My name is Lin Xin, I am 26 years old and I have been married to my husband Zhao Hai for 2 years.
My husband and I met and fell in love in college. After graduation, we had a good relationship, so we decided to get married first and then get a job.
Although my parents strongly opposed it, I would not marry anyone except Zhao Hai, so they used a hunger strike as an excuse to force my family to agree. My parents could not resist, but finally agreed to our marriage.
My wedding with Zhao Hai was very simple, but I was very satisfied because I married love.
After we got married, Zhao Hai and I came to the provincial capital where we were studying and started working hard.
Because our income was limited, we rented a house in a village in the city. After cleaning it and buying some furniture, our little family finally settled down.
Zhao Hai found a job quickly because he majored in networking, and the salary was pretty good.
I am a little bit tragic. I have looked for many jobs, but none are suitable. I don’t like those with too low wages, and I don’t like those with too high wages. In short, I am a little too ambitious. After a month of going back and forth between
and , I finally found an accounting company and started working. The income was not high, but it was the most satisfying job I have ever found.
My husband and I are busy working during the day. After get off work at night, my husband always works overtime, and I go home to cook and wait for him to come back.
At first, I felt good about days like this, but as time went by, I really didn’t like days like this. There was no guarantee at all and no hope.
Especially since I don’t have a house of my own, seeing house prices getting higher and higher, I feel more and more guilty.
After dinner in the evening, I said, "Husband, do you have any plans for our future?"
After Zhao Hai finished the meal, he was playing a game and said, "Isn't this great now? Let's go to work together, work hard for a few years, and then return to our hometown."
I knew that this was his plan. "Husband, renting a house like this is not a long-term solution. It's time to consider buying a house. I don't want to go back to my hometown." When Zhao Hai heard this, he said anxiously: "The house in my hometown has been bought, why don't I go back? Buying a house in the provincial capital is too stressful and I can't afford it."
I am still unhappy because I like living in the provincial capital. The educational and medical resources here are incomparable to those in my hometown.
"Husband, for the sake of our children, it is better to stay in the provincial capital. This is also good for the development of the children."
Zhao Hai shook his head and said: "No, I want to go back to my hometown, and you must follow me home."
I felt bad in my heart, and for the first time I was disappointed in my marriage.
are all working in the provincial capital now. It would be great to stay and work hard in the provincial capital. When I returned to my hometown, I was not thinking of letting me take care of my parents-in-law.
I said angrily: "The house in my hometown can be sold, but I must stay in the provincial capital. I will not go back to my hometown."
My husband saw that I was angry, and he coaxed: "Let's discuss it slowly. Let's wait until the job is stable. Try to stay in the provincial capital."
I felt a little better. In fact, I also know that after I came to the provincial capital, something changed and became more realistic.
My colleagues around me drive cars and live in houses in provincial capitals. They don’t have to squeeze into public transportation, live in a village in the city, or have to compete with many people for a bathroom. I am both envious and sad at the same time.
are all women, and I am not ugly either. Why is there such a big gap?
My heart is very unbalanced, so I work hard and try every means to perform, just for money and to live a good life.
also had this thought, which made me regret marrying too early. Now I realize that when it comes to love and bread, bread is the best.
Actually, when I was working in the company, there were people chasing me, but I rejected them all, not because I was married, but because the people chasing me were poorer than me, and I didn’t like them at all. Lin Tao, the vice president of
company, is young and handsome. It is said that he is still single. The most important thing is that he is rich. I have ridden in the luxury car he drives several times and it feels really good.
We have had dinner together several times in private, as ordinary friends.
I hid the fact that I was married from him, and just said that I was in a long-distance relationship with my boyfriend.
One day, the company sent Lin Tao and I on a business trip for three days. I lied to my husband, saying that I was on a business trip with a female colleague.
Two days before the business trip, Lin Tao and I were busy with the company's business, researching, studying, and discussing business.
It was only the last day of the business trip. It was relatively leisurely. After finishing work during the day, we had hot pot together in the evening. After eating, Lin Tao suggested going to see a movie, and I readily agreed.
I was worried that my husband’s phone calls would affect our movie watching, so I turned off the phone.
In the cinema, there were not many people watching the movie. We sat together without any embarrassment and enjoyed the movie happily.
After watching the movie, Lin Tao pulled me out of the cinema, and I pretended not to know anything.
When I returned to my accommodation, I turned on my phone and there were WeChat messages and missed calls from my husband.
I lied that my phone was out of battery before charging it to reassure him that I was fine.
lied and deceived people, which made me feel very sad and regretful. However, when I think about my future life, my heart becomes cruel again.
At 10 o'clock in the evening, Lin Tao came over to talk to me about work. We wrote a summary of the business trip and then drank some wine.
After returning from the business trip, Lin Tao and I got together.
Lin Tao was nice to me. He bought me clothes and cosmetics, and also bought me a second-hand car. Although it was a bit old, I was still very happy. And Lin Tao promised to buy me a one-bedroom house.
My husband would secretly look at my phone, but I had deleted all the important content and he didn’t notice anything unusual.
It was just my clothes and cosmetics. He suspected that someone else had bought them. I explained that I bought them myself with my hard-earned money from private jobs.
My car was not parked near the urban village because I was worried that my husband would find it.
Half a year later, I found out I was pregnant, and I knew it was Lin Tao.
When Lin Tao heard that I was pregnant, he didn't smile, but coldly asked me to go to the hospital to have an abortion.
I can't accept it and want to have a baby. But Lin Tao refused to agree. If I gave birth to a child, he would ask the company to fire me.
I was in a dilemma. In order to work, I could only go to the hospital to have an abortion. After I was discharged from the hospital, Lin Tao gave me 50,000 yuan and then disappeared. I couldn't contact him.
I went to the company to find him, and my colleague told me that Lin Tao had gone on a business trip and would not come back until two months later.
It became clear to me that Lin Tao was avoiding me on purpose. I was desperate.
Now I am in a dilemma, I don’t know how to face my husband. I know that paper cannot contain the fire, and my husband will definitely know.
So I decided to confess to my husband, but what I got was insults and cold slaps from my husband. My husband kicked and punched me, kicked me out of the house, and wanted to divorce me.
Being homeless, I went to my cousin's house. Lin Tao still couldn't be contacted, and I shed tears of regret.
Now, I have nothing and nothing. This is my retribution. I took the wrong path. After all, I have to swallow all the pain and sadness.
I hope you will take my story as a warning, stay safe after marriage, don’t betray your lover, and don’t leave yourself with nothing.
(Don’t match the numbers, if there are any similarities, it’s just a coincidence.)
