He usually sleeps for half an hour, but today he started dreaming soon after lying down, but when he woke up, he couldn't remember what happened in the dream. The car did not slow down, let alone stop, but fled.

pictures come from Internet intrusions and deletions.

1

Ma Song only took a ten-minute nap before he woke up. He usually sleeps for half an hour, but today he started dreaming soon after lying down, but when he woke up, he couldn't remember what happened in the dream. What are you dreaming about in broad daylight? He lay in bed thinking about the car accident that happened on Ping'an Street that morning. He witnessed the scene of the car accident and even took a look at the car that caused the accident. The car did not slow down, let alone stop, but fled.

At that time, he was sitting on the left side of the No. 30 bus. There were not many passengers on the bus because it was already past the rush hour. When the bus passed the scene of the accident, the driver slowed down, and the passengers on the bus turned their heads to look, and let out a sigh. He thought the driver would stop, but the driver just muttered something, then stepped on the accelerator, and the car roared away. Ma Song closed his eyes and thought, why didn't that woman take a look in advance? What was she going to do in such a hurry? The woman is about forty years old, at most no less, with a fat figure. She wears a short-sleeved shirt on the upper body and a black skirt on the lower body. The woman was lying on her back on the road, her skirt flipped over her belly by the wind, so that her red panties could be seen.

Ma Song only glanced at it, then quickly turned his head away and closed his eyes. A woman died for no reason... Ma Song lit a cigarette with a heavy heart and went to the bathroom.

When he came out of the bathroom, Ma Song thought that the woman crossed the highway regardless of something urgent, such as her child was sick or her husband was dying, and she went to the highway to call a doctor. Maybe her home was on this side of the road, and the reason she hurried across the road was just to go to the toilet on the other side of the road, because it was a public toilet. Masson shook his head. She couldn't risk her life for a pee, and she couldn't risk her life even if she peed in her pants. Maybe she is an unemployed woman, her husband does not make much money, her son is facing the college entrance examination, and she is under great pressure. In order for her son to study peacefully, she had to get up early and go to bed late...

Ma Song remembered that there was a middle school across the road. Maybe her son went to school there. The reason why she left in such a hurry might be to give her son Send breakfast. Masson felt that it was reasonable to think this way, and the woman's death would be worth it. No matter how you guess or think, anyone who encounters this kind of thing early in the morning will feel uncomfortable. No one wants to walk out the door and see dead people.

At noon today, Ma Xiaoping said he would take his girlfriend home for lunch. Ma Song was certainly happy when he heard what his son said, so he didn't have lunch in the store and returned home half an hour early. Ma Xiaoping fell in love several times, but he never brought his girlfriend home. Ma Xiaoping was a bit like him in his attitude towards this kind of thing. He was worried about this, thinking that a person can make love a trivial matter, but he must not take marriage seriously.

Yesterday, Ma Xiaoping solemnly told Ma Song that he had a girlfriend named Yilin and opened a mobile phone store. They planned to get married soon. When Ma Song heard what his son said, he was startled for a moment, and then he smiled brightly and asked when he was going to get married. The date had been set and if he still had a marriage certificate. Ma Xiaoping said that Yilin will come to our house tomorrow just to listen to your opinion. Ma Song was a little excited when he heard what his son said. The fact that his son took the initiative to talk to him about this matter meant that he wanted to ease the tense relationship between the two of them that had been at war with him. His son took the initiative to reconcile, so of course he had to be more proactive.

Since he divorced his wife, his relationship with his son has become tense, and his words are always full of gunpowder. That year, his son was eighteen years old and was facing the college entrance examination, but his wife asked him for a divorce. He said, would it be okay to wait until Xiaoping finished his college entrance examination? But the wife said, do you still have a son in your eyes? If you care about your son and think about his future, then you won't associate with that slut! He said, I know I was wrong, but if I get divorced now, it will affect Xiaoping's college entrance examination. You know, this is a critical moment that determines your son's fate.The wife said, fate? Nonsense! My destiny has been ruined by you, but I can still care about others... My wife was talking with tears streaming down her face. He couldn't defeat her, so he said fine! I promise you. He understands his wife's temper. If he doesn't agree to her, then she will either drink medicine or jump off the building. If the family is really ruined, it is better to divorce.

