Author: Hua Yuchi
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Su Mingyu finally chooses to marry Shi Tiandong.
No one thought that the famous strong woman in the business field would choose a cook to be her husband.
People around her think that Shi Tiandong is not worthy of her, even her friend Liu Qing said, "You are too wronged".
But only she herself knows the real reason for choosing Shi Tiandong-it is so purposeful, even unspeakable.
for no other reason:
because he is normal.
She never solved her grievances
was hurt in her native family,In fact, it is very difficult to recover.
In those years, the grievances she suffered were really hard to solve.
Su Mingyu admitted that she needs a certain amount of warmth and care.
I have been alone for too long, and it has been too long to work outside. She doesn't know what it's like to be at home anymore.
Later, after learning about the unbearable past, she even hated the Su family.
It turns out that the background and past of her birth were so disgusting and creepy.
God knows if she is a wild breed that her mother accidentally carried outside. She dragged her husband back home to conceal others and create established facts. Such a mother can't do anything.
Originally, Zhao Meilan and Su Daqiang married for the purpose of urban household registration, and her own birth was only to create conditions for the unconnected uncle to obtain urban household registration.
said that the family has the youngest daughter in pain, but in Su’s family,There is no such law.
It is obvious that her mother is also a victim of patriarchal sons, but now she wants to put this pain on her body. Is it a cycle of heaven or a curse that cannot be escaped?
The past between her and the Su family is too unbearable, and the memories are torturing her nerves. Her birth, her growing up, her leaving home, which is happily willing? The saddest thing about people is that they can't choose their birthplace. Others can be good at the beginning, but although she has not been enrolled, she really bears the original sin. Her parents pour sin and hatred on the embryo. She is the flower of sin that opens up in a dark family. Who knows that since junior high school, she has always suppressed the violence in her heart? Who knows, the gloomy psychology of her high school, she once cut off all the chalk in the math teaching and research department overnight? She forced herself to be a good person, to be a good person in line with social norms, but how difficult it was for her to walk. She is a heartbroken person, her heart is riddled with holes. Although she is in good condition, she knows that she is a handicapped person, and is severely handicapped, a certain part of her body no longer recovery.
As a victim, over the years, she has read by psychologists, read treatment books, and tried any treatment, but she has never been able to heal the pain she experienced.
As the unfair treatment at home, she has never solved the grievance in her heart.
On the way, someone always tells her:
must have tasted the bitterness and sweetness before learning to let go.
But she has experienced suffering,He also grew up, but still couldn't let go of the hatred in his heart.
As a victim of the Su family, she really cannot forgive the past.
No one knows that some part of her heart has been broken, even if it is repaired, it will be different.
In her heart, she is always reluctant to be the Su family
If she has a choice, she is always reluctant to be the Su family.
For her, the Su family is a nightmare.
If it weren't for Zhao Meilan's death, it is estimated that Su Mingyu would never return to Su's house in this life, and he would not have any relationship with those people.
When the Su family's affairs are in front of her, she only feels "annoying." Still the giant infant Su Mingcheng, including their relatives, she is unwilling to get involved in any relationship.
Su Mingcheng treated her like that, so she chose an eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth. Su Daqiang was reluctant to care about her since she was a child.She didn’t care about it either. They never cared about each other anyway. The eldest brother Su Mingzhe wanted a family harmony, but she only found it ridiculous-, as those with vested interests, never considered themselves as the oppressed. Of life and death.
She thought, if she hadn’t made her mark in this life, she would probably not care about her in the future even if she was gone.
Therefore, for her, the Su family is just a tool to carry hatred and ugly pain. If it is warm and beautiful, it is not counted.
Actually, she doesn't love Shi Tiandong at all.
I don't know when, except for the Su family, everyone around her began to care about her love issues.
Lao Meng reminded me, Liu Qing reminded me, and my friends also remind me.
In fact, she is also picking it slowly, but she can pick and pick, and no one has thought that it will be that simple, sunny Shi Tiandong.
When this result came out, it not only shocked the people around, but also shocked herself.
She also knows very well in her heart that Shi Tiandong is not her first choice.
Actually,Su Mingyu doesn't love Shi Tiandong in his heart.
At the beginning, she liked Liu Qing, but Liu Qing always looked for flowers and asked Liu, and they had a lot of intestines. Although they knew each other's thoughts, they were always unwilling to pierce each other's thoughts.
Mingyu stared at the front blankly, saying that she was angry because she saw Liu Qing take the girl off the plane with her own eyes? She didn't know what kind of person Liu Qing was. But she asked herself again, when she was shocked by her own life experience, she was the first to call Liu Qing, and when Liu Qing communicated with her Mary Sari, she didn't find anyone. In her mind, Liu Qing probably didn't know how much heavier than Shi Tiandong. But in love, does she dare to find Liu Qing? Liu Qing said lightly, but Liu Qing really thought about her, exposing her inner self-deception in one fell swoop, did she love Shi Tiandong? She had to explain it to Liu Qing, and also explained to herself, "Liu Qing, you don’t understand. I want to find someone to give to my family. I want a place to talk nonsense, and I’ve suppressed it for many years. I will burst. I must find someone who can make me feel relieved. Everything else can be cultivated. I am not a person with no conscience. Besides, Shi Tiandong is not bad in other conditions, and he will not go out and come back on the same occasion. Beautiful female companion.
may be exactly what that sentence says:
love is to touch but withdraw its hands.
img11 pimg after they will be together
Repeat the same mistakes.
She doesn’t want to deceive herself,Even more unwilling to tolerate a lifetime in marriage.
