Good evening for my friend, this is my 164th time chatting with you in my second year.
These days, I am working with the company's boss and colleagues in Hangzhou. I occasionally feel a little dazed and feel that life's encounters are wonderful.
often comes up with the idea that I don’t deserve to be with these excellent people, and this is not something I am underestimating myself.
So whenever my work is not done well, I feel very depressed.
And recently, there are many things that have made me depressed, such as political emo, idol house emo, work is not going well, and I don’t have to worry about learning emo. This series of complex depression is mixed with the surprise of working with my colleagues in Hangzhou, forming an increasingly complex feeling, which makes me intertwined with sadness and joy.
Occasionally, itchy and irritable all over the body. The mosquitoes here are too fierce and can bite me through my clothes.
Back to the topic, I feel like I am like the little frog in " Tiandao " Ding Yuanying 's mouth slid the edge of the well and looked at the sky outside. Whether it can jump out of the well depends on my luck. If I don't have the ability to jump out and fall back into the well in the end, the pain for the rest of my life can be imagined.
Whenever my work is not going well, I feel that my hands that are pulling the edge of the well are weak and are about to slide down.
If it slides down, I don’t know how to deal with it. If it slides down, I may not be able to reconcile with myself.
Hey, I can't continue writing anymore, I'm so depressed. Of course I know the truth about
. Instead of worrying about it, it is better to do the present.
The reason why truth is the truth is probably because many people cannot do it, so there is a truth to preach it.
Whenever I do not do well, I advise myself to do well in the present, what is the use of doing it right now? I just feel anxious, worried, and I will regret it and I can't help it.
Hey, I can't continue writing anymore, I'm so depressed.
I even start to wonder if I beep every day? I have been doing this for a year and a half. I talk about it every day. When I am down, I can sometimes figure it out through writing, and sometimes I can't figure it out, but so what?
If you can figure it out every time but there is no progress in fact, will this be a self-touching and ineffective effort?
I don’t know, I’m so disappointed today that I can’t write myself out.
, that's it, I don't want to write it today.