The breakdown of the family is as much a blow to the son as a devastation. My son lost confidence in the college entrance examination and failed miserably. He discussed with his son whether he should repeat the course for another year? However, his son ignored his words and kept a gloomy face all day long. Looking at his son, who was over 1.8 meters tall and half a head taller than himself, he became cautious when speaking. The son stayed at home for half a month and then went to an auto repair shop. Half a year later, the son used the money he earned to get a driver's license and bought a second-hand car shortly thereafter. Since my son started driving a taxi, he rarely eats at home. Ma Song knows that driving is hard, and he often buys chicken, duck, fish, etc. for his son, but his son doesn't even look at it. After my son started driving, he not only learned to smoke, but also learned to drink.

He wanted to talk to his son several times, but his son always didn't give him a chance, and he didn't give him a good look, so he hesitated every time. He couldn't blame his son for his attitude towards him. If it weren't for him, his son wouldn't be where he is today. In fact, he had stopped interacting with the woman named Wang Xiaomai for a long time. If the two of them had not met unexpectedly that day, what happened later would not have happened.

That day, he met Wang Xiaomai in a supermarket. Wang Xiaomai proposed to find a place to sit and acted coquettishly to Ma Song, saying that Ma Song had forgotten her. Ma Song had no choice but to find a teahouse with her to drink tea. The atmosphere of the teahouse was good, the lighting was ambiguous, and the woman wanted to rekindle their old relationship, so he couldn't control himself under the woman's tender gaze. When they drank tea and walked out of the teahouse arm in arm, Masson's wife saw them.

When he got home, he explained, defended, confessed, and admitted his mistakes to his wife, but his wife said, Ma Song! Don't you think I'm an idiot? I have long discovered your despicable deeds. I thought you would stop at the cliff, but you fell deeper and deeper! Ma Song said, so you are monitoring me every day? The wife said, what do you think? What could he say. He had nothing to say, and he knew that the more he explained, the darker the picture would become. If it hadn't been for the divorce, my son would have gone to college. Thinking of this, he felt sad and regretful.

Ma Xiaoping did not take the girl named Yilin home. Ma Song was busy all morning, buying vegetables and cooking, setting a table with all kinds of meat and vegetables. But at noon, his son was nowhere to be seen. Ma Song called his son's cell phone, but his son didn't answer. He knew his son didn't answer on purpose. It's a good thing that his son doesn't answer. If his son asks him what's wrong, what will he say? He couldn't say that he called him just to meet the girl named Yilin. He sat on the sofa and smoked a cigarette, then went downstairs.

After he lost his job last year, he was introduced by a friend and found a job as a storekeeper in the South Market. The work is not tiring, but the hours are long. Sometimes I don’t go home until eight or nine o’clock in the evening. He usually eats lunch in the store, sometimes a bowl of noodles, sometimes two steamed buns. Not going home at noon can save money on the bus, and sometimes his boss even treats him to dinner. He lived frugally for no other purpose than to save money for his son so that he could buy a house for him in the future.

2

When the bus passed the accident scene again, Ma Song saw that the blood stains left by the woman had been washed away. The orderly flow of vehicles makes people suspicious of the traffic accident that occurred in the morning. Maybe it's an illusion on my part. Masson thought, unconsciously putting a hand into his pocket, and then took out a cigarette. He lit up the cigarette and just took a puff when he heard the conductor say that there is a fine for smoking! ten yuan.

The conductor came up from behind him, looked at him, and asked him to pay. All the conductors on this bus knew him, but the woman standing in front of him had an unfamiliar face. He threw the cigarette out of the car window and asked me if I should be fined if I threw it away? The woman said, these are two different things. First, you smoked in the car. He didn't want to pay the fine because ten yuan was enough for him to eat for a day.The woman said, "If you don't pay, you will get off the car. This car is not driven by you alone!" He lowered his head, feeling ashamed.

It was the first time for him to be scolded by a woman in front of so many people. The woman asked the driver to stop. The driver finally said, forget it! He is an old passenger of ours. No need for it this time. The woman was stunned for a moment and said she would never do it again! He blushed and nodded.