The past of her mother is the best example. What's more, she doesn't want to be like her mother, turning herself into a detestable lunatic in her marriage-God knows how much it took her to leave the Su family With her strength, how could she be willing to let everything go back to the original point again?
What's more, her emotional requirements have always been the same. People who want to be with her must not tolerate any impurities.
So, for them, love is restraint, forbearance, and they want to touch but withdraw their hands.
"I love you, but I can never be with you,"
is their most regrettable choice, but it is also the bond that maintains their good relationship.
What if she is wronged with Shi Tiandong? But at least he wouldn’t hold a woman in his arms while still yelling "Martha, Lisa." What is it for?
Liu Qing made a few words: But you are too wronged. This time there were only five simple words, but Mingyu was shocked when he heard it. As soon as he loosened his fingers outside the window, the cigarette dropped. At the corner of his eyes, two lines of clear tears slowly slipped down. Wronged? Too wronged? Mingyu is like a child who has fallen down.Enduring the pain firmly and sternly, I found my mother from room to room, and when she was embraced by her mother to cherish the moment, the child cried loudly. The grievance in Ming Yuzang's stomach was catalyzed by Liu Qing's words, and finally cried in front of people. Didn't she know that she didn't like Shi Tiandong too much, and she even despised Shi Tiandong a little before? But who can treat her wholeheartedly like Shi Tiandong? It wasn't because she valued Shi Tiandong's goodness for her that she had always deliberately cultivated herself to like Shi Tiandong and let Shi Tiandong come into her life with some success. Liu Qingying also knows, in her capacity, how many men dare to love her? Liu Qing didn't dare. Liu Qing, who had worked with him for many years and knew the bottom line, had concerns. Only Shi Tiandong, who was silly and bold, loved her like an ordinary woman. Does she have a choice? But Liu Qing understood her, but couldn't support her, so what benefit did he say? Mingyu wiped away the tears with his backhand, although it was endless.
Liu Qing knows her, and is her most proud opponent and friend, but after we are together, should we start such boring days with him every day? Why bother, she has limited conditions and emotional cleanliness, and can't stand the daily ambushes with Liu Qing.
She was always afraid that she would take Zhao Meilan's old road again, so she retreated to Shi Tiandong who was born in a normal family.
She said that at least when she is with Shi Tiandong, she will feel that she is a normal person and even a happy person.
And Liu Qing is also, he knows Su Mingyu's strong character, but he is a "strayer," it is impossible to hang on a tree.
Even if he is really with Su Mingyu, after that, he may not be able to tolerate Su Mingyu's strong personality.
Even if they are evenly matched, the result they can get at that time may be both sides. Therefore, the best result is not to let each other go. This is the safest and most appropriate way .
She has always longed for a home
To some extent, Su Mingyu chose Shi Tiandong to find in him the warmth and care that he lost when he was young.
She has always longed for a home.
Whether it is young or now.
She longs for a fair and warm home.
But will she be the next Zhao Meilan?
When Su Daqiang shouted "You are Zhao Meilan" to her in the hospital, Su Mingyu himself was frightened by this behavior.
She knows that Shi Tiandong is not the best choice, but if she chooses the one she wants, she will inevitably get into trouble in the future, and even make it too embarrassing.
even when her master, Lao Meng, considered the future for her,I thought of a series of problems that she and Liu Qing had together:
In all families, either the east wind prevails over the west wind, or the west wind overwhelms the east wind. But when you and Liu Qing walked close, I was worried that you would be crushed to death by Liu Qing, or you would be crushed to death by Liu Qing. This child, Xiaoshi, is not very ambitious and not very utilitarian. He is not a person who can be a big success in the future. This is the only thing you need to consider. You can earn money very well, but you will not spend it. You have to consider whether you will spend your money in the future as the backbone of your family's economy and whether you will be unbalanced in the future. "
But this is not what she worries the most.
For Su Mingyu, becoming a normal person is far more important than finding a relationship that she wants and cannot get.
She said:
I just want to go home and I don’t have to think about anything. I’ll be a idler when I go home. Shi Tiandong is a happy life, and it’s easy to be with him. I’m not a big person. Rest, he will take me to play. Fortunately, he is not a idler.
Shi Tiandong is the most suitable marriage partner for her, and the only person who can relax her in these years.
She wants a home, a warm and comfortable family that suits her, and a normal family.
For her,Shi Tiandong is already a good choice.
What she worries most is to repeat her parents' path. Don’t one day after her death, Shi Tiandong also screamed as a stand-up serf like her father. What she worries even more is that she is already miserable and she should not poison her children.
Shi Tiandong knows her secrets, knows her past, those faceless secrets, even the teacher Lao Meng who cares the most about him, and Liu Qing, who has the best relationship with him, may not know, but Shi Tiandong is willing to keep it for her. Secretly, even being able to forgive her, it's already not easy.
She knows that Shi Tiandong likes her, and she herself can get the warmth and normal living environment she wants from Shi Tiandong. Besides, Shi Tiandong’s temperament is not the kind of ground-breaking, he also knows What do I want to do.
As for whether she will repeat the mistakes of Zhao Meilan one day, she does not know this, nor do we know. All she can do is to try to suppress the evil in her heart. Goodness and warmth can heal the injuries that I have suffered, nothing more.
Author: @花语迟, a freelance writer, focuses on women’s growth and emotional writing, a woman who loves to eat.
loves the beauty of words, sells words for a living, and believes that one day I will become a better version of myself.
The current writing style is shallow,Still being sharpened...
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