For a long time, I felt a lot of mental pressure and life was boring. Although I didn't encounter any obstacles that I couldn't get over, my mind was always full of worries, tension and anxiety, and I was exhausted.
In fact, I am good in all aspects. I have a happy family, a successful career, and no shortage of houses, cars, and money, but I always feel unsatisfied. In my own words, I always want to pursue greater value in life.
I constantly challenge my limits and always want more. Even if I achieve some results, I still feel unsatisfied after a short period of happiness. It seems that only when you are in a working state and everything is progressing in an orderly manner as planned, you will feel at ease and confident.
Gradually, he becomes more and more confused, irritable, worried about gains and losses, and often gets angry over the trivial things in life. I also developed the habit of drinking before going to bed, because alcohol can paralyze the brain and allow me to temporarily forget everything. Otherwise, my mind will be numb with thoughts and it will be difficult to fall asleep.
Later, I couldn’t hold on anymore, I was too tired. I began to think about why life is so heavy. Life should be simpler and easier, right? People are not born to endure hardship. One time I went to a friend's office to chat, and I accidentally saw a book on his bookshelf - "Departure". When I saw these three words, a flash of lightning suddenly flashed in my mind. I picked up the book and flipped through just a few pages, when I suddenly realized that all my confusion and pain came from too much desire.
Ever since I was a child, my life has always been about adding things up. I have strict requirements on myself based on worldly standards of success. I want this, I want that, and I want to be perfect in everything. Even if I encounter obstacles and get hit, and it turns out that this road is impossible, I still will not give up easily. I feel that I am struggling, struggling, and persevering, and the more frustrated I become, the more courage I get. But I have never thought about whether I am carrying too many things that are not suitable for me, and I have never realized the importance of "subtraction".
I have reflected and sorted out my life, re-examining what I really want, what is dispensable, and what is completely consuming myself. In the end, I realized that what I really wanted was a career I loved, a warm family, and a harmonious relationship with my family and friends.
In terms of career, I chose to gradually withdraw from the family education project and the basketball training project, and withdrew my investment in a cold chain food company, retaining only the community service projects that I am best at. At the same time, stock investments were stopped and fund investments were significantly reduced. In terms of interpersonal relationships, I cleaned up my WeChat friends and mobile phone address books, deleted people I had not contacted for a long time, and quit unnecessary groups. I also cleaned up my computer and mobile phone, deleted all useless software that only occupied memory, and cleared out all the information, movies, music, and novels that had been lying on the hard drive for many years and had not been opened for a long time...
After doing all this, I feel After a complete relaxation, life suddenly became quieter, and there were fewer miscellaneous thoughts in my mind. Although there are fewer career pursuits, due to concentration, there are not many projects but the benefits are still considerable. I was a little uncomfortable at first and felt that I had too much free time, so I picked up my hobbies of reading and writing articles. Reading and writing were my favorite things when I was young, but later I was too busy with work to take care of both. Now that I picked it up again, I feel that it is very easy to use. It is a complete enjoyment. This state lasted for a while, and I gradually felt the beauty of life. At a certain moment, I suddenly realized that following my heart was so simple and happy, and the anxiety and irritability in my heart gradually disappeared.
Life should not just be about carrying a heavy burden, even if it is forced, it should only be temporary. If you are like me, overwhelmed by life, entangled in trivial matters, trapped in too many desires, busy all day long but unable to feel happiness, then take a "break away" Bar! Throw away the "rags" in your heart, travel lightly, and live your true self. You will have a more comfortable and happier life!