Is that woman dead? When he got out of the car, he wanted to ask the driver, but he just opened his mouth and ultimately did not speak out. When he arrived at the store, he was always distracted, so he gave more than fifty yuan to a buyer. The boss looked indifferent to this. He kept saying that it would be deducted from my salary. The boss said, be careful next time and it is best not to have something like this happen again. He said, please deduct it from my salary this month, otherwise I will feel uneasy. The boss said, forget it! I don't care about the money. The boss really doesn't care. I heard that he has several million now, so why would he care about that little money?

Ma Song had suffered from poor appetite for the past few days. As soon as he closed his eyes, he saw the woman lying on the road. Sometimes he felt strange and couldn't figure out why he always thought about the car accident and that woman. Is she related to herself? No! I don’t know her, so why am I thinking about her and anxious to know her life or death. Although he thought so, the scene of the car accident still remained in his mind. That scene seemed to have taken root in his mind, and even an eraser couldn't erase it. At this moment he really wanted to have an eraser and erase that scene with it. He smoked, almost finishing a pack of cigarettes. When he took out the last cigarette from the cigarette case, he decided to go downstairs to buy cigarettes. The cigarettes he smokes are cheap, less than five yuan a pack. He usually goes to the canteen downstairs to buy cigarettes.

Ma Xiaoping came home when he went to buy cigarettes.

When he got home, he saw his son and a girl sitting on the sofa watching TV, and he couldn't help being stunned. Needless to say, she is the girl named Irene that her son mentioned. When the girl saw him, she was not shy at all. Instead, she stood up gracefully and called him dad respectfully. This caught him by surprise, and his promise was a bit vague. He glanced at his son, then took a cigarette out of his pocket. As he was taking out his cigarette, a pink eraser fell to the floor. His son asked him why he bought rubber? He was startled for a moment and said that Lao Wang had no change, so he gave me a piece of eraser. He bent down and picked up the piece of eraser and said, "You guys talk, I'll make tea."

dad. Erin said, let me go.

His body shook involuntarily and he said, "I'll go, I'll go."

He is so excited today. Since he and his wife divorced, his son has never called him dad again.

He served the tea and sat down. The son handed him a cigarette and lit it for him.

Yilin said, Dad, we plan to get married next month, do you have any objection?

He said hurriedly, no, no.

The son was just smoking and looking at the TV, looking absent-minded. He got up and went to the bedroom and took out all the money he had saved for many years. When he put the banknotes on the coffee table, Irene said, "We didn't tell you we were getting married just to get your money." He pushed the stack of banknotes in front of his son, but his son didn't look at it, his eyes were still fixed on the TV. He said with embarrassment that the money was not much, and that was all I wanted to give him. Erin hurriedly said, we have money, really! The son finally said, "Take it." Otherwise, dad would not be able to live in peace.

After all these years, he finally heard his son call him dad. He almost shed tears over this.

How can we ask for dad's money? Erin insisted not to.

He said, take it! Don't you think it's too little?

OK, I'll accept it. Erin said.

Erin sat there for half an hour. When she left, Ma Song insisted on sending her downstairs. She said that Xiaoping would do the trick. He stopped and watched his son and her go downstairs. My son's car is parked downstairs. After they went downstairs, he looked downstairs from the window. The son and Irene were standing under a tree, talking about something. He was happy that his son could meet such a good girl.The streetlight downstairs was not very bright, but he could see his son and Irene through the dim light. The son seemed angry and kept gesticulating with his hands. After a while, Yilin left, and she seemed angry too. After his son went upstairs, he asked, "Why don't you drive her off?"

Never mind her! The son said angrily. If she wants to leave, just let her go.

Are you arguing? He said.

She is pregnant. said the son. But I don't want children now.

Why? He said.

The son said impatiently, do you still need to ask why? If you don’t want it, you don’t want it. Why do you get so many?

The son sat down on the sofa, looking very angry. He threw a cigarette to his son. The son reached out to catch the cigarette spinning in the air, and then held it in his mouth.

Where have you been on April 26th? He looked at his son and said it was the day before yesterday.

’s son felt strange and said, “Why are you asking this?”

That day, a car accident occurred on Ping'an Street. He said. I'm telling you to drive slower.

My son said, I went to Haibin City the day before yesterday, and it was already evening when I came back.

