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01
Some people are not capable of living well, but because the starting point is not high.
Only by doing his best can one live a dull life. What else can he ask for?
people have their own destiny. You will know as you walk.
Some people may be able to turn the tables against the wind, but more people are always limited by the initial track.
02
Many people say that the feelings in high school are the most sincere, but in my opinion, it is just that. There are only single digits of people who can keep in touch, and there are only one or two people who are most impressed.
The high school classmate who impressed me the most was a boy with a bad appearance. He studied best in the class. At that time, he thought he could definitely change his destiny and live a particularly outstanding person.
Until I graduated from college, I still thought so, because compared to him, I always felt that I was not as ambitious as him, not as hard as him, not as free as me, not as I could only go back to my hometown to accept the arrangements of my parents and be an elementary school teacher after graduation.
I used to be particularly envious of others working hard outside, and I feel that it is a plot that is only found in film and television dramas. But as I grow older, as I have a new identity, and as I change my ideas and the people around me, I feel that my life is not bad, I am tired and happy, and I no longer envy others.
Especially when I heard that the boy was back, I felt that fate is a metaphysics and is not that easy to see through. There are many different opinions on the reason why Ah Le came back.
Some people say he can't make it outside, some people say he was cheated, some people say he is exhausted, and some people say he is back home and filial to his parents. I don't believe any statement. I always feel that one day in the future, he will tell me in person.
We had a brief intersection. When we were in college, he was not as reserved as in high school. He was able to communicate with people like a normal person, which made us slightly closer.
My premonition was correct. He did contact me on his own initiative, but he did not explain the reason for coming back. He just asked me how to become a teacher.
I told him about my experience and experience, and told him about the difficulty of taking the exam from the initial private to the public, but he wanted to help him, but he felt that it was a waste of time.
Later, when the exam was taken, his examination room happened to be in our school. He was a candidate and I was an invigilator. What he needed to consider was how to get high scores, and I just had to wait for the exam to end. He had more worries than me. After the
exam, I invited him to dinner and realized that he couldn't say why he wanted to come back. There might be too many reasons, or it might be a whim. In short, I can feel that he is living a very twisted life now, not knowing what he wants or where he should go.
I have heard of his family background. He has always relied on himself. Perhaps he also wanted to make a bright road by himself, but in the end he found that he had tried his best and seemed to be able to live a dull life. He was unwilling to be dull, but he had no choice but to do anything, so he became twisted, confused, and anxious.
04
Sometimes, in comparison, you can still tell the difference between good and bad.
I was once unwilling to be mediocre, but I didn’t expect that compared with others, I was lucky and lucky. I was once unwilling to obey my parents' arrangements, but now I find that someone arranges your life for you. It is a great blessing and can help you avoid many detours. At the beginning, it may feel unhappy, but as I walk, I will go .
I don’t know where Ale will go in the future, I hope he will live a good life.Although he tried his best to live a dull life, I hope he can bloom in a dull life. It doesn’t matter if you don’t bloom, just don’t let yourself live so twistedly.
Recognizing one's fate sounds like a kind of pessimism, but in fact, sometimes it is a last resort. When nothing you do can't change the status quo, when your abilities do not match your desires, what else can you do besides accepting your fate and living in the present? Simply competing with yourself will only make you feel in pain, and I don’t think it is necessary.
05
I will not reason with him from the perspective of someone who has experienced it. This kind of preaching method is meaningless. For people like Ale, he can only rely on himself, on his own efforts, on his own imagination, on himself to calm down his mood, and on himself to solve all problems, because he has no way out and no helper, he can only move forward and no way back.
I am not him and cannot empathize with his experience. But what I want to say is that the tragedy of our generation should not be repeated in the next generation. If there is still a huge gap in the starting point of the next generation, people with low starting points will still struggle to live, and they will still try their best to live a dull life .
