heard such an answer again, I felt even more volatile. I couldn't say whether it was regret or sad.
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From the Mid-Autumn Festival to the present, my whole body is in a very bad mood, and my work and study have been affected. I can't tell anyone about my psychological feelings, and I dare not let her know my current state. This feeling is really tormenting!
I can’t figure out how to understand this kind of thing and want to hear everyone’s opinions!