Hearing what his son said, he was finally relieved. Now, he suddenly realized that he had been in a daze for a few days, always thinking about the car accident, and it turned out that he was worried about his son. When he saw the car involved in the escape, he immediately thought of his son. What would happen if that was his son's car? It was just a fleeting thought at the time, but he never imagined that it would torture him for so many days. As long as she's not a son, isn't it ridiculous to think about that woman? The woman was in her forties and slightly fat. Because the incident happened suddenly, he did not see her appearance clearly. His son's words calmed him. But shortly after he calmed down, he suddenly thought of Ma Xiaoping's mother. The woman was lying on the road, blood flowing from her head like a stream. Could that woman be her?

The son said he wanted to go downstairs.

He said, it’s so dark, why don’t you trust Yilin to go alone?

The son said, I drove to see her off.

That pink eraser couldn't erase the car accident scene in his mind. For several days, he wanted to call his ex-wife to confirm that the woman was not her. However, every time he picked up the phone receiver, he hesitated because he lacked the courage, and finally gave up halfway. It would be boring if the person who answered the phone was the ex-wife's husband.

The year after the divorce, his ex-wife found him. The man is a private owner and I heard he is very rich. These were all told to him intentionally by his son. The son's intention when he said that was obvious, but he pretended to be insensitive, but he felt uncomfortable in his heart. Maybe the money for his son's car purchase was sponsored by that guy. The son said that several of his friends lent him the money. He didn't ask who lent the money to his son because he didn't want to be embarrassed. Since that incident, his status in the family has plummeted, and his son has no regard for him at all. After my son fell in love, his attitude towards him finally improved. They are all men. He thought so. His son was a bit like him in this respect, and he was often worried about it. But then he thought about it, and then he thought about it, isn't it just like that? Why take it too seriously?

On that day, when his son came back, he told him that he agreed to have the child. A miscarriage was almost the same as giving birth, so it was better to have the child. He said, you are right, miscarriage is not good for the body, and if it is not done properly, you will get sick. The son finally began to accept him, and a woman made him understand his father. He saw the shadow of his own youth in his son, but his son was more mature than he was when he was young, and he was very thoughtful in doing things. He thought that his son would grow up in a complex society, and of course it would become more complex in a subtle way. Isn't this a sign of maturity? Once, the son talked to him about his mother. He was perfunctory with his son and didn't want to talk about this topic. The son said that on his wedding day, he wanted to bring his mother over and let her attend their wedding. He said, as long as she is willing to come. The son said that she would definitely come.

A woman in her forties was lying on the road...a woman. He didn't know why he kept thinking of that woman.One day, he could no longer control himself and finally called his ex-wife's home phone number. His hand holding the receiver was shaking, and his heart was pounding. The phone connected and beeped. I hang up the phone whenever I hear her voice. He was nervous and uneasy, just like when he called the woman behind his wife's back before the divorce, he was both excited and scared. His other hand played with the pink eraser. If only the past were a painting, preferably a rough draft, then he could erase it with the eraser in his hand and start over. Holding the phone receiver in his hand, he suddenly had the idea of ​​repenting to his ex-wife. His son was about to get married and start a family, but he had lost his wife... Finally someone came to answer the phone.

Who are you? asked a child, and it was a boy. Why do not you speak?

The boy's voice is young and sweet.

Are you the father? Definitely is! You big bad wolf, why did you lie to me?

He remained silent.

The boy said, are you with your mother? Do you not want me anymore?

He doesn't speak.

The boy said, are you not the father?

He said, where is your mother?

The boy said, you are not the father! who are you?

He said, where is your mother?

The boy said, are you a bad person?

He said, no, I am your father's friend.

The boy laughed and said you are Uncle Zhou.

He said, yes!

then hung up.

He felt tired and slumped on the sofa. The gray phone was silent, and so was the room. He lit a cigarette and wondered if this child was the product of sex between his ex-wife and that man? This boy has nothing to do with me, even though he was born to my son’s mother. Now, my son has a half-brother. He is his younger brother and the son of his ex-wife, but he has nothing to do with me. His ex-wife had little interest in sexual intercourse and was even a little frigid. This had something to do with his close relationship with that woman. A woman who almost hated having sex gave birth to a boy with another man after a divorce. Did she take the initiative to have a child? His mind was in turmoil. Such fruitless speculation will only lead to trouble.

One day later, at night, he called his ex-wife's house again.

It’s you again! the boy said in surprise. Are you looking for my dad?

