The tumor ward has a dim light, and it is difficult to clearly define the boundary between day and night. The caller in the corridor has been coming one after another, with almost no pauses.
patients and families entering and exiting the doctor's office. The examination report handed to the doctor was a thick dozen without exception, and only the file bag could be stuffed.
tumor wards are quieter than ordinary wards. The patient is wearing a mask, and various tubes and bags are hanging on his body. Under the wool cap, there is a high probability that he will have a glossy head.
Cancer, targets, lesions, chemotherapy, recurrence, metastasis... Every bed is a life and death story that races against death every day.
Patients will also chat with each other. When talking about the hair loss problem after chemotherapy, someone casually talked about black humor .
Who originally had straight hair, but they all fell out during chemotherapy. Unexpectedly, I stopped chemotherapy and a big wave grew. Xu Mei, who is bed
55, is the loneliest one in the ward.
In 2014, he was diagnosed with ovarian cancer. Looking back now, she was just the first domino in the family to fall.
In 2015, Xu Mei's elder sister was also diagnosed with ovarian cancer. Afterwards, Xu Mei's mother also found out that the same disease was found.
became ill for 5 years and relapsed 3 times. Ovarian and cervical removal surgery and local intestinal resection were performed successively. For Xu Mei, as long as she can live, she can take a breath.
In September last year, after chemotherapy in the provincial tumor hospital, she went downstairs to buy instant noodles. When I walked into the elevator, I accidentally ran into my mother who came to Nanjing for chemotherapy from Lianyungang .
The mother in front of her was so thin that she deformed due to chemotherapy, while her hair was completely lost due to chemotherapy. The accidental encounter between mother and daughter in the cancer hospital made Xu Mei heartbroken.
She pulled a scarf and wrapped her bald head, afraid that her sick mother would know that she had relapsed for the third time.
The 5 years of repeated entanglement with cancer have turned Xu Mei's husband into a credit card slave.
Xu Mei had an operation. He took a day off and dared not stop making money at other days. 800 yuan a month's rent, raising a pair of children, and huge medical expenses are bills that he can't afford to give gas .
was forced into a corner and applied for all the credit cards that banks in Nanjing could apply for, and owed a total of more than 200,000 yuan in card debts.
△The lunch prepared by Xu Mei for herself
The question of 42-year-old Xu Mei is particularly difficult to answer.
others advised her to get water drop chip . Xu Mei was unwilling to do so. Raising funds from the public requires publishing all examination reports, family conditions, and the results of genetic examinations must be announced accordingly.
My daughter is 21 years old this year and just found a job as an intern nurse. If the results of my genetic test are announced, how can my daughter find a partner in the future?
She can't ruin her daughter's life just because she wants to survive.
Compared with Xu Mei, Wang Rulin's family conditions seem to be much better in the bed next door.
Before she got sick, she was a company HR, her husband was a salesman, and her son was sensible and well-behaved. After years of hard work, I am entering a stable life of quasi-middle-aged people.
But you don’t know where fate will lay mines. Triple-negative breast cancer, the most dangerous type of breast cancer, is more common in young women. Wang Rulin unfortunately stepped on this thunder.
Provincial Human Resources Medical Clinical Research on Triple Negative Breast Cancer, Only patients with first recurrence were admitted. However, Wang Rulin, who had received other treatments, no longer met the treatment conditions for drug research when she entered the provincial human doctor.
The existing treatment method can only be chemotherapy.2 years, 20 chemotherapy , Wang Rulin lost all her hair and was extremely weak.
In the fourth ward of provincial human medicine tumors, she is a senior patient. Seeing patients with different personalities coming in and out, she was the only one who could not see the hospitalization period.
optimistic patients in the same ward. After chemotherapy, they did not avoid any food for fruit melon seed biscuits, and vomited while eating them, and lived very hard. Wang Rulin not only admires her but also admires her.
For her, the lower limit of life endurance has been lowered by reality again and again.
When she just removed her breasts, she felt like a disabled person. Later, after experiencing lung metastasis and brain metastasis, I realized that the incompleteness of the body is nothing.
cancer cells metastasize to the brain. When it is serious, they press on the motor nerves. Half of her body is paralyzed in bed and loses self-awareness. epilepsy seizures and even several people can't hold it.
Nowadays, it is a miracle to be able to go to the provincial doctor cafeteria with my husband for a meal after chemotherapy.
Once upon a time, she was tired of endless chemotherapy and tried oral medication, but the tumor grew rapidly.
