has been in school for almost two weeks, and I still can't find the direction of scientific research. In this case, how should I go? How can we make some progress? Doing scientific research is really difficult, especially at the PhD level, where you have to find your own direction, goals, and innovations. Exploring new ideas, new ideas, and new designs is really not an easy task! Reading all kinds of foreign literature and all kinds of miscellaneous professional vocabulary every day always makes me confused. Just reading it makes me sleepy, tired, bored, and scared.
I wake up full of energy every morning and sigh when I go home at night. I suddenly feel a little afraid of this kind of life. Is this the normal life of a doctor? Every time you do something with full confidence until you feel dejected and regretful, this painful cycle of reincarnation, how long will it take to get over it? Wandering forward without finding a direction in the so-called darkness of scientific research, how long will it take for you to find a new way out?
Hope is always an untouchable concept, life is always an enigmatic knowledge, academics are always so enigmatic, and love is always so out of reach. After studying for more than ten years, I still feel that I am still a layman, I don’t know much about anything, and I can’t learn anything well. Many times I have thought about what is the meaning of my major? Can I really make a living in environmental engineering after graduation? The front is still unknown, full of unpredictable and uncontrollable factors, but behind it is so unbearable to look back.
What should I do to break out of my own world and construct my own field? In that case, can I count myself as a small achievement? gain something? Life is always an unknown, and how to move forward is always a difficult problem. Is this kind of life really the life I want? I don’t know, I don’t know either. Apart from gritting my teeth and persevering every day to explore, think, and find a way forward, what else can I do? You can't give up on yourself, you've already reached this point. You can't be like a child anymore, crying and fussing all the time, being allowed to cheat, and thinking that whatever you do will be forgiven? Isn’t that too lack of sense of responsibility and responsibility?
What is a PhD and what should a PhD do? What kind of responsibilities should we bear? What role should it play? These issues still need to be explored and practiced. Even if the road is full of thorns, even if there is no one to accompany me on the road, even if I have to continue walking alone, I will make a breakthrough. I will use my actual actions to prove my ability at that time. The choice is not wrong. This choice will definitely bring me different fireworks. I want to see what kind of scenery the peak of reading is like, what kind of people I will meet, and what kind of improvement and help it can have for me. , maybe it’s the stubbornness in my heart that refuses to be mediocre that roars!