He said, your father is not at home?

The boy said that he was never at home and his mother would quarrel with him whenever he was at home. They were noisy and noisy, they were so annoying!

The boy said he was bored to death. He couldn't help but smile. Such a young child knows how annoying it is.

Are you looking for my mother? the boy asked.

Is your mother at home? He said.

The boy said, she is taking a shower, do you want me to call her to answer the phone?

He said, no need, let her wash it.

Who are you talking to? Is

the voice of my ex-wife? The voice was a little hoarse, as if he had a cold.

an uncle. said the boy. Dad’s friend, Uncle Zhou.

Is there something wrong with him? the ex-wife asked.

doesn't know. said the boy.

He hung up the phone.

The ex-wife married a rich man. Now that she is a rich wife, she must have changed a lot.

3

The woman lying on the road was not his ex-wife, and the car that caused the accident was not his son's car. Ma Song finally felt relieved. Sometimes when he passed the scene of the accident on the No. 30 bus, he would still think of the woman lying on the road. The woman is a little fat, and her legs look a little swollen, like a kidney patient. He thought of that scene occasionally, but it no longer struck him as shockingly as it had in the past. His life returned to the loneliness and boredom he had experienced after the divorce. He goes to work in that small shop by car every day, has something to eat at noon, and usually returns home at eight or nine o'clock in the evening. My son rarely sleeps at home, let alone eats. He really wanted to talk to his son about his marriage to that girl. Why didn't he hear anything about his marriage from his son for so long? Did they change their minds or did they break up? One day, my son didn't get out of the car. he asked his son. My son said we broke up.He said, why? Don’t you get along well with each other? The son said mockingly, what can we talk about? Even if you get married, divorce is inevitable, let alone when two people are in love. His son's words made him feel uncomfortable, and his face turned red and white. He felt that he was asking for humiliation, so he said nothing more. The son said, Dad, I have something to tell you. Let’s talk someday. My son talks like an adult. What's up? He said. There was no reaction for a moment. My son said we will talk about it another day. I am not feeling well today. I seem to have a cold.

He felt that the girl named Yilin was pretty good and not as unkind as his son said. One day, he met Irene in a supermarket. Her son broke up with her and she could ignore him, but she didn't do that. Yilin called him uncle respectfully. He didn't expect Yilin to call him that. He looked at Yilin not knowing what to do, hesitating whether to ask her why she and Xiaoping broke up. At this time, a young man came towards Yilin, and he suddenly understood. The young man put his arm around Yilin's waist affectionately and said, let's go! What are you doing? Erin looked back at Ma Song. The young man muttered, "You know that old fellow." The young man's words sounded harsh to him, so he said, young man, please speak more politely! The young man said, old thing! How do you want me to be polite to you? Erin said, why are you swearing! The young man said, who is he to you? You don’t know him, so what if I scold him? Masson could not help clenching his fists, but he did not fight with the young man. Afterwards he thought I should have taught that guy a lesson. Shouldn’t the woman whose son he took away from him be punished?

My son has never been happy. He knew that this was related to his son's breakup with Irene. Although his son said he didn't care, he didn't care in his heart. He really wanted to tell his son that he saw Yilin, and he almost got into a fight with her boyfriend. Seeing that his son was distracted, he had to give up the idea.

On that day, my son came home earlier than usual. When he got home, his son had prepared dinner and there was a bottle of wine on the table.

Let’s eat. The son looked at Ma Song who looked surprised after entering the door and said, I did it all.

He sat down and said that day you said you had something to talk to me about. What was it? You say it.

The son poured him a glass of wine and said that my mother and that guy were divorced.

Hearing what his son said, he was surprised. He didn't understand what his son meant by that.

The son said, that guy found another one outside. You know, my mother hates this kind of thing.

Do you mean to bring her back? He said.

The son said, what do you think?

He didn't know how to answer his son. She was the one who filed for divorce in the first place and was the one who wanted to leave him. Now that she was coming back, he couldn't accept this reality for a while.

The son said, if you don’t agree, then I will move to my mother’s house.

He didn’t want to lose his son, so he asked me to think about it.

He started drinking. He drank almost all of the bottle of wine.

Your mother gave birth to a son to that guy. A teasing smile appeared on his face. Your mother gave birth to a younger brother for you. He drained the glass again.