However, Wang Rulin, who has undergone 20 chemotherapy, really doesn't know how many more chemotherapy she can withstand. Li Qian of
86 is the youngest patient in the department. 2 years ago, at the age of 29, she was diagnosed with breast cancer.
Recalling the past two or three years, the young Li Qian felt that every detail was as absurd as a nightmare.
In May 2017, Li Qian sat in the gynecological clinic of her hometown hospital. The expert on the opposite side, "I just touched it with my hands and said three words, it was vicious."
A year ago, she had left breast pain. The company's physical examination said it was breast hyperplasia . She communicated with her female colleagues in private, and everyone said it was normal.
Li Qian was confused when she heard the doctor's diagnosis. It was not until a series of tests that the feeling of despair became real: breast cancer is advanced and has spread throughout the body.
That means that even if surgery is not possible, even chemotherapy may only last for a few months.
Before this, like many people, Li Qian was walking according to her own plan: she graduated from college, married her classmates, worked hard, and had a cute child.
The flashing line of fate was not a deviation this time, but was cruelly broken from it. Li Qian once wanted to give up on herself.
△Medical Research Office in Ward 4 of Oncology Department
But his husband refused to give up and pretended to be calm in front of her. But I couldn't sleep all night at night and shed tears on her back.
local hospitals recommend them to the provincial human doctor, just as they catch up with the new breast cancer targeted drug to recruit clinical research patients.
Li Qian's husband checked the Internet and found that the new anti-cancer drug used in the drug has been launched abroad. Because the country is still in the clinical research stage, drug research will be added and the drug fee will be exempted.
I underwent eight chemotherapy sessions in the early stage and the new medicine has been used for almost 2 years. Now that the lesion of breast is controlled at 1 cm, Li Qian feels that it is already a blessing.
When it comes to children, Li Qian's eyes immediately turned red. When I was diagnosed, I couldn't see my son at all, "I can't stand it when I see his small appearance."
Now the child is growing up and can speak. Before coming to the hospital, his son would run to the door of his house to ask his mother to hug him, but Li Qian was not physically strong and never picked her up.
Can't become an ordinary mother because of the guilt that has been weighing on my heart since the day I got sick.
The old lady Chen Suyun who joined Li Qian in the medicine research group, Li Qian envied her very much. She is the miracle that patients talk about when chatting.
73-year-old Chen Suyun, like Li Qian, now comes to the hospital every 3 weeks, and is hospitalized here for one or two days each time.
The old wife, Uncle Liu, accompanied her inseparably. The two old men took the high-speed rail from Ma'anshan, Anhui to Nanjing South , and then fell into the subway and bus. It's been almost 2 years.
In the autumn of 2016, when Chen Suyun was taking a bath, she found that there was an nodule of with her right breast.
Uncle Liu accompanied her to her hometown hospital and got the examination results. Uncle Liu's tears came down: in the advanced stage of breast cancer, the cancer cells have metastasized to the liver and lungs.
The family went to Nanjing again without telling the truth about Chen Suyun.
The doctor has seen the condition and communicated with his family: the tumor spreads, there is no surgery, only chemotherapy, and the life span cannot be guaranteed.
The whole family cried with their heads on their heads. Chen Suyun couldn't hide it anymore. The old lady shed tears while explaining her funeral to her daughter.
△The current treatment has no effect, or it cannot bear the cost. Participating in the clinical research of new drugs has become the last glimmer of hope for some tumor patients
Things have turned around a few months later, the attending doctor said that the provincial doctor is recruiting clinical drug research patients with new breast cancer drugs, and suggested that they try it.
In April 2017, the family signed an agreement. Uncle Liu, who had always been calm in the office, had his hands trembling when signing.
is the uneasy for the unknown new drug and the hope of living. It was in May 2
officially used medicine in May 2017. Two elderly people in their 70s began to frequently run between Ma'anshan and Nanjing. In two years, Nanjing has been here more than 30 times.
The race against death, Chen Suyun won. new drug has obvious effect on her. Who would have thought that the person who was sentenced to death by fate two years ago could still buy groceries and cook for his granddaughter who was in the first year of high school?
After the disaster, I can't help but be glad to participate in clinical medicine research. Nearly one million yuan in huge drug costs were waived in more than a year.
In the hospital, except for ICU, the Oncology Department became the closest place to death.
An automatic door seems to separate two worlds.
Outside the door, there are countless ordinary wishes in the world: change to a bigger house, get a promotion and raise, and travel farther away...
And in the door, all wishes are only three words left: live.