My mother...son...brother? said the son. Who did you listen to? how do you know?

He laughed.

Who did I hear this from? He said. I listened to myself.

My son said, you drank too much.

Drink too much? He said. My mind is clear! Have you ever seen me drink too much?

Then tell me, how do you know? said the son.

I called her home. He said a boy answered the phone and said his mother was taking a shower that day.

The son said, nonsense! Nothing! Why doesn't

exist? He said. If you don't believe it, you can call and ask. Or I'll fight.

He went to dial. Although he was a little excited, he controlled himself well and did not make the dialing hand tremble.

The call was connected. He glanced at his son, as if to say, just wait and see!

Hello! Is it Xu Chunmei’s family? He said.

A woman's voice said on the phone, who are you? What do you want to do after calling me over and over again? do you know? I can sue you!

Isn’t that woman Xu Chunmei?

I am looking for Xu Chunmei. he muttered.

Am I Xu Chunmei? said the woman. But I don't know you at all! who are you?

He said, how do you know that I have called you again and again?

The woman said, my phone number is the caller ID, do you know? I can give your number to 110 and let them catch you! I can also tell the police that you made repeated terrorist calls.

Sorry. He said. I made the wrong call, I didn't mean to.

He hung up the phone. How could

be typed incorrectly? he said to himself.

The son said, where did you get this number?

checked it from your notebook. he said sheepishly.

The son laughed and said that the number was not his mother's phone number at all, but the number of one of my clients.

Hearing what his son said, his face turned red and he mumbled, "But, her name is Xu Chunmei." The son said that it just happened to have the same name. He said, no matter what, your mother found you again and is now abandoned again. I accept her and let her come back, but I feel uncomfortable. uncomfortable!

Isn’t this all your fault? said the son. Besides, my mother was not found at all, let alone abandoned. After your divorce, she has been living alone.

Then why do you say she is divorced? She also said that the man she was looking for was a boss?

The son laughed and said that my mother asked me to say that. She was testing you.

His son's words were unexpected and he became speechless for a moment. He reached for the cigarette in his pocket with trembling hands. He took out an eraser. It's the pink eraser. He put it under his nose and sniffed. It's lemony. The eraser meant nothing to him now, he didn't need it to erase anything because he had nothing to erase at all. He walked to the window, pushed it open, and threw the pink eraser out the window. He didn't know what his move meant. Is it the beginning of a new life?

The son said, I want my mother to come back.

You should remarry. The son said again.

He looked out the window at the night and thought about his past. The past is a painting, but the painting is only half-painted. Since I cannot erase the half-painted painting, I have no choice but to continue painting. A person's life is like painting a painting, but you can't modify it, you can only continue painting, no matter whether the result is bad or not, so rubber is useless.

The son said, do you disagree?

He came to his senses and said, you can take care of it.

The son said, so you agree?

He nodded.

The son said, then I will drive my mother home.

He nodded again and offered to go with his son. On the road, my son drove the car smoothly. When the car drove to Ping An Street, his son said, do you still remember the car accident? The son turned to look at him and continued, saying that it was the woman who didn't want to live anymore. He had almost forgotten about it. When his son said this, the scene of the woman lying on the road came to mind again. He closed his eyes, feeling a little dissatisfied with what the woman did. He was going to die, so why did he cause trouble for the driver? Although the driver would not bear any responsibility for this, no matter what, he killed someone. In the days to come, the death of that woman will be a shadow that he cannot get rid of. The son is still saying, do you know who the driver is? it's me! I didn't know at the time that she was seeking death, so she drove away...

When my son said this, he didn't react for a moment.

After a cigarette, he said, how could this be? How is this going?

The son said nonchalantly, how do I know? It happened so suddenly, my mind went blank at the time and I didn't react at all. When I realized what was going on, my first thought was to run away. You will do the same if I ask you. She wanted to die, and I was driving normally at the time, so this matter had nothing to do with me.The traffic police saw the surveillance and they said it had nothing to do with me.

He looked at his son confusedly, not knowing what to say. My son has become a lot stranger. As my son grows up day by day, that feeling of strangeness begins. Now that his son is an adult, he agreed to remarry his ex-wife, but he knew that even if he remarried, he would not be able to return to his original life. Maybe, time will repair everything...maybe.